Rebuild 2005

The slender jade fingers were crystal clear and tender. They moved slightly on the keyboard, as if they wanted to tap, but after they moved, they rested calmly on the keyboard without tapping.

Li Miaoyu sat cross-legged on the carpet in the piano room, hugging the computer, staring blankly at the chat box on the screen.

Li Wanyi's profile picture is a small grass, she even asked specifically, Li Wanyi said that she found it on the Internet, just saw it, thought it was pretty and meaningful, so she used it as the profile picture.

She looked at the green grass for a while, then turned to her own profile picture, which was a photo of Miao Miao.

After raising Yaya, she once thought about changing her profile picture to Yaya, but she felt that this was too new and tired of the old. However, the two kittens have never had a photo together, and they have not met each other.

She tried to put the photos of the two cats together, but unfortunately the technology was not good, and it didn't look good after many times, so she gave up.

In the past, she didn't care about these, it's just the avatar, what should she care about?
At this moment, probably because of her sensitive mind, she suddenly thought a little too much.

The senior sister seems to be like a grass. Her family situation is not very good. She is like a grass growing out of the soil. She has to experience wind and rain very early. , in addition to studying every day, I also have to calculate living expenses, whether I can eat enough, can I save a little more...

When it came time for the college entrance examination, in addition to these, she almost dropped out of school to work.

Wei Qingfan said that the senior in his dream had dropped out of school to work, but even so, she started from scratch and became a wealthy boss and female entrepreneur.

Persevering, strong and independent, soft on the outside and strong on the inside, isn't this just like a grass?

And it's a beautiful grass that can bloom...

What about yourself?
It seems that a cat like this, being raised by someone and waiting to be fed by others, is not even as good as a pet cat like Yaya, Yaya going to stray. There is a high probability that it can catch mice, birds and other things to eat. survive.

If you go wandering by yourself, you will probably be like Meow Meow, and you will starve to death soon...

"pet……"

She sat there in a daze, these two words circling in her mind.

Senior sisters can work part-time to earn money, support the family, provide for younger siblings to study, and start a business as a boss. If you change yourself, what will you do?

She thought about it for a while, and she seemed to be unable to do what her senior sister would and could do...at least she hadn't experienced it...

Compared with my senior sister, I am like the flower in the greenhouse as mentioned in the book, and I can beat myself to the ground with a little wind and rain.

What would you be without your parents?what can be doneCan you live on?Or is it the current Li Miaoyu?

Most of the flowers cultivated in the greenhouse are more delicate and beautiful, and I am indeed beautiful, but even in terms of beauty, I can't compare to my senior sister...at least my breasts...

Nothing compares to other aspects...

Thinking of this, her heart was full of frustration and frustration, her mouth was subconsciously pouted, her cheeks puffed slightly, she held the mouse, and slowly slid up.

There were a lot of chats in the two days, but yesterday's content was nothing more, and she quickly found the chat records from last night.

After the "incident" on Wei Qingfan's birthday, she and Li Wanyi were very sad at first, hated him, and both wanted to quit and let each other be with Wei Qingfan.

This may also be regarded as a kind of common hatred.

On the way back from the capital, they chatted a lot, they talked about him, and they also talked about each other.

After Li Wanyi returned home, the two had a chat late at night on the 19th, which further deepened their mutual understanding. Perhaps their personalities match, one is innocent and kind, and the other is independent and strong, and their relationship has become closer.

Otherwise, Li Wanyi would not ask her directly for help if she wanted to buy a house.

This intimacy lasted for several days and was broken last night.

——In the past few days, Wei Qingfan has been looking for two days to chat and talk, and they are very clear about this. Even during the chat, part of the content is what Wei Qingfan said and did today.

This is a very subtle thought and action. It seems that if you don't do this, the previous act of saying "you stay with him" will become hypocritical.

Li Miaoyu knew that Wei Qingfan went home with her senior sister, she could understand this kind of behavior, which made her feel weird, it was her boyfriend, and she went to another girl to explain and coax her, why did she feel that Can you understand it?
How can it be understood?
However, she just found it understandable.

Because she knew very well that night, that night, when she was doing those things with Wei Qingfan upstairs, the senior sister was watching and waiting downstairs, and what kind of harm she suffered.

