About the fact that I accidentally turned my sister into a cripple

Chapter 347 Tianhai Jiuliuli's Concession to His Sister

It's April, and the temperature is turning hot.

Even eating at the beach can't help but feel that the temperature has risen to a depressing level.

After lunch, Tianhai Jiuliuli declined the invitation of all the students to go out for a stroll in the afternoon, and went back to the hotel room for a lunch break.

But the strange thing is, no matter how I think about going to sleep, I can't fall asleep.

For the past few days, a voice has been echoing in my mind.

That Sakakihara Raku suddenly promised himself that he was willing to fly to England to see the agreement of Maple Leaf Avenue.

Every time he opened his eyes to look at the ceiling above his head, he would think of the serious expression on his promise to himself at that time.

You can definitely take me there.

Will definitely take me there.

Le Jun will definitely abide by the agreement.

Tianhai Jiuliuli always hinted at this information in her heart.

Sometimes these hints washed her nerves like a torrent, and would cause her to open her eyes immediately, and her chest would rise and fall restlessly.

When he reacted, there were already many drops of sweat on his forehead.

What happened to yourself?
not understand.

I don't understand the source of these inexplicable anxieties.

Tianhai Jiuliuli couldn't figure out something at all, so she lay down on the bed with her arms wide open, and took several deep breaths.

After she relaxed her body and mind for a while, she barely propped up her body, leaned her back against the wall, and sat up from the bed.

The girl grabbed the phone, opened LINE, glanced at the sky with seagulls flying outside the window, and finally turned her attention to the two frequently used contacts in LINE——

Sakakihara Raku and Tianhai Qimingyue.

Her fingers hovered over the avatar ID of Sakakibara's account for more than ten seconds, and she suddenly closed her eyes.

She chose Tianhai Qimingyue.

Pressing the video call button with her fingertips, Tianhai Jiuliuli hugged a pillow into her arms.

beep beep
After a few short communication sound effects, the video was connected.

Tianhai Qimingyue's identical but extremely tired and calm face soon appeared on the phone screen.

She wore an off-the-shoulder summer dress and seemed to be sitting in a seaside restaurant with the blue sea and lush strait behind her.

Tianhai Jiuliuli was stunned when she saw her younger sister's appearance.

"Why do you seem to have not slept in July?"

After Tianhai Qimingyue on the mobile phone heard this sentence, she actively switched the front and rear cameras of the mobile phone, and put the camera angle on Tianhai Zhixue who seemed to be sitting opposite her.

Tianhai Zhixue seemed to be eating rice with coconut and crab meat, she was quiet and gentle.

Qi Mingyue is using the camera to explain why she doesn't seem to be sleeping.

Ok
Tianhai Jiuliuli understood.

The viewing angle of the screen returned to Tianhai Qimingyue's face again.

[It's even more unusual for my sister to take the initiative to call me. My sister found out with conscience, and now she wants to change shifts with me?Did you feel the spiritual pain of your twin sister after being so far away? ]
"That's not true." Tianhai Jiuliuli smiled at her sister on the phone.

[Sister is really a vicious woman, she doesn't care about your sister at all. ]
Tianhai Jiuliuli took the initiative to ignore Qi Mingyue's complaints, and said to her, "It's convenient for Qi Yue to talk to me alone now?"

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Tianhai Qimingyue on the screen obviously lowered her eyelids a little bit, like a beautiful dead fish eye.

[The one opposite me is my sister? ]
"of course."

[Sister, don’t you think your words are strange? ]
Tianhai Jiuliuli Bai Jie put her legs together, leaning her back against the wall, holding the phone on her knees with both hands, "It's very strange, after all, we just had a quarrel not long ago."

Tianhai Qimingyue on the phone screen put the phone on the dining table.

The phone was then erected, while she lay on the table with her hands alternated.

[Sister, are you planning to admit defeat? ]
"What do you think in July?"

[It's impossible to think about it, but my sister took the initiative to call me, which also proves that my sister has something very important or wants to discuss it with me. ]
Tianhai Qimingyue, who seemed to be framed in the phone screen, closed her eyes, lazily resting her arms on her pillow, and turned her head sideways.The slender white fingers tapped on the table, making a sound.

[Also, it is to call me, not to talk to my brother.For the first time in more than ten years. ]
Qi Mingyue's sentence "this is the first time in more than ten years" made Tianhai Jiuliuli feel touched.

Just as she was about to speak, Qi Mingyue immediately said another sentence, blocking Tianhai Jiu Liuli's intention to speak.

[I know what my sister wants to say. But explain it to anyone, don't explain it to me.I understand that my sister always likes to be brave in front of me. ]
"About this...I always hoped that you would understand in July."

[Of course I understand, after all, she is my sister who is 5 minutes older than me. As a sister, I have to help my sister share everything.I don't want her to touch physical activities at all, and every time I encounter difficulties, I will avoid her, never take the initiative to talk to her, and speak openly. ]
What July said is also true.

I don't want my sister to see me weak, I don't want to see me who is not good at my sister, and I don't want her to worry about me instead of saying that I can't help her as a sister.

Thinking back carefully, Tianhai Jiuliuli suddenly felt that the previous relationship with Qiyue had become more and more distant.

She closed her eyes.The surrounding area of ​​the hotel is so quiet that you can't hear anything except the waves coming from your hands.

[Why did my sister suddenly stop talking? ]
"Calling you now is mainly because there are some things that I still don't quite understand."

[Then why don't you look for your brother, but me? ]
"It's not suitable to talk to him about these emotions. I'm a little confused and not very clear."

[Why?Because elder brother always comforts elder sister unconditionally? ]
".It should be. I always feel that the more comforted Leju is, the more I feel sorry for him."

[Why do you think so? ]
"Don't Qiyue think that this is my elder brother taking care of me all the time? And what did I give him? A few days ago, he took the initiative to say to me that he would definitely take me there. The more these thoughts take root in his head , it makes people feel more out of breath, as if I have nothing that Le Jun needs.”

Tianhai Qimingyue stopped tapping her fingers on the table.

She turned her head and looked at her sister in the video conversation again.My sister's tone was correct and her emotions were normal, but when she said this, she turned her face away.

Obviously everything is normal.

But it seems that at this moment, my sister is full of anxiety and uneasiness.

While feeling anxious, my sister was still trying to control her inner emotions, which is why she said these words to herself now.

[Sister really has never changed. ]
"what?"

[Sister is still as weak as ever. ]
"Weak as always"

Tianhai Qimingyue once again deflected her sight, and her fingertips continued to lightly hit the wooden board on the table:
[My sister’s uneasiness comes from not understanding her own value, from her own self-denial of her own value. But my sister never thought that my sister has value in her own right, and my sister has nothing to do even if she stands still. Do it, and someone will love you, and someone will want to care about you.

[The first thing my sister needs to understand is that everyone has their own value and meaning of existence. It does not need external affirmation or approval, and it is also a value for itself. ]
"."

Tianhai Jiuliuli didn't know if it was because of his unclear mind.

He didn't quite understand Qi Mingyue's words.

[Sister thinks that brother has given you a lot of care that cannot be repaid, right? ]
"Yes."

[Sister also thinks that she can't give back to her brother, right? ]
"Yes."

[As I said just now, the anxiety and uneasiness in my sister’s heart stems more from her doubts and denials about her own value. I feel that I can't pay the corresponding care, but let my elder brother accommodate and take care of me everywhere.
[It is precisely because of these that my sister feels uneasy and anxious in her heart.

[Sister, I have always felt guilty and blamed myself. ]
After Qi Mingyue said so.

Tianhai Jiuliuli seemed to understand where the anxiety in her heart came from.

She smiled lightly, she had previously talked with Le Jun about debts and debts, and they had all been written off.
In the end, I still couldn't help thinking in my heart that I was sorry for his past.

As a third party, Tianhai Qimingyue can better understand her sister's current state of mind.

As a person who lacked love since childhood, when did my sister meet a guy like Sakakihara Raku who is unconditionally willing to give others care and warmth?
Love will give people warmth.

It can also be stressful.

For my sister, the love he gave was magnified several times. This caused my sister to feel pressure from this "love".

The older sister who once experienced abandonment is already very sensitive in matters of emotion.

Faced with the promise that her elder brother gave her again since she was a child, it is inevitable to have a lot of worries.
[Actually, my sister wants to relieve this emotion, it's very simple.Since brother's love for you is too heavy, then just let me go, and I will help you bear the heavy care of brother. ]
"This is free."

[Eh?Could it be that my sister didn't even have a little thank you for being favored by my sister?Shouldn't wishing my sister happiness be something my sister should do? ]
On the phone screen, Tianhai Qimingyue turned her head back, with a contemptuous smile like a little devil, Tianhai Jiuliuli couldn't even remember how long she hadn't seen it.

"It's different now, July."

[Sister wants to say that she has become bad? ]
"It's not that I don't quite understand my current mood. I don't want to admit defeat, but I am very reluctant to have a relationship with you in July. Even when the quarrel is at its worst, I still want to make you surrender in July. Quit voluntarily. If possible, I will restore the relationship with you again. Until now, the previous idea was too naive."

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Tianhai Qimingyue didn't speak at the moment, but was thinking in Sister Cai's mind at the moment.

Could it be that my sister wants to be subdued?
Are you going to let go of part of it?
It is true that Tianhai Qimingyue never thought of putting her sister to death, but every time she saw the picture of the two of them together, she couldn't help frowning.

I will take care of these in my heart.

Now, she has been in the contradiction of "I don't want to break up with my sister", "My sister let me go and let me win".

The same is true for Tianhai Jiuliuli.

"Thank you, July. This is the first time I've had a heart-to-heart talk with you. Although I don't want to admit it, I'm still very happy."

[Sister still can't let go of her airs as a sister? ]
"After all, I am your older sister by 5 minutes, please allow me to be so willful."

[Then can I understand this sentence as - my sister always wants to be my sister? ]
"That's it."

Video, hung up.

Tianhai Qimingyue looked at the 43-minute call time with her sister in her hand.

My heart is full of speculation about my sister's current attitude.

Is my sister agreeing to her own existence, or is she agreeing to her brother's unreasonable condition?

I don't understand
"Xiaoqi, we've finished eating."

Tianhai Qimingyue put down her phone, propped her delicate and beautiful face with her right hand, and looked at Tianhai Zhixue who was wiping her mouth across the table.

"What are you going to do next?"

"shop."

"Going shopping again? Don't you still want to eat?"

"buying clothes."

Tianhai Qimingyue nodded, "You can also buy clothes."

*
Lunch break at noon.

The air conditioner in the hotel room was blowing cold.

The midday sun illuminated the entire room.

Sakakihara Raku was still finishing the research report on the gods of the school trip, and was just about to stretch when he was lightly tapped on the shoulder.

Turning around, he found Tianhai Jiuliuli smiling.

He was a little surprised, but also happy that Tianhai Jiuliuli would come to him suddenly.

"When did Liuli come? And how did he get in?"

"Le Jun is too busy, I forgot to close the door. When I came, I saw a gap and wanted to give Le Jun a surprise. By the way, I would check what Le Jun was doing."

Sakakihara Raku is very happy that she can say this: "It feels like a decent girlfriend."

"That's not!"

"What's the matter? You laugh so happily."

"It's nothing. I just feel like I want to understand something again."

As Tianhai Jiuliuli spoke, he suddenly stuck to her.

Before Sakakihara could move much, she took the initiative to hug her neck.

The thinned skin of her arms rubbed against the flesh of her neck. Different body temperatures touched each other, bringing a soft touch.

"What's the matter?" Sakakihara smiled, and under her sticky hug, she turned the direction of the chair.Then he put his arms around her waist behind him and let her sit sideways on his lap.

"miss you."

Facing each other, Tianhai Jiuliuli smiled again, and took the initiative to hug his neck again.

When she hugged her, Sakakihara could clearly smell the girl's breath on her body.

Soft and lightly aromatic.

Refreshing.

Sakakihara Raku didn't resist her sticking to herself, patting her petite back:
"...It's not like we haven't met each other this morning, it's as if we haven't seen each other for many years."

"Le Jun, you have always been kind to me." Tianhai Jiuliuli pushed him away, holding his shoulders with both hands.Eyes stared at him.

"Huh? I like you, so I should treat you well—"

Before Sakakibara could finish her words, Tianhai Jiuliuli immediately blocked her mouth with waxy lips.

At first, Sakakihara Raku was a little surprised that she was so enthusiastic and proactive. But this was not the first time this happened, so she took the initiative to greet her.

Why is Liuli so clingy all of a sudden, and why is she doing this all of a sudden.
Don't even think about it, just enjoy the moment.
When the lips meet, there will occasionally be a slight sound like sucking jelly
After parting, the body was a little dry and hot.

Sakakihara looked at her and asked in doubt, "What's wrong?"

"It's nothing." Tianhai Jiuliuli pursed her lips, as if recalling the smell he left behind.

"This doesn't explain why Liuli is so abnormal. I usually feel that you will have a lot of mental activities when holding your hand."

"Le Jun knows me so well?"

"Of course. This is also a compulsory course. If you don't try to understand you, how can you like you?"

"Le Jun is very kind to me."

"... so-so, as a boyfriend, there are some things I can't avoid."

Tianhai Jiuliuli said earnestly: "But... about those things a long time ago, Le Jun was really kind to me."

"Ok?"

"I understand, I like you Le Jun very much. Whether it's guilt, gratitude, or dependence. They are all factors that constitute liking for Le Jun."

"." Sakakihara listened carefully.

Tianhai Jiuliuli took his hand and interlocked his fingers: "Like is like, this is an irrefutable fact. In fact, I have been avoiding some facts all this time, all the facts that have been changed. Le You really, really like July?"

"Before I changed it, I would have hesitated whether it was because of my compassion for her. But it is like this now, and I like her too."

Tianhai Jiuliuli suddenly laughed, "You can see that Le Jun really doesn't want to say this to me in front of me, is it the same in July?"

"When I really feel that she likes it, she will."

"That's good. Since this is the case, I have to accept the fact that 'Le Jun has indeed become a scumbag'. There is no doubt that as a boyfriend, Le Jun is dereliction of duty."

"I'm guilty." Sakakihara admitted his mistake.

"Will Mr. Le change it?"

"will not."

"Is it really necessary to persist like this?"

"It's all come to this point, I give up what to do, I'm a scumbag."

Tianhai Jiuliuli: "Then Le Jun is planning to give up on me?"

"A scumbag is a scumbag, and what I want is to be in two boats."

Tianhai Jiuliuli: "I've been struggling with whether I should accept the fact that Le Jun is a scumbag and have been avoiding it, but now I can see it clearly."

"Liuli is leaving?"

"It's normal to leave, isn't it?"

"That's it."

"What do you think Le Jun?"

Sakakihara sighed, feeling helpless in her heart: "I definitely don't want you to leave, but I'm sorry, I can only give you half of my love. If you really choose that way, I will respect you."

"The things I like about you are not fake. I want to give myself some concessions. Sorry, this is not agreeing to Le Jun's unreasonable request, but compared to July, I have done too little, too little "

Tianhai Jiuliuli seemed to be struggling with her own psychology, "Besides, if I quit voluntarily, wouldn't that mean I lost to July?"

"."

Sakakihara didn't know how to answer her.

"I don't want to let go, but I can't change you, I can't change July, I can't hurt you, I can't hurt July, and in the end... I can't win over July. In fact, there is an answer I have always thought about in my heart, but I have always They don't want to admit it."

"."

Seeing her somewhat dodgy eyes, Sakakihara already understood what her thoughts were.

Liuli is going to agree?

"I don't agree! What is Le Jun thinking! No one wants to share the person they like, and the same is true for July. It's just that she is stronger than me and can tolerate more."

"So... Liuli is...?"

".I can't let go now because I only have things like Le Jun in my heart. So I can't let go. I know that as a human being, I should become independent. But it's hard to do it, so, so—"

Tianhai Jiuliuli didn't express what he said clearly for a long time.

So much so that Sakakihara Raku gradually understood the entanglement and anxiety in her heart.

"So. Le Jun, do you understand what I mean?"

"accepted?"

"...It's not a promise, and Qiyue didn't agree to live in peace with me. It doesn't mean that I agree with Le Jun, your idea of ​​a scumbag. It's just because Qiyue has made a lot of concessions compared to me. I don't want to be inferior to her. That's all"

"How come Liuli has also learned how to be stubborn in July?"

"It's not that I understand it, but really, it's not that transparent."

Sakakihara became serious: "What Liuli means is that you are going to start now and learn to let go?"

"That's right, that's what it means. As for the final result, it's hard to say, so I can't make a decision first."

Understand clearly, there is always a process of acceptance.

Fortunately, Liuli finally showed signs of compromise. As for whether she can get along with Qiyue in the future.
That's really not sure.

(End of this chapter)