Qingchuan History

Chapter 959

Probably because of the cold land and wide sky, and in January, the stars are very bright but very sparse.

Already in the extreme north, the night is getting longer and longer. Although it is not early, everyone understands that it is still a long time before dawn.

"I'm not sure." Ruan Xueyin said, "Maybe when we speculate and suspect each other, let go—any time, we can change the direction."

For many years, the two never poked through those moments.

Gu Xinglang smiled calmly, "I also thought about it, during the few years you left. Why didn't you? Because the brain felt that it should be doubted, the truth should be doubted, but the heart chose to trust, time and time again - resort to action , I really never let the other party down."

It has really built an indestructible trust: externally, they can join hands to fight against mountains and seas, internally, the barriers are completely broken, and there is only affection and sincerity that fits everywhere.

Only when the long road has come to this point can the true meaning be revealed, the so-called cause and effect.

He was right, Ruan Xueyin was irrefutable.She was tired from crossing her legs for too long, so she changed her position and hugged her knees.

"Is it cold?" Gu Xinglang asked, Ben was huddled together, he raised his hand to embrace her, "Hug?"

It was a rare demeanor since he was tyrannical for several days.Ruan Xueyin did not avoid it.

"Have you reached an agreement with Murong Xun?" she asked.

"I guess." He replied.

Ruan Xueyin suddenly felt that this night was very similar to the last night.As for whose end is the end of a story, she couldn't tell for a moment.

"I am a little scared."

In nine years, there have actually been many times of fear, but this is the first time she has spoken out.

"It's okay. I'm not afraid." Gu Xinglang said softly, taking her hand and rubbing her slender arm.

"It should have been thought of earlier. The few of us." Holding the ending together with our hands, now we have to withdraw our hands to decide the ending.She turned her head to look at him again, too close, her noses touching, "Aren't you afraid?"

Gu Xinglang met her gaze for a moment, lowered his eyes, and swept his eyelashes to her face, "I have learned a skill: when I feel scared, tell myself to suppress it first, and then be afraid when it is the hardest. When it’s tough, there’s no time to be afraid.”

Many difficulties were overcome.

"But this time," it was the six of them, not the others, not any of the defeated ones who had been buried in the loess or imprisoned in a faraway place.

This was what she was afraid of, so she couldn't say it.

Gu Xinglang naturally understood. "Is there a reward for stargazing?"

Ruan Xueyin nodded lightly, and the tips of their noses rubbed against each other. Looking from a distance, they looked like lovers on a blind date.

The corners of Gu Xinglang's lips curved slightly, and he smiled very shallowly: "Will I die?"

"Don't talk nonsense." Ruan Xueyin answered quickly, biting where his words fell.

Gu Xinglang's smile deepened, "You don't even get along with me, I don't have much point in living, I can die."

"That's what a rascal says."

"I'm a rascal, and I plan to cry, make trouble, and hang myself."

Wherever he is, even a small world in the cloak in the cold night can feel the sound of spring.Ruan Xueyin really couldn't do anything about him, "You and I are such a small matter, what matters next to the enemy is important?"——Victory or defeat, or life and death.

"Someone told me once that these things are more important than those things."

To tease her. "I still think the scenery on the side of the road is more important than the road itself." Ruan Xueyin said, "But we have walked this road for too long, and we must always be responsible for the road we have traveled."

"I think of a Buddhist saying." Gu Xinglang still smiled, his voice was very low and pleasant to hear.

Ruan Xueyin waited to hear.

But he didn't continue, and instead said: "If you're so worried, then tell me a few truths."

The four eyes are facing each other, reflecting each other's pupils.If this night is regarded as the last night, what is impossible?Ruan Xueyin acquiesced.

"Did you miss me these four years?"

Everything is silent, and the sound of the wind is like a song on the sea. "Um."

"Me too, all the time. Do you dream of me?"

"Ah."

"Me too, more than half of the nights, especially in winter. Probably because of the fragrant flowers."

Ruan Xueyin was slightly taken aback, then laughed, "You moved to the Lantern Hall?"

"Almost all your things in the Chengze Palace are in the Turning Waves Palace. The pot of knot incense is taken care of by Tangli alone, and it becomes more prosperous every year. When the flowers bloom the most, you fall asleep every night."

The knot incense in Pengxi Mountain also grows very well.Ruan Xueyin thought to herself.The pot was originally a branch broken from Pengxi Mountain.

Gu Xinglang looked at her and smiled, and thousands of days passed through his mind and heart.The wind sound like a sea song is more melodious, as if patiently trying to fulfill a dream. "I love you, Xiaoxue, more than thousands of people in the world, and I will never change it in this life. Remember this sentence and never forget it."

They actually stayed on the high ground for a long time.

But because the night was too long, after returning to the cave, he still slept for several hours before dawn.

Ruan Xueyin had a lot of dreams overnight, and saw almost everyone she met in half her life.

In the dream, everyone has a peaceful face, as gloomy as her father, Ruan Bi, who also shows a little compassion.She also saw her mother, who was exactly the same as in the portrait, locking the door of the medicine garden—the garden looked like the East Palace Medicine Garden at first glance, but when she looked around, she found that it was not in the Yin Palace—the surroundings were extremely beautiful and boundless. The green fields and blooming flowers are like Buzhou Mountain.

Su Luojin locked the door, turned around and saw her, beckoning: "Xueyin! Come here!"

Ruan Xueyin didn't know how old she was in the dream, there was no water and no mirror around her, she looked down at her hands, she was younger than now, maybe eleven or twelve?
Mother was still shouting, and she ran over in a hurry.Su Luojin took her hand and put it on the fish lock, "Will it be?"

Ruan Xueyin nodded, "I'll lock it again for my mother to see."

She started to cry when she was called by her mother, but she couldn't tell whether it was the little girl in her dream or herself in her sleep who was crying.

All she knew was that she had never called her mother in her entire life, and at this moment in her dream she had no choice but to cry loudly and express her lifelong regrets and shortcomings.

Su Luojin was very calm, squatting down, took out a silk to wipe her tears, and said softly: "What's wrong? I'm so sad."

"The teacher calls me Xiaoxue!" She replied, very wronged, very fierce, not like her at all, "Why did you call me Xueyin! Not affectionate at all!"

Su Luojin smiled, she was so pretty, Ruan Xueyin felt that her mother was much prettier than herself, "Why is my daughter so stupid." She caressed her face, "Mother can call you Xueyin, Xiaoxue, little girl, little girl Fool, any word you want to call at the moment - no matter how you call it, you are my daughter; and no matter how many people call it the same as me, it is absolutely different, because mother is mother, only I am Such tone, voice, look, movement."

Ruan Xueyin nodded vigorously, keeping in mind the way she waved her hand just now, and reached out to touch the fish lock again, "I'll lock it again for mother to see."

The whole scene has no preface, but she always felt that this matter was important, and she should answer the question like this.

Su Luojin shook her head, "No need. I taught you just to let you know how to open this lock. It may never need to be opened."

Ruan Xueyin didn't understand and stared blankly at her.

Su Luojin also stared at her, "My daughter is so beautiful and well-behaved, I wonder if there is anyone in the world who can be worthy of her."

Ruan Xueyin wanted to tell her that there was, she wanted to tell her about Gu Xinglang's Shi Wushuang, but she reflected that she was too young to say it—in fact, what did it matter, the time and space were disordered in the dream, and there was no need to follow the common sense of cause and effect.

"Xia Yaoyao said that you or Aunt Yan left something in the house in the medicine garden. What is it?" The next sentence broke the common sense, because she suddenly remembered this old puzzle, until Wen Qi, Mrs. Shu's mother and daughter He and Shangguan concubine passed away one after another, but they couldn't solve it.

Su Luojin smiled slyly, "On the ground, right?"

Ruan Xueyin nodded, her heart beating faster.

"That's a secret, a secret of time."

"Is it a prophecy?"

Su Luojin patted her head, "You guessed it all."

Ruan Xueyin shook her head, "I don't know if it's true or not."

"Then what do you hope is true?"

Ruan Xueyin thought for a while, then shook her head.

"When I was your age, I couldn't figure it out either." Known daughter Mo Ruomu, Su Luojin understood the meaning of shaking her head, "Don't open it, daughter, this is what I leave you." She turned her head Looking at the fish lock, it is obviously very close, but it seems to be looking at something far away.
"Live in the moment, live in the generation you are in, love the one you love, do what you want to do, do your best for every wish, and live this life vigorously. Knowing in advance, knowing too much, or becoming a shackle is not a blessing .The sun rises and the moon sets from time to time.”

It turned out that this sentence was taught by my mother.Ruan Xueyin thought in her dream.When the sun rises and the moon sets, the seven characters seem to have grown up in her heart since she was a child. When she first met Gu Xinglang, she told him.

"Come on, mother, give me a hug."

The voice is still clear, but Su Luojin's face has begun to blur.

Ruan Xueyin didn't know if it was because she cried again, or because she was hugged into her arms and couldn't watch anymore.

But that hug is really special, different from Chunfeng, Ruan Zhong, Chunyue, and Gu Xinglang's.

Mother's embrace.She burst into tears.

"Mother! Mother!" Another voice sounded anxiously, like a bell as the wind blows over the eaves, and rubbed his face back and forth, small and soft.

Ruan Xueyin opened her eyes and saw her daughter's face.

"Chao Chao." She called out, her voice was very hoarse, and she was crying heavily.

"Mother is having a nightmare." Chao Chao also burst into tears, and couldn't see her crying, so she opened her small arms and hugged her, "Mother is not sad, Chao Chao is here, and Chao Chao will protect Mother and accompany her forever." With mother."

Ruan Xueyin felt that she had been hit on the crying point and couldn't stop no matter what, "No." She shook her head and hugged her daughter tightly, "It's a beautiful dream, a very beautiful dream."

"Did mother dream about being a child?" My aunt and uncle recently drew a picture of my mother when she was a child, and kept it with Uncle Shi. The reason is unknown, but the impression is deep.

"Yes, why is my daughter so smart? She dreamed about it when she was a child, and she dreamed about it, mother's mother."

"Luo Jin."

Ruan Xueyin was stunned, and stepped back to look at Chao Chao's little face, "How do you know?"

"I saw that little portrait when I was at home. My aunt said it was Luo Jin, and it was my mother's mother. I dreamed of her that night. She still talked to me, and she knew me."

"Why are you rummaging through mother's things?" Ruan Xueyin cried and laughed.

"I found it under the pillow." Chao Chao pouted, "I didn't search for it on purpose."

How could it really be her fault. "What did Luo Jin say to you?"

"That's what he said, asking me to protect mother and stay with mother forever."

Su's dream is true, right?Ruan Xueyin couldn't help thinking.It has been passed down from generation to generation, from mother to daughter, and now it has come to court.So that the dream is not a dream, but more like what actually happened in another time and space, filling the regrets of life.

Is it because we are already in the extreme north, close to the divine light?She remembered the joke about singing in court before leaving.

--extremely suspicious.In fact, it was only because I talked too much about the past with Gu Xinglang before going to bed, and I thought about it, so it became a dream.

He got up with the child, packed up and went out, only Ruan Zhong was outside.He saw her swollen face at a glance, "didn't you sleep well?"

Chaochao wanted to be hugged by his uncle, and hurriedly explained: "Mother dreamed that Luojin was the grandmother, and she cried happily."

Ruan Zhong was startled, and looked at her tenderly, "Is it okay?"

Ruan Xueyin nodded and smiled, "I also dreamed about that person."

Ruan Zhong instantly understood, "Are you sneering at you again? Or are you scolding me?" The meaning of the joke was strong.

"No, it's pretty nice."

Ruan Zhong puffed, "I can't think of him being kind." He was a little distracted, "He is not a kind person, even if he loves Xia Yaoyao's mother and daughter in every possible way, it is not gentle."

Ji Qi said that the meals are ready and available at any time.Ruan Xueyin asked him to lead Chao Chao to eat, and she was still standing opposite Ruan Zhong. "Is there any gain from pretending to be drunk last night?"

Ruan Zhong was stunned again, shook his head and smiled, "Can't you let me go? You can obviously ask him."

Ruan Xueyin knew that this was just a joke, so she waited for him to continue.

"There's a hexagram in the "Book of Changes" that says to wear a shoe, and it's up to you." Ruan Zhong continued, "Just this sentence, Murong Xun's original words. Of course it wasn't for me."

It was for Gu Xinglang.

"It should have been straightforward, but I didn't know how to read, so he had no choice but to hide it. But then again, if he hadn't been drinking, he might not have been able to speak."

"What does Fifth Brother think this statement means?"

Ruan Zhong remembered that at the top of Pengxi Mountain, on the night of the bonfire, he said that it was a lie that he had no regrets at all.But at that time, the whole sentence was focused on no regrets and the happiness of Jing Ting Ge, so that he never felt that the first half of the sentence was important.

It turned out that Murong Xun said the truth, every sentence must be put into action - no regrets, does not mean giving up.He just realized it last night.

"I haven't read the "Book of Changes". How can I understand it?"

Ruan Xueyin was silent for a while. "Is there any use in persuading Fifth Brother to leave now and take Chaochao and Ayan back to Pengxi Mountain?"

It was just a tactful attempt, she knew it would be difficult for him to agree.

"It seems that these four words are not good."

"Not necessarily, I can't tell."

"I am very concerned about the safety of Chaochao and Ayan. But if the road ahead is in danger, I want to be by your side even more. It has been 20 years, and it is not a few days away; danger is not unexperienced."

During the conversation, Ah Yan ran out to say good morning to his aunt and uncle, and then looked for Chao Chao.

The other three got up one after another, had their meals, and set off soon.Before getting into the car, Gu Xinglang pulled Ruan Xueyin aside, "What's wrong? His eyes are swollen like walnuts."

"It's okay." The explanation is unclear and meaningless.

Gu Xinglang hugged her into his arms and just stayed there quietly.

"It's time to go."

"Hold for a little while."

He did it to comfort her, although he didn't know why she was crying. "It's not good for children to see."

"There's nothing wrong with a father and mother hugging."

It's only a few hours before dawn, so of course it's important to hurry, so Gu Xinglang really can't make a cup of tea for a while.

The team continued to travel north, and stopped temporarily at dusk.The red sun is in the forest, the snow is purple, Jing Tingge lifts the curtain, and sees the familiar huge stone castle, Kula's home.

There was a man standing in front of the stone castle, whom he knew, but not Kura.

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