About the fact that I accidentally turned my sister into a cripple

The ups and downs of the roller coaster went back and forth several times in a row, which was very exciting, and at the same time, Sakakihara Le felt that her hand was crushed by the girl A Ling.

When she was riding the roller coaster, she was so excited that she kept screaming, but at the same time she was very scared. In addition, Liuli's body strength was already great.
However, even though it hurts.

But when getting off the roller coaster, Sakakihara realized that he had never seen such an expression on Ah Ling's body.
Her hair was disheveled by the wind, but there was an unconcealable joy on her face.

She was very happy and satisfied.

Sakakihara Raku had seen a similar expression before, it was after she took Liuli out on a date, and went to the game hall to play a game together.

"how do you feel?"

"Hey, it's great! Relax and relax~~"

"."

I almost believed it.

Sakakihara chose not to complain about her, but let her be happy and happy.

Went to buy two cups of juice at the drink place, and Sakakihara handed the orange-flavored juice to "Tianhai Jiuliu".

The two sat on the bench.

Because the roller coaster is really scary, both of them feel that they should take a rest, so they are here for a while.

Drinking fruit juice, blowing the night wind of Hawaii, watching the prosperity of the Hawaiian amusement park, the mood and spirit seem to be empty, comfortable and cozy
"Tianhai Jiuliuli" sat next to Sakakihara Le, and saw him staring at a place in the distance silently sipping juice.

"old--"

"It's Ale."

"Okay, Le."

After being quiet for a while, Sakakibara waited for a long time but did not hear Ah Ling continue talking to her, so she turned to look at her, and saw that she seemed to have something to say.

"Just tell me what you want to say, now I will listen carefully to everything."

"Um"

"Tianhai Jiuliuli" held the juice in both hands, and her crossed thumbs moved aimlessly. This movement lasted for a long time before she whispered:
"16 years, just now was the first time in 16 years that you took me to ride a roller coaster in an amusement park."

Sakakihara saw her turn to look at him.

The four eyes meet and face each other.

A simple sentence, but it seems to carry the infinite expectations she has contained in the past 16 years.
First time in 16 years.
This staring, this sentence once caused waves in Sakakihara Raku's heart, and she looked at her, as if through the window of her eyes, she saw A Ling in Liuli's body, and recalled the moments spent with A Ling when she was a child bit by bit
This sentence is very heavy. Sakakihara didn't want to make the atmosphere like this, but just wanted Ah Ling to be happy, so she laughed:

"What are you talking about? It's not that you are so afraid of roller coasters. You have said many times that you want to go together, but you declined for various reasons, so we didn't make it in the end."

"Tianhai Jiuliuli" heard the words, first lowered his head, and then turned his head to look at the various lights in the playground.

The sky blue eyes reflected everything colorfully.
"A Ling, be happy. When you passed the car just now, didn't you smile very happily?"

When a gust of wind blew her face cold, she closed her eyes again and whispered:

"Yeah. Very happy, do you know why I refuse this every time?"

"." Sakakihara knew the general idea, but didn't take the initiative to speak, waiting for her to finish speaking.

"I want to tell you something sincere, can you listen to me?"

Hearing this, Sakakibara smiled and said, "This is not your style, Ah Ling. According to your personality, shouldn't you say it to me directly? Then I interrupted you, and then you called me 'stinky Lele' and continued ?”

"Tianhai Jiuliuli" held the juice and pouted dissatisfiedly: "Really, I want to tell you something in my heart right now, of course I have to be serious. Why are you still complaining about me?"

"As a boyfriend, of course you have to be able to complain, otherwise how can you make girls happy?"

"Scumbag, he is very experienced in hooking up girls, right?"

"Thank you for the compliment."

"Give you a punch!"

"Tianhai Jiuliuli" pushed Sakakihara Raku's shoulder, and when he saw his smile, a little sweetness came out of his heart.

"Okay, I won't talk to you! I really want to say something."

"Then tell me, and keep your ears open."

"Um"

"Tianhai Jiuliu Li" agreed, and remained silent for a while.

She sat on the small bench on this platform, staring at the roller coaster that restarted not far away for a long time, as if she was brewing emotions.
"We were very poor when we were young. At that time, we couldn't afford anything. If I wanted to eat cake, I could only look in the window."

