Qingchuan History

Chapter 283
"Do you have it too? Moments like this." She was leaning against the high table, and he was in front of her, so close enough to catch every subtle expression on his face.

"Yes." He replied.

Ruan Xueyin couldn't help but slow down her expression.He stretched out his right hand to pull his left hand.

She is waiting for him to say.

Gu Xinglang was silent for a while.It is indeed difficult to speak out what is in your heart, especially as you get older.He advised her like this, but he didn't practice it himself.

"Father passed away in October, and I entered the Hall of Turning Waves three days later. The year name was not changed back then. The first year of Jinghong was counted from the second year, so although this year is my seventh year in office, it is You know all about Jinghong’s six years.”

Ruan Xueyin agreed with her eyes.Not only her, but the whole Qingchuan knew about it.

"The end of the first year of Jinghong is probably the same winter night. It should be 29, because there is a New Year's Eve banquet on the second day." His eyes were calm, maybe they fell on the ground, maybe they were falling on her lake-colored skirt, "I finished approving paperwork, and I wanted to stand on the terrace for a while as usual, and when I walked up to the steps, suddenly,"

It should be a little difficult.He paused for a moment. "Very panic. Panic, and then fear, a lot of fear coming from all directions."

He was 15 years old that year.Ruan Xueyin thought.Originally, it was a new dynasty and a new atmosphere, but the huge Qi Palace was actually deserted, and the only one among the three younger siblings who could help each other was Gu Chunyue.And Chunyue is a woman, and she is in the harem, so she can't help much.In addition, the year before was too painful, everything happened too fast, apart from being deserted, the atmosphere was also gloomy.

Gu's huge beam was pressing on him alone.

"Aren't your two elder brothers working hard?" She couldn't help asking, and she was ready for him not to answer.After all, it is a family matter.

"You have all seen that they didn't make it difficult for me." You, from Ruan Xueyin to all the people who were not in the court at that time, the so-called outsiders, "Naturally there was some mediation during this period, with the help of Ji Huan and a group of veterans," he paused again , "I was only fifteen at that time, after all."

It's not bad to be embarrassed.Don't count on helping each other.

Understatement, don't say the whole thing, let alone explain it thoroughly, it seems that you haven't finished it.But it can only go so far.Ruan Xueyin understood.

"You are the son of the first son. It is also appointed by the first emperor. The name is justified." Based on her impression of the kings at the Tianchang Festival night banquet, the old seventh king Ning was idle, and the eleventh king had no sense of existence. He was bold and assertive, but a letter. king.Xin Wang Gu Xingzhi ranked fifth, and the crown prince passed away, so he was the eldest.

"It's justified. Good or bad." Ruan Xueyin didn't have time to understand whether "not good" is bad, because he continued to say, "I was standing in front of the steps, and suddenly I was very afraid of tomorrow. Afraid of tomorrow's New Year's Eve banquet, afraid of everyone Yangdu is under my nose, the entire Qi Palace, the entire Jidu, and the entire Qi State are all under my nose. And I stand on the highest point, with everything and nothing."

He still stared calmly, she couldn't see his eyes clearly. "Xiaoxue," the ending sounded like a sigh, "I wasn't ready. Before the fourth day of May that year, my way forward was not like this. Before that day, everyone's expectation of me was, don't go to see that seat." Including After being a father, a king and a mother, I couldn't say it after all, "What I have been preparing for many years is not to be a king, but not to be a king."

He paused for a moment.

"After the fourth day of May, the third brother's death must have been a blow to my father, so my father didn't immediately save him. Although he was not in good health at that time, in the end," he paused, "it's not a serious problem."

It will not collapse within half a year.Ruan Xueyin understood.

"In October of that year, my father passed away."

This sentence came suddenly.Ruan Xueyin thought.It's like skipping some logic.Between nothing serious and death, there is something hidden——

Sudden?Or unexpected.

It is still too late to recollect.She continued to listen intently to him.

"I was in the position in a daze, and I started to deal with all the things that fell from the sky in a daze. It's really like rushing ducks to the shelves." He smiled, rather self-deprecating, and finally looked up at her, "But I can't say this to anyone, Some hypocrisy, even more hypocritical. The most important thing is that I have already sat in this position, I can't say. I have to look like a real king."

She shook his hand, "You are already. You have done a good job, no worse than any previous emperor."

"But at the time it was just like that." He laughed again, "14 years old, no matter how good-minded, incomplete, and inexperienced, but following the gourd, even the momentum was pretended. I survived the first stage in a daze. One year, everyone said I did a good job, but that night, when I stood in front of the steps, I suddenly couldn’t remember what I had done. It was as if another spirit was lingering in this body. For a whole year."

Ruan Xueyin didn't know what to say.Can only continue to hold his hand.

"I stood in front of the steps, I didn't dare to go out, looked up at the sky, there was not a single star. At that time, I thought, it would be nice if I could just hide in the imperial study room like this, don't think about tomorrow, don't stand on a high place, whoever wants to come here Come. On such a day, the sun, moon and stars cannot be seen, and this road is not comfortable."

"But you didn't retreat. You didn't slack off. You set up new rules and improved the military system, appointed people on merit and properly reconciled the old officials and the new rich. Jinghong's four-year flood was even more comprehensive and almost perfect." She also smiled, There is light in the eyes.

"It's really unfair." Gu Xinglang looked relaxed, "You know what I did. I don't know anything about what you were doing in those years."

"I only have those few things, which are the same every day, so I don't need to know too clearly."

"But I want to know." He looked at her, "Xiaoxue, you came too late. Fortunately, I didn't retreat at that time. Otherwise, if you come today, I might not be the one waiting here."

"You won't." Ruan Xueyin said, "Whether you have me or not, you are you. Compared with the so-called more comfortable road, or stepping on the foundation with luck for a day, you are more willing to do your best and do what you should do." Do the best you can.”

Everything the outside world has seen so far in the past seven years, even he has repeatedly considered the matter between the two of them, thought through all possibilities, and finally arranged a countermeasure to move forward——

Although she still doesn't know what the "somewhat tragic" countermeasure is.

After all, she wouldn't let him go that far.

But this is a liability.Take on fear, risk, responsibility, and an inability to give up.

True wisdom and true courage.

A man who is always looking for a way and never backs down.

Gu Xinglang didn't expect her to suddenly boast like this.

"That," he coughed dryly, "it's not that exaggerated."

"There are few stars in the winter night." She continued, continuing what he said earlier, "But the four seasons turn, and there will always be more of them again. How can you see them if you hide in the imperial study?" She walked over Looking over his shoulder towards the balcony, he could only see the far corner of the northern sky, "The king is the one who leads thousands of people to chase the stars. If you don't see the stars in the sky, why chase the stars?"

She showed him the brightest starry sky in the past 20 years.Gu Xinglang said in his heart.

"I have something for you," he said.

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