Hospital No. 444

Chapter 125 Diary
When Jin Yunran heard this question from his nephew, his heart tightened.

"Auntie, I asked the foreign teacher in our bilingual kindergarten, and she kept telling me that my father must have gone to heaven now, that is, Heaven, where God lives. The teacher will not lie to us, right? "

"Yun Yi, well, of course heaven exists..." Jin Yunran replied without thinking, "Your father must be in heaven right now."

Fortunately, Jin Yunran, because the child is too young, her sister insisted on giving him a mobile phone after he went to school, so he didn't use search engines much.In addition, there are more frequent Western festivals in my sister's house, such as Thanksgiving, Easter, and Christmas. It is not surprising that he believes in God and heaven.

At the dinner table, because of Gao Yunyi's question, it suddenly became a little heavy.

"Okay, Yun Yi, let's eat..." Jin Yunlan immediately picked up a piece of broccoli for his son.

"I don't like this..." Yun Yi frowned immediately when he saw the broccoli in the rice bowl, but looked at his mother's eyes, and didn't continue talking, but picked up the bowl and started chewing silently.

"This kid just doesn't like vegetables." Jin Yunlan sighed, and said to Jin Yunran, "He is just like me when I was young in this way, and he is like you in other places."

"Yunyi, you can't be picky about your food." Jin Yunran also wanted to change the topic of "paradise" earlier, and also put broccoli for his nