After being a widow, the empress dowager was favored by the powerful ministers

Chapter 177 Extra Story: The First Emperor’s Self-Report

Compared with me, I actually prefer to be called "I" like ordinary people.

I have a powerful queen mother. Not long after my father left, my mother took over everything in the name of my youth and listened to the government behind the curtain.

I have never seen what a mother should look like in my queen mother, and I have envied other brothers and sisters, who are loved by my mother and concubine.

It is said that power is attractive to the eye, and the empress mother is becoming more and more addicted to controlling power, but I am clearly the emperor, but I am like a puppet, controlled by others, such a me, life is worse than death.

I knew I couldn't go on like this, so I studied hard secretly, learned how to deal with government affairs, and cultivated my own influence.

My teacher also gave me a lot of help.

Just when I thought that if I endured like this, there would always be a day when I could see the light of day.

Until, my mother wanted to marry the daughter of his Sheng family to me as my wife. The girl was only 12 years old and entered the palace when she was young. I even hugged her and played with her.

She called me uncle, she was smart, and really loved and loved.

In my life, the only time I did something wrong and regret it was that day, when I agreed to this matter and let my mother arrange this marriage, but I had no other choice.

The Lou family did not agree with the marriage of the Sheng family, and no one in the court dared to disobey the queen mother.

I wanted to make up my own mind to marry the daughter of the Sheng family to Prince Jing, since the two are childhood sweethearts, it is more suitable.

But the Sheng family's choice is really chilling.

That girl has come to the palace after all.

I feel sorry for that little girl, if she hadn't been burdened by me, with her intelligence, status, and talent, even if she didn't marry the Lou family, she would have a better husband in the future.

But now, I can only spend my days with this bad old man in the palace.

Out of guilt, and because this girl is a pain in the ass, I will teach her everything I have learned. I will teach her culture and martial arts.

I don't have a daughter, and I will love this little girl as a daughter.

I only hope that in the future, I can find an opportunity to send her out of the palace and find a son worthy of entrustment.

But the good times didn't last long. My queen mother, who was greedy for power, finally attacked me. Everyone said that tigers do not eat their offspring. After all, the queen mother is not a tiger.

I don't care about everything in this palace, but I can't let go of the people in this world.

And what I'm even more worried about is this little girl who has been implicated innocently. After I die, will there be someone who can protect her?
I started to prepare everything for her, which the Sheng family couldn't provide.

I am worried that after my son ascends the throne, it will be unfavorable to her.

Of my sons, I naturally know what kind of virtue they are, or in other words, I don't know.

I know that my elder son is interested in her, and I have considered it carefully, so I passed the throne to my younger son.

Then let her listen to politics from the sidelines.

Perhaps this is the best arrangement.

But what surprised me was that my courtier, confidant and friend, Pei Ci, was interested in her.

That guy has always had a cold face, never shows mercy in whatever he does, and has a very rigid temper, but he is by no means a good husband for my delicate and soft little girl.

But I didn't expect that this stone with a cold face would sometimes melt.

He doesn't touch the spring water with his ten fingers, but he is willing to make incense for the little girl himself.

He doesn't like all the complicated affairs, he doesn't like beauties, and he doesn't like to make portraits for others, which often makes me feel sorry for his good painting skills.

I always look for him, and want him to draw a picture for me. If I don't hang two pictures of my appearance in the bedroom, wouldn't it be a waste?

However, this guy is unwilling to die.

I am too embarrassed to suppress him with my identity.

But what I didn't expect was that he quietly drew more than ten portraits of beauties, each of which was her.

He was deeply emotional, but never showed it.

If I hadn't paid attention deliberately, I wouldn't have discovered these.

No one would have guessed that the current Prime Minister Pei with a cold face and a cold heart was actually an infatuated man trapped by love.

I was really moved.

Pei Ci, in fact, regardless of his body, in terms of appearance, talent, manners, and personality, he is a perfect match for this little girl like me.

If I can survive until that day in the future, I can create some opportunities for these two people to have some chances to get along.

When the right opportunity comes, we will do the matching again.

But I can't wait for that day. The imperial doctor told me several times that my body is getting worse day by day, and I really can't last that day.

I even thought about getting her married.

I also thought about it, like a father, telling Pei Ci not to bully the little girl, she has my backing behind her.

But in the end it's not working.

I summoned Pei Ci to enter the palace several times, entrusted Sheng Baoling to him several times, and I was short of saying those bright words, "If she likes you, you can just take her to elope".

This guy is still pretending to be a loyal minister with no selfishness.

I sneered in my heart, Pei Xuanjin, Pei Xuanjin, do you really think that no one knows what is going on in your heart?
Let's be stubborn, anyway, I will help here.

The little girl cried until she was in tears, but she was still holding on, but my heart ached so badly, everyone said that people were dying, and their words were kind.

Baoling, the thing I regret most in this life is obeying my mother and marrying you into the palace.

Now I have not been able to arrange everything for you. In the days to come, no one will be able to protect you in the palace.
The Sheng family is not reliable.

By the way, there is also Pei Xuanjin.
If you are in trouble, just go find him, that fool, who loves you so much, even if he thinks about it, he is willing to die for you.

You just need to ask him to help you. If you fall in love with this idiot in the future, you don't have to worry about other things.

Whether you are willing to stay by your side or leave Bianjing together, I believe this guy can make arrangements.

It's just me, but I can no longer see that day coming.

Forget it, this life, although it is absurd, is not bad, and although there is regret, it can still be redeemed.

Those who had to be rescued were left to Pei Xuanjin to remedy.

This idiot, although he is a bit different, but he can't help him look good.

Although his temper is a bit cold, he can't hold back his affection.

If you can make do with it, those small shortcomings can actually be ignored, and you will still be able to live happily in the future.

I am on the road to Huangquan, and seeing that your future life is safe and sound, I can really feel at ease in my heart.

But don't let me down on the road to Huangquan.

"In the future, if Baoling gets tired of being in this palace, or if she has someone she likes and wants to leave, I hope you will help her."

"She's used to hiding all her thoughts in her heart, you are careful"

"Xuan Jin, apart from you, I have never had any other close friends in my life, let alone begged anyone."

"Now, I beg you, help her."

"Bao Ling, Xuan Jin is a trustworthy person with a gentle and honest disposition."

"If you are in trouble in the future, you can consult him."

I shouldn't have married you back then, I shouldn't.
That's all, that's all.
(End of this chapter)