I just want to be soft on her

Chapter 78 Song Cheng Jumps from the Building, Jiang Mo Live

Ma Qingqing looked around the living room, but there was nothing there, then walked to the door of the bedroom, reached out to hold the doorknob, slowly opened the door, and walked in.

Song Cheng sat alone in the corner, motionless, not even blinking, like a statue.

"Chengzi, are you... okay?" Ma Qingqing bit her lower lip, walked to the bed and sat down, looking at her.

The curtains in the bedroom were not drawn, and the sky outside the window was gradually black and gray by itself.

The moon loomed from the clouds, Ma Qingqing reached out to turn on the light in the bedroom, but was stopped by Song Cheng.

"Don't, don't turn on the light." She closed her eyes, choked up and said to Ma Qingqing, "I said something wrong just now."

Ma Qingqing took off her shoes and got on the bed, leaned against the wall, covered the quilt, "Have you...become like that again?"

Song Cheng took a deep breath, and said back to her: "I can't help it, I feel like my brain is out of my control, she has been trying to pull me back, so I obediently followed her back."

"Qing'er, I want to give up, he's so good, so good, I don't deserve it, I don't deserve such a good person at all."

"I'm just, trash, rubbish... I can't even, I can't do anything now, I want to die."

She wiped the tears from her face, turned her head to look at Ma Qingqing, "I thought about it for a while, and I decided to break up with Jiang Mo. I can't let him be his girlfriend with a time bomb."

"Do you understand? Do you understand what I mean? Qing'er, I am a time bomb. Once it explodes, you will always be hurt."

"You are the closest people to me, I don't want you to be hurt, especially mine, I am really in pain..."

She stopped crying again, calmed down, pulled out a hand from the quilt expressionlessly, picked up a tissue on the bedside table, and wiped away the tears on her face.

"Chengzi, we don't think you are a time bomb, if you still think so, sleep, sleep, everything will be fine tomorrow."

Ma Qingqing crawled to Song Cheng's side, took her hand and said.

"Okay, just get some sleep." Song Cheng smiled, "I'll go to the bathroom and wash my face."

She picked up her cell phone and got out of bed.

Ma Qingqing watched her walk out of the bedroom, and heaved a sigh of relief, thinking that her current state of mind seemed to be better than before.

Song Cheng left the bedroom, now in the dark living room, stopped, and asked herself in a low voice, "Is there any point?"

She felt that she had fallen into a swamp, and she had no strength in her body. She could only follow the ooze and sink together until the ooze covered her head, she stopped breathing, and the world quieted down. That would be the best ending.

After moving a few steps, she walked out the door.

"Crack-"

The sound of the door closing was so small that Ma Qingqing didn't even hear it.

Song Cheng entered the elevator and pressed down on the floor on the roof.

She is now in a very calm mood, and she doesn't know if her mind is normal or not, but she knows that there is always a voice in her mind that is driving her, and she is brainwashing and saying: "You are such a failure, why do you want to live in this world? Why are you so tired?"

She looked up and watched the elevator go up layer by layer, and she felt a little anticipation in her heart, because she was about to be relieved.

"Ding dong~"

Even the sound of the elevator arriving became pleasant.

With a smile on the corner of her mouth, she stepped out of the elevator.

The wind on the roof was very strong, Song Cheng was only wearing a sweater, and every time the wind blew, it would get into her clothes.

She sniffed, not feeling a little cold all over her body.

Song Cheng walked to the edge of the floor and sat down. Usually she would not dare to come here at all because she is afraid of heights.

But now, she is yearning for this place, even a little obsessed, looking at other places from the top of the building, the lights are bright.

"It's the Chinese New Year..." She said to herself, "But, what does that have to do with me?"

"You are dying, Song Cheng." She was still talking to herself, "You don't deserve anything, you don't deserve anything."

She started to cry again, this time the tears were blown away by the wind on the roof as soon as they fell, leaving only tears that she couldn't see.

"Okay, it's time, I'm very happy with this experience card in the world, and I'm also very sorry, everything has nothing to do with you, it's all my fault."

She took the phone out of her pocket, put it on the ground of the roof, and canceled all the passwords.

Then squatted down and said to the phone: "I'm sorry, I have to go, but don't worry, I'm very happy."

Song Cheng turned around and opened her mouth into a smile. Her mouth was very dry. When she was laughing, she accidentally split her mouth and blood flowed into her mouth.

But none of this matters.

If you are regarded as a coward, you are a coward. It’s okay if I’m one less in this world, the earth can still continue to rotate.

Thinking of this, she sat on the edge of the roof and closed her eyes. It will all end today.

……

"I need somebody to heal, somebody to know, somebody to have, somebody to hold."

This is Song Cheng's alarm. It rang exactly at eight o'clock, and the screen of the phone lit up. The note on it was:

Jiang Mo's first live broadcast, you must watch it!Never be late!
"This time, you saved me."

Just as Song Cheng was about to jump, at that moment, her alarm clock rang. She remembered that at eight o'clock tonight, it was Jiang Mo's first live broadcast.

She had promised him that she would definitely see it.

In order to watch his live broadcast, she downloaded the software early, registered an account on it, and recharged the account with some money, hoping to reward him.

Imagine what the sleep aid channel he opened would be like.

The alarm clock kept ringing, and the song was played over and over again, making Song Cheng's heart shake again and again.

She couldn't help but wanted to see him, walked to the phone, knelt down, her hands trembling, and wanted to pick up the phone.

Song Cheng tried countless times, she was in too much pain, and asked herself: "Why, why did this happen?"

Finally, I made up my mind to do one thing...

My heart hurts like being torn apart, and I am very tired from living, but when I meet Jiang Mo, she will feel at ease by his side.

And mother, father and Ma Qingqing...

No matter what she does, she is sorry for each of them.

"I'm sorry... I'm sorry..." She was trembling all over, stretched out an index finger, and turned off the alarm clock.

On the screen, the lemon live broadcast was placed on a separate page, as soon as the phone was turned on.

Song Cheng looked at this software, and felt less guilty in her heart. She wanted to click in, watch him, and watch his first live broadcast.

"You are the most obedient and best girl in the world."

This sentence suddenly flashed in her mind.

　The alarm bell is the lyrics of "Someone You Loved", hey, Amway for you, a very nice song!

　　
　
(End of this chapter)