covet her

Chapter 141 It's Not Your Fault

Over the years, Lin Shixi has recalled these two sentences countless times, and always feels frustrated and powerless. Lin Miao's death is like a mountain, which weighs heavily on her back, making her almost unable to straighten up. Waist up.

I'm sorry.

One is because of the girl, and the other is because of the daughter.

Lin Shixi stared out the window in a daze, and said with a little self-mockery: "Although grandma keeps telling me that this has nothing to do with me, what Jiang Zonghuai did makes me feel that it is my fault, because I am a girl. , That's why he did this to my mother, beating her, scolding her, even forcing her to divorce, and finally died of illness."

It's not that she hasn't tried hard.

She just wanted Jiang Zonghuai and the others to know that she could do what boys can do, but no matter how hard she tried and how well she did, in their eyes, being born with the wrong gender was her original sin.

Who made her a girl.

She did her best in everything, but in the end she only got a sentence of "it's a pity it's a girl".

Oh, what a pity.

An understatement of two words negated all her efforts.

After seeing this point, Lin Shixi resolutely broke off contact with the Jiang family, even refusing to ask for the Jiang family's child support.

She is too young to work part-time when she is under the age of [-]. Life is indeed difficult. Fortunately, there is no tuition fee in the compulsory education stage, and the school regularly distributes living allowances to needy students, so she will not be unable to survive.

The days went on so plainly and peacefully.

Lin Shixi thought that this page of Jiang's family had been turned over, but in the past two years, Jiang Zonghuai didn't know what medicine he had taken wrongly, and suddenly remembered that his daughter, who had been ignored for more than ten years, had come, not only asked Should she move back to Jiang's house, and play the family card with her.

The old lady has been in the hospital for more than a month. Jiang Zonghuai has called her several times and insisted on asking her to go to the hospital to try to repair the broken relationship.

Lin Shixi's reaction to this was to block his mobile phone number without hesitation.

Just because something happened doesn't mean it didn't happen.

During the few years when she was in the Jiang family when she was a child, the old lady beat her or scolded her, completely treating her as a toy. This attitude of an adult will subtly affect the children. Also learned violence.

Lin Shixi could remember these things for a lifetime.

She is not a saint, so she can't learn to repay grievances with kindness. If it is not too troublesome, she would like to offer three sticks of incense at home every day to pray that the old lady will be buried as soon as possible.

Jiang Zonghuai still wants her to go to the hospital to see the old lady?
Pull it down.

If she went, it would only pull the old lady's oxygen tube.

It can also perform the fastest extubation for the doctors on the spot. The movements are absolutely standard and neat, and there is no sloppiness guaranteed. It can be recorded and played as a model video for looping.

After Lin Shixi's final note fell, the air became quiet, only the small fan above his head was still turning, making a constant "squeak, squeak, squeak" friction sound.

Shen Zhu's eyes dimmed, his thin lips slightly pursed into a cold line, and he looked at Lin Shixi quietly, when the little girl talked about these things now, it was already the kind of extraordinarily calm and breezy after the incident tone of voice.

It seems like it doesn't matter at all now.

Shen Wang could tell that she really wanted to turn this page completely, but there was a scar in her heart that could not be removed no matter what, and that scar was engraved on her heart, and it would never be forgotten. will disappear.

That was the shadow of her life.

"Lin Shixi."

A hand fell gently on her head, the palm was dry and warm.

"It's not your fault." In the palpitating silence, Lin Shixi heard the boy in front of him say, "You've done a good job."

Shen Huang rubbed her hair, her eyes became gentle: "Your mother will definitely be proud of you, she knows that her daughter is no worse than anyone else, she is a very special and excellent girl."

The young man pronounced his words clearly, his voice was low and slow, and every word and every sentence was full of affirmation, which spread into her ears bit by bit.

What happened to the girls.

Gender doesn't mean anything, and it's not her fault, it's the fault of those who are sexist.

Lin Shixi was startled, and his eyes suddenly became hot.

She grew up in denial and suppression since she was a child, and she has always been surrounded by negative voices-"It's just a little girl, what can I do?" Have a baby?", "Girls develop their brains earlier, and boys have more stamina, and you will be able to see it after a few years."

No one has ever said such a thing to her, and no one will tell her word for word that you are fine, no worse than anyone else, and your mother will be proud of you.

A soreness that suddenly surged up from the bottom of my heart stuck in my throat, and I couldn't go up or down, as if the grievances of so many years had finally found an outlet to pour out, Lin Shixi's black and soft eyelashes trembled, With a soft and difficult voice: "Shen Wang, thank you."

Thank you for telling me this.

Thank you for letting me know that I'm not as bad as they say, that's unbearable.

"Lin Shixi, you don't need to thank me, you are always like this." Shen Wang rubbed her hair, his movements became more gentle, "Even if I don't say it, it can't change the fact that you are fine."

Lin Shixi raised her face slightly to look at Shen Wang.

There was a bit of dampness between Shen Zhuan's eyebrows and eyes, and the dark pupils seemed to be soaked in water, which seemed a little deeper than usual. The flames that burned.

The young man clearly still had the sharp and indifferent look he usually has, but his eyes looking over him were rare and gentle.

She pursed the corner of her lower lip slightly, and was about to open her mouth to speak, but suddenly a sentence came from behind: "What are you two doing?"

The voice was very familiar, with a curious tone.

The warm atmosphere was broken.

Lin Shixi turned her head subconsciously following the sound, and saw Shi Sang walking towards this side, with Xie Yan following behind Shi Sang.

At a distance of two or three meters, Shi Sang strode over and stopped in the narrow aisle between the dining tables. Shen Wang glanced at him and took his hands back: "It's nothing."

That's what it means to be too lazy to tell him.

Shi Sang is already used to this kind of double-standard attitude of his dear brother. His dear brother said to Lin Shixi, "Okay, okay, okay, no problem, whatever you say is what you say", and to him, "What, you What are you talking about, you better stop talking, I didn’t go out with my ears today.”

There is no way, what else can I do with the brother I chose?

I can only pet it.

(End of this chapter)