"Tianhai Jiuliu Li" paused for a moment.

".Ale, you bastard sees it every time, every time, I don't want anything, save food and money and use it all to buy things for me, whether it's snacks, gifts, or new clothes.
"I don't know if you still remember what you looked like every time you gave me something? Every time I saw you give me something I always wanted, I was very happy and at the same time went to see you who gave me a gift, I feel that you have changed a little in my eyes.
"What has changed? I still can't tell for sure. I only know that in my eyes, I see you as the person who will take care of me, the person I can trust completely, and the person who can definitely give me a sense of security." people.
"Because you are in front of me in everything you do, stand in front of me, every time I am bullied by someone, you help me out, you comfort me
"Time passed little by little, and we grew up together day by day. I don't know when, I began to learn to secretly look at you from behind.
"Sneaking at you doing housework, peeking at you tidying the quilt, peeking at you helping me wash clothes, peeking at the food you put in for me, even having nightmares, one day you don't want me anymore and leave me where I am, Let me cry casually, and you will never promise me again.
"Every time I wake up from this state, I will be afraid for a while, and then I will hug you tightly under the quilt. If it is a thunderstorm day, I will hug you even tighter, wake you up, and want you to tell me something Stories, comfort me to sleep."

The voice of "Tianhai Jiuliuli" is getting lower and lower, and he is less and less afraid to look at him, only dare to stare at the straw of juice in his hand
Then continue to speak in a low voice.

"Of course, I didn't know how I was feeling at that time, I just felt that in real life, I would feel very handsome if I had a back like yours, and I would feel happy when I secretly looked at you.
"At that time, when I went to see you again, I felt embarrassed even if you smiled at me.
"I like getting along with you very much. I like that every day we get up together, go to school together, study together, come home from school together, eat and catch up with homework together, sit on the balcony and watch the stars together, and then spend every day of the year together. It’s a holiday, and I’m very happy to start arguing with you over trivial things. Isn’t life like this? There are joys, there are complaints, and after complaining, we get back together and continue to get along.
"I hope this life can go on forever. No one will disturb the two of us
"However, when you entered junior high school, you began to distance yourself from physical contact. If I want to hug you, you will reject me. If I want to get on your back, you will reject me. I usually want to get close to you, and have sex with you." Jiao you will push me away too
"I understand that this is when we're all grown up and we can never go back to the days when we could sleep together and shower together
"My mother also had a better career at this time. We moved into a new rental house, and I had my own new room. But when I saw that brand new room, I kept thinking about the place we lived together since we were young. It’s only six stacks in size, and there’s only one bedroom shared with the kitchen and living room, and it’s even leaked through wind and water, but the new room doesn’t have the kind of warmth that can sleep with you.”

Speaking of this, "Tianhai Jiuliuli" took a deep breath, and let it out again.

As if to ease the mood, hold back the tears that flowed from the eyes.

"As I grow older, I gradually understand what love is and what liking is. I can't help but compare this liking with you. I discovered that no matter what the definition of liking a person is, I can understand it find a certain point on your body
"But while understanding my feelings, I am also dissatisfied with your actions of always alienating me.

"Why don't you look at me more?
"Why can't you touch me like you did when you were a child?
"Why can't you do that to me again?
"I don't want to give up, I don't want you not to come to see me, you are always resistant to contact with you, I found that only when you bicker with you will you respond to me like you did when you were a child, let me find some feeling of being paid attention to.
"I know I'm arrogant, but if I wasn't arrogant, would you talk to me?

"If I do everything perfectly, will you still take care of me?
"You will only feel that 'Ling has grown up and no longer needs my care', because our identities doom the relationship between us to maintain the status quo, and I want you to look at me so much, you can only do this.
"I'm sorry, I'm really sorry, I don't want to take your dedication for granted at all, but I really hope that you can still get in touch with me like before.
"If possible, I will do my best to change myself. I will do my best to run away with you. I want to be taken care of by you, I want to be cared for by you, I want to act like a baby in front of you, I want to continue to quarrel with you, and make noise at night I can have dinner with you”

"To ask why—"

Speaking of this, "Tianhai Jiuliuli" tightly squeezed the wall of the juice glass, as if doing a series of great psychological struggles, turned his head, and under the night, smiled brightly at Sakakihara Raku and said:

"—"

The neon lights of the Hawaiian amusement park illuminated her smiling face, and the roller coaster in front of her suddenly whizzed by, and the sound of tracks and screams overwhelmed her voice.

