I just want to be soft on her

Chapter 188 Memories
Several images flashed through Song Cheng's mind, all when he was with Jiang Mo, he said he liked him, he said he would never leave him... So many vows.

"Ah..." Song Cheng's brain hurts, and even her heart hurts. She stretched out her hand to cover her heart, "Hiss..."

Seeing her like that, Jiang Mo hurried over and asked her, "Chengzi, what's wrong with you? Where does it hurt?"

He looked at her face, gradually becoming painful, tears rolling in his eyes unconsciously.

"You...really familiar." Song Cheng endured the pain, grabbed his arm and asked him: "Jiang Mo, is it really you who wrote me the letter? I remember it, I remember it all gone."

A month ago, Hua Zhao took Song Cheng to the hospital. After the physical examination, the doctor told her that she could actually think of the past at any time, but her heart resisted too much, and her whole body was resisting the memories of the past. , so I can't remember anything.

Maybe it's a mental illness, Song Cheng has never tried to remember those previous memories, from the day she met Jiang Mo again, the dead memories seemed to come back to life, beating her heart again and again Door.

But she still chose to forget, maybe because she didn't want to cause herself too much pain, or maybe she just didn't want to remember, Song Cheng didn't even try to remember.

Occasionally, memories from the past would flash in her mind. In that memory, there were father, mother, Qingqing, and Jiang Mo.

It was not until today that she remembered everything thoroughly. These memories were like a flood, breaking through her fragile psychological defense.

"Chengzi..." Jiang Mo called her name.

Song Cheng raised her head, her entire face was covered with traces of tears, and her face was flushed red from the pain.

"Why should I see you again?" She sobbed, "I obviously...choose not to go back to the past..."

Jiang Mo reached out, trying to wipe the tears off her face, but she dodged it, "I'm sorry, I shouldn't be here."

She got up from the bed and wanted to run away, but Jiang Mo pulled her back and hugged her tightly.

"Don't go... don't go, okay?" Song Cheng was struggling violently in Jiang Mo's arms, she wanted to escape, "I will be even more sad if you leave."

The person in her arms didn't move, she stopped struggling, raised her head and kissed his chin, and after a few seconds, her soft lips stopped.

"I'm sorry, I'm a murderer, I can't be with you, I'm not a nice person."

She said calmly, a year ago, if she hadn't insisted on going her own way, maybe her father would not have died, nor would he have been tortured to death by Gu Liyan and the others.

"No, no." Jiang Mo shook his head, "Chengzi, you didn't kill people, they were the ones who did the killing, they have all been shot now, if you hadn't called the police before you went, they wouldn't have been arrested, so you didn't Wrong, you know? I don't allow you to say that about yourself."

Song Cheng rubbed her head against his neck, and whispered: "But I will never forgive myself, never, you won't know the pain, I can't bear it in my conscience, I will never To forever condemn my own."

"Don't be like this..." Jiang Mo suddenly remembered that when he left Haishi to find Song Cheng, Jiang Shu sent him a video, and told him, let Song Cheng watch it, and the condemnation she felt towards herself in her heart might be broken A few points less.

Jiang Shu also told him that he wanted to find his daughter countless times, but in the end he restrained himself. If he went to find her by himself, she might hide herself deeper, and might do what she did by jumping into the sea a year ago again.

So, since Jiang Mo wants to find her, let him go, find him, show her the video, and let her feel relieved.

Jiang Mo took out his phone from his pocket, found the video, and said to Song Cheng, "Cheng Zi, watch this."

Song Cheng looked up and stared at Jiang Mo's phone.

In the video, Song Jiang was lying on the hospital bed wearing a hospital gown, and his face looked quite energetic.

A sentence came from outside the camera, "Captain Song, it's ready."

"Have you started recording?" Song Jiang asked the person outside the camera.

"It has already begun."

"okay."

Song Jiang sat upright, straightened his clothes and hair, coughed twice, and then began to speak.

"Cheng Zi, when you see this video, there is a high possibility that Dad is no longer in this world."

"It must be very sad." Song Jiang stretched out his hand and wiped the lens, "Don't cry, there is no need to be sad."

"Over the years, I've taken care of you very little. It's because I'm too busy. If I can survive... Hey, forget it, Dad really wants to see you again."

"Death is not a terrible thing. Dad hopes that you will not be frightened by it. I will always be by your and mother's side."

"Cheng Zi, you little girl likes to get into the wrong end, remember, you have to get rid of these problems slowly in the future."

"Don't be too impulsive when you encounter anything, calm down and think about it."

"Let those past things go, and you have to learn to let go. Just like the wind, there are many things blown by, but nothing can be taken away. I hope you are also like the wind, relaxed and at ease, without worries and troubles." Worry and live happily."

"Okay, it's getting late. Dad has to take the medicine. After taking the medicine, Dad will go to bed. Remember to go to bed early."

The video ends here.

After Song Cheng finished watching, she covered her face and burst into tears, "Dad, I can't do it... I can't do it at all..."

"Like the wind, I am relaxed and at ease, without worries and sorrows, happy..."

She read these few words, is Dad comforting herself?
"Jiang Mo, I'm sorry..." Song Cheng said sorry to him again, "Let me go, I want to be alone."

"it is good."

Jiang Mo let him go, let her get out of bed, then walked to the window, watching the rain falling harder and harder outside the window.

"I'm right here."

he said to her.

Song Cheng sat down by the floor-to-ceiling window, quietly watching the rain outside the window, if she could, she really wanted to go out and take a shower...

Thinking of this, she stood up from the ground and ran to the door barefoot, Jiang Mo stood behind her, "Cheng Zi, where are you going?"

"..."

She did not speak.

After a while, she said, "I want to go out."

"But it's raining outside, and you're going to get wet."

"Get wet... It's okay, I just want to get wet once, to let me know how unbearable and annoying I am."

(End of this chapter)