Mystery: Those years when I was a foreign aid for the Aurora Club

Chapter 81 Broken Diary (7)

Uninteresting, boring, lackluster.If it wasn't for some idiot's wishful thinking, I didn't need to waste time to remedy it.

It was a long and tiresome road, and the wind and snow covered the beginning and the end, and it also made him develop some bad habits.

Like starting to hate things that are worthless but alive.

On the way, he gradually gave up what he should have as a living being, such as the concept of time, sympathy for pain, and perception of happiness.Human nature voluntarily gave up itself, and reason and divinity replaced him as the most important part of him.It is good not to know joy any longer, so that pity does not change one's purpose.It is good not to be able to understand sorrow so that it does not cause them to continue suffering out of compassion.

Not even negativity anymore, so you can roam with poise in solitude.All in all, there is no harm in this.

Step by step, step by step, there is no one who can stop him on the stairs leading to the highest place.Blanka's wrong performance made her state worse, and even the uniqueness of adjacent paths could not be accommodated.If she is not willing to give up the possibility in her hands, and is unwilling to admit that her world has already been destroyed, then she will never be able to accept the essence of "decline".

"A monster with no blood, no tears, and no heart," she said to Him.

"Boring," he said.

Watching the boring world for so long, he has already forgotten what it feels like to be boring. He was probably happy to finally get something, only to find that this thing is not as he thought... No, it should be "Disappointed"?Or "sorrow"?Well, it really doesn't matter what it is.Anyway, no one will discuss these issues with him in the future, and he will have endless time to think about these things slowly.Maybe it's just that my "emotional confusion" curse was induced by the true god of the adjacent path, which slightly affected me.

In all fairness, he—whether it is the current one or him—doesn't actually hate life.Living life has infinite possibilities. Sooner or later, the land that has experienced barrenness will be rejuvenated, and life that has overcome pain will be more beautiful.Pain and sorrow are necessary, but beauty and hope are also necessary. If you trap your life in a cage of despair, even if you pay for 1000 years of pain in advance, what you will end up with is nothing but destruction.

When she is reminiscing about the past, yearning for the beautiful blue sky and the vast grassland, while He is looking forward to the future and looking forward to the unknown world, they are destined to be unable to understand each other, let alone forgive.

"If you can't accept it, I will accept it for you."

Under the extreme night sky, on the pale snow field, the sky is silent, the earth is silent, and the long dream is cruel and beautiful.Thousands of years ago, the gods did not want to admit the despair and misery of their families, so they chose desire and escape. Thousands of years later, the cold wind howled like a knife, covering up crying and burying prayers.Before the New God could sit firmly on the throne, he couldn't bear to face this broken world and issued a solemn declaration:
"I curse my hometown, and here it comes to an end!"

"I curse all the living beings here, I curse your cruelty, selfishness and ignorance. You will lose your life, existence, history, and the fog and snow will swallow everything. Then, I wish you all the peace."

"...I bless this planet, no matter how broken it is, no matter how it declines, new life will be born."

"I bless the future life to have the arms to open up the road of civilization, so that I don't have to survive in the haze and cold."

Roaring, crying, cheering, cursing.It is full of ear drums, some are crying, some are laughing, some are cursing the gods because they try their best to survive but are denied by the gods, and some are joyful because of the announcement of death in the painful life and confusion.The new god looked down at the creatures under his feet from a height of ten thousand feet. There were only five or six hundred intelligent creatures, and there were countless animals and insects.But that's all, but that's all, and it's also reproduced in the only pure land for thousands of years and hasn't been extinct.If there are not many prerequisites, and there is no divine intervention and selfishness, this can be regarded as respectable.

It's hard to tell how much that madness affected me. The moment I glimpsed the truth, awakened myself, and embarked on the escape road to find the future alone, I ushered in my first long death.Today, in the endless emptiness and cold silence, I can occasionally hear Branka babbling in my consciousness, saying something like missing my homeland and sincerely loving my hometown and planet. go.

Losing her protection, the gust of wind howled into the last grassland, dyed the grass white, wrapped the body with ice and snow, all life would die in just a few minutes, and the continuation of the millennium is only for this moment of extinction .I don't feel sad, I breathe a sigh of relief, and even finally gave birth to the joy of wanting to embrace this planet.Die, Branka, die, don't whisper in my ear anymore, only my reason will live with the divinity.

Suffering makes life progress, and it also makes me finally give up the feeling that I was born as a small being, the feeling of nostalgia for my homeland, the feeling of nostalgia for the past, and the ability to miss the smile in memory.It's the peace of mind of being dead and knowing nothing is going on, the end is coming, and I'm just bored.

"Cry, cry all you want."

"Or curse me, or laugh, or hate me!"

Facing the various forms of life when death came, he said angrily for the last time: "At least at the last moment, live for yourself!"

TBC
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The next chapter is the end of the fragmented diary.

Minor setting addition: Branka’s real name is Branna, and Enka is a tribal surname. For strangers or serious occasions, when calling the full name directly, the suffix of the name will be omitted, and the surname will be added to make it more solemn.

The full name of Decay is "Alcaturia Winter".After the "cold wave", the surname customs of the two races disappeared, and the surnames no longer have blood and family meanings, but only represent the date of death. "Er" is a common sound, just like the e at the end of English, which is silent. "Ka" is a class name, representing the priesthood. Reproductive ability, sexless (worker ants, laborers, a type of resource).These nouns are used to distinguish individuals and are only equivalent to code names.So if all were removed, his name would be Atuya.

And "Winter" was translated by Fade himself when he needed to introduce himself on the earth. This word was originally just "winter", but because in his civilization, winter is a disaster, so this word has a derogatory meaning, and the context is even worse. Like "life-killing cold", "biting cold wave".

↑These are covered in more detail in later sections.

(End of this chapter)