But even if the voice disappeared in that instant, Sakakihara could fully see what she was saying to herself in the smile.

"."

Sakakihara was silent.

"I know it's wrong, it's wrong, but even though I know it's impossible, even though I know it's going to make me uncomfortable, I still feel that way about you"

After hearing this long passage, Sakakihara didn't know what to respond to her.

"Tianhai Jiuliu Li" smiled brightly, waited for a long time, saw his expression at this time, and understood his answer in his heart.

She pursed her lips tightly, retracting her quivering eyes.

Then bowed his head again.

It was quiet for a while.

"Sorry, I spoiled the atmosphere"

"fine."

Sakakihara answered in silence.

Both of them were sitting on the bench, staring at the weeds protruding from the crevices of the stones under their feet in their respective postures.

Neither looked at each other.

"I've never spoken to you in that tone, have I? Is there something different about me in your impression?"

"Ye Ling has always been the one who laughs and laughs all day long, makes people happy, makes cute expressions on purpose, is arrogant and stupid Ling."

"Hahahahahaha."

"Tianhai Jiuliuli" laughed suddenly, and soon, she closed her eyes, straightened her chest, raised her chin slightly, and put on a haughty look.The index finger of the right hand is still shaking without any symbolic meaning in front.

"Really, really! What am I telling you about these things! I'm an idiot, but to be honest, you are an idiot, Chu Lele! I've said so many things, but you don't even complain about me. What's the matter? Did your brain burn out when you were sick? You can't complain!"

".Bastard Ah Ling, you are the idiot."

"What?! Where was I stupid just now? Where was I stupid? I am sincere, okay?"

Sakakihara Raku: "The only one who is sincere is the idiot."

"You are the idiot! Ha~ga~~"

"."

Hahahahaha.
Sakakihara didn't even know why she was laughing like that.

totally no idea.

He only knew that the more "Tianhai Jiuliu Li" faced him in the usual way at this moment, the more his heart seemed to be filled with lead, and it could even be said to be painful.
Facing her feelings, facing her plight, wanting to help her, but never being able to help her
Seeing but being powerless is the most uncomfortable thing.

"What are you laughing at, did you feel silly on the roller coaster just now?"

Sakakihara went to see her: "I do, I hope I become stupid."

"." "Tianhai Jiuliuli" responded to his gaze, trying to find some thoughts in his eyes, "Are you letting go?"

"It's hard to say that I don't even know what my emotions are now. I can only answer. It's very complicated, very complicated."

"Tianhai Jiuliuli" murmured: "...that means you have been influenced by me. Although we all know that it is impossible, it is enough to have this feeling."

Sakakihara reached out and placed her hand on her head:
"Really, no matter what, can I have no feelings for you? Seeing you sad, I am not sad?"

"Tianhai Jiuliuli" knocked his paw away in disgust, and after understanding his mood, he was a little happier:
"Don't touch my head! Especially if it's the July Fox's hand!"

"Look at what you said. I was on the roller coaster just now. I don't know who has been holding this hand. After Qiyue finds out, I'm afraid I will laugh at you for the rest of my life."

"Then I have to hate her for the rest of my life!"

"You have to be able to beat her! Stupid Ah Ling!"

"Slightly slightly~ You are the idiot, idiot Ale!"

After such a mediation, the atmosphere is much better.

But this is due to the fact that Suzuki himself has become a lot happier.

She took a sip of orange juice, as if trying to hide her feelings.

After a while, "Tianhai Jiuliuli" couldn't sit still, approached the other end of the bench, turned his head, and tried to ask him:

"However, what you said just now, you have me in your heart, is it true?"

"Yes, indeed." Sakakibara said, staring at the stars in the night, enjoying the night breeze.

"Wow! You! You are a philandering radish! You big scum!! You already have two foxes, and you still want to have them!" "Tianhai Jiuliuli" clenched his fist and hit him on the shoulder.

Sakakihara defended in disgust, "Hey, if you want to scold, just scold, why are you still scolding with a smile?"

"Unrecognizable?"

"You are an idiot, how can I see the idiot's mood."

"Bastard! Call me stupid again, don't scold me!"

"stupid stupid stupid."

"I hate you to death!"

"While beating and cursing, changing this line to 'I love you to death!' is not against peace at all."

"Tianhai Jiuliu Li" doesn't care about these things, just hit him:
"Kill you, kill you, kill you!"

Sakakihara Raku fought with "Tianhai Jiuliu Li" for a while.

"Okay, okay, don't love me, talk about business."

"What's the business?" "Tianhai Jiuliuli" stopped and straightened his sitting posture.

"You really don't plan to get married?" Sakakihara asked.

"No, I will do what I say."

"Mom is urging you to do something."

"It doesn't matter, my own life is my own decision."

"Then what will you do when you die alone? You don't have your own family, and you see other people's happiness, but you have nothing."

"As long as you remember me."

"."

The current Ling, even speaking can make people speechless?

But Ling also really understands herself and understands that she will never give up on her
Sakakihara came back to his senses and continued to ask:
"How should I treat you after that, what do you expect me to do?"

"...Needless to say about this matter, hmph, anyway, you have me in your heart, I know this so I can barely do it! Besides, my feelings for you will not change, even if I know it is impossible, it will not change."

"If you don't change, but I still have Qiyue and Liuli, you plan to be jealous for the rest of your life?"

"Nonsense!" "Tianhai Jiuliuli" pouted and replied, "Then let me ask you, aren't Qi Mingyue and Jiuliuli jealous of each other? I can guarantee that even if they get along peacefully in the end, they will be jealous by your side or something." , this is a woman's nature. Ah, men have it too."

"."

Also.

"But it doesn't matter, no matter how many women you have, you won't forget me anyway! Who told me to stay with you the longest!"

"This one too."

"Sky Sea Nine Glasses":
"Besides, since you can't give me all the expectations, I will still be the same as before, and be a happy person myself."

"If you like being an idiot, just say it."

"Tianhai Jiuliuli" punched him: "Bastard! Who told you to complain at this time, I'm super serious, okay?"

"That's a good relationship. Just be yourself, Ah Ling. There's no need to change anything. You have to ask why. I prefer the usual arrogant Bell."

"Humph"

Sakakibara stood up, raised her hands, and stretched her body.

"Ah~~~comfortable——"

"What's next?"

"Why? Continue dating, you just took a roller coaster and you don't think it's over." Sakakihara smiled and turned around.

As soon as he heard that he was going to continue dating, "Tianhai Jiuliuli" got up instantly:
"Then I want to play bobble chair, pirate ship, roller coaster, space shuttle, Shenzhou flying saucer, Ferris wheel!"

"Ferris wheel? This thing is very suitable for ambiguity."

".Are you hinting at me?"

"I didn't say anything."

"You're really implying me, aren't you!"

"forget it."

"Hey!" "Tianhai Jiuliuli" stepped forward quickly and hugged Sakakihara Raku's arm, "No, you have to explain clearly. What exactly is ambiguous and how ambiguous is it."

"Do not say."

"No, tell me quickly, I want to hear it."

"Do not say."

"Let me guess, you, do you want to kiss me?! No, no, this is too perverted."

".What are you thinking about?"

"Tianhai Jiuliuli" saw that he actually looked like a fool, and was at a loss for words:

"I——! Bastard, it's not that you said something ambiguous, how do I know what it is?"

"Stupid Ah Ling."

"Stupid Lele."

"Stupid Ah Ling."

"Stupid Lele!"

"Stupid Ah Ling!"

"Stupid Lele!!"

Sakakihara seemed to have seen something, and looked over, "Wait, there seems to be a seller of whirlwind potatoes over there."

"Where? Where?!"

"Want to eat?"

"Of course I want to, then you will buy it for me this time, okay?"

"This is what I said, which time I didn't buy it for you?"

"The identity is wrong, it's different this time."

"Okay, okay, who told me to spoil you like this usually."

"Hey. Thank you."