In other words, she knew that senior sister had suffered a lot because of this, but it was hard to understand and imagine how big it was.

Some things, without personal experience, are different after all.

However, that must be a higher level of trauma than what I have experienced, and it is also more unbearable trauma.

The senior sister saw herself going upstairs with him... The whole night, from nine o'clock in the evening to eleven o'clock in the morning the next day, for more than twelve hours, she stood downstairs...

For such a long time, what would she be thinking?What kind of torment and pain have I endured in my heart...

Moreover, he came to see himself first, and then he went to coax senior sister, and he also returned to his own home... So, in those few days, he was in the county, so he could go to see senior sister and coax senior sister, this is " "Normal" choice... When he returned to the capital, didn't he also come to his home?
In the next few days, didn't he still send himself messages and call himself every day?

However, the senior sister went to Xiamen, so he never called himself again.

He texted, but didn't call.

He used to call...

She waited until last night before sending a message to Li Wanyi, asking her if Wei Qingfan had gone to Xiamen.

She guessed it must be, but she also expected that it would not be the case. She was expecting him because she was busy with work and had no time to make calls, so she could only send messages.

However, yes... he just had a senior, so he forgot about Miaomiao.

The senior sister told her the truth, saying that he stood downstairs in the dormitory all night and did not leave until noon the next day...

It's not hard to guess the senior sister's mind, the big villain deliberately mentioned them on both sides, so even if she knows that telling this matter may make her feel bad, the senior sister can only say it, because if you start from that When the big villain learned about this, he would have a deeper estrangement from her...

Senior sister is not at fault for this matter, she is just like herself, a victim and a deceived person;
She also wanted to withdraw voluntarily and let herself be with that big villain... She had been hurt so much, and she never thought of revenge on anyone, she just wanted to hide and lick the wound silently by herself...

Li Miaoyu was clear about these thoughts and principles.

But I just feel uncomfortable!
Last night, she fell asleep, and in her dream, she could still see Wei Qingfan standing under the senior sister's dormitory, standing there alone, waiting, waiting for the girl he likes to forgive him...

He doesn't remember himself.

He said to himself that it is okay as long as Miaomiao is not Wanwan, then he will definitely say to his senior sister that it is okay to only want to be Wanwan and not Miaomiao... He will definitely say so...

This is what he really thinks, right?

Li Wanyi, who is more sensible and powerful, is of course more popular than Li Miaoyu, who is more self-willed and useless... This is a very normal thing...

When Wei Qingfan was at home with her senior sister, she thought it was understandable. Although she didn't understand why she thought this way, she comforted herself by saying that this would prove her determination even more, and she really wanted to break up with Wei Qingfan. , I really hope and bless him and his senior sister to be together...

But, but... It's just that he went to Xiamen to find his senior. After school started, he was only a few miles away from him, and thousands of miles away from his senior. It took him to cross half of China and put it in other places. The distance of many countries... So now that the senior is returning to school, it is normal for him to go to see the senior...

Then why can't I understand or accept it?
Is it because he stood downstairs all night?

She couldn't figure it out, but she could clearly feel that she was very uncomfortable, wanted to cry, and missed him...but hated him very much, didn't want to talk to him, and never wanted to see him again.

She even thought about dropping out of school, never going back to the capital, never seeing him again, even if he couldn't find herself in the school...

In that case, will he be in a hurry?Will he fly over to find him immediately like he did to his senior sister?
Will you stand downstairs in your own house overnight?
She was thinking so obsessively, and the tears couldn't stop dripping down.

After crying for a while, she wiped away her tears and told herself to be strong...Senior sister would not cry like this...I didn't want to compare with senior sister, I don't want him anymore, I don't care...

However, without Wei Qingfan, life must continue... Before I didn't know him, I was very happy every day, but now I just returned to my life without him, and I can still be very happy...

She persuaded herself like this in her heart, closed the computer and stood up, went to the bathroom to wash her face, and smiled in the mirror.

She tried her best to make the smile in the mirror bright and happy. She smiled several times, and finally she was satisfied. She patted her face again, and then she went out of the bathroom and came to the study.

She found the ink stick and inkstone, poured clear water, and studied the ink carefully. She used to use ink, but now it was different. She wanted to meditate. You can feel the meaning of the calligraphy...

Who said it?

She stood there, thinking obsessively, her mother told her this, her grandfather said this, and Wei Qingfan also said this... But he is just parroting his tongue, he doesn't know where he got it from, and he just shows off to himself like this , he writes so ugly...

Thinking of this, the corners of her mouth couldn't help but curled up, revealing a sweet and playful smile.

This smile bloomed, bright and bright, sweet and pure, and then withered when it was in full bloom, turning into a wronged and sad expression.

She bit her lip, sniffed her nose, then wiped away her tears, lowered her head and continued grinding seriously.

After grinding the inkstone, she tried the ink and found that it was thick enough, so she took a brush, spread out the rice paper, and started to write.

She didn't copy the copybook, because there was no content she wanted to write in the copybook at home, so there was no way to copy it.

Grandpa loves Wang Xianzhi's running script very much. She was influenced by him, and most of the fonts she copied were from Wang Xianzhi. Unfortunately, there are not many calligraphy copies of Wang Xianzhi in the world, and she has not learned enough.

I don't know if it was the second year of high school or the third year of high school. She hasn't seriously practiced calligraphy for several years, but she still has the skills of practicing calligraphy since she was a child. The handwriting she writes is not as good as before, but it can still be called beautiful and beautiful:
The white is like snow on the mountain, and it is as bright as the moon between the clouds.Wen Jun has two intentions, so he is determined to each other.

Today's drinking party, Mingdan Gou Shuitou.On the Yu Yu ditch, the ditch water flows from east to west.

Desolate and desolate, there is no need to cry for marriage.Would like to have as one people, old age is not way off.

How curled up the bamboo pole is, and what the tail of the fish is!A man is full of spirit, why use money and knives for it!
This is Zhuo Wenjun's "White-headed Song". According to legend, Sima Xiangru wanted to take a concubine, so Zhuo Wenjun wrote this "White-headed Song" to Sima Xiangru, expressing a clean break and no entanglement.

Some people also say that "The Song of the White Head" is a forgery written by later generations. Li Miaoyu doesn't know the truth and doesn't care. She likes "The Song of the White Head" but just likes the story and the poem.

Xiao Miaomiao, who was still a little girl at that time, felt that Zhuo Wenjun in this story, Zhuo Wenjun who wrote "Baitou Yin", was simply too...so...so handsome!so cool!

It was a demeanor that shocked her young heart.

However, whether in history or in the story, it seems that Zhuo Wenjun and Sima Xiangru are together again...

Perhaps, "Baitou Yin" is not an attitude and demeanor, but a means and process?

It is said that Sima Xiangru was sent to Sima Xiangru together with the song "Baitou Yin" and "Hui Yuan Lang" and "Farewell Book".

Unfortunately, I don't remember...

She stood in front of the desk, silently staring blankly for a while, then put down the pen, nestled the paper with fluent and beautiful handwriting on the desk, drew a handsome arc in the air, and threw it into the trash can.

It seemed that he had thrown all his troubles into the trash can along with the piece of paper. After taking a deep breath, Li Miaoyu walked out of the study room, came to the living room, then came to the piano room, and finally came to the bedroom, and finally found the phone.

"Hello~"

She dialed her mother's phone, with a soft and sweet voice, "Mom, I want to go out to play."

"Where?"

"Xiamen."

"Why are you going to Xiamen?"

"Find someone."

"Who?"

"Oh, don't worry about it so much, I'm going to go."

"Are you yourself?"

"Yes, I will take a taxi to the airport, then fly to Xiamen, and then someone will pick me up, don't worry, I will call you anytime."

"Okay, then you have to pay attention to safety and report to your mother at any time... Do you have any money?"

"Have."

"Then you must remember to report to your mother at any time."

"Well, okay, thank you mom."

After hanging up the phone, Li Miaoyu packed her luggage, said goodbye to Miao Miao earnestly, then dragged her suitcase to the airport, and flew from the airport to Xiamen.

After landing, she dialed Li Wanyi's phone number.

It's obviously a matter for three people, so why should the scoundrel make the decision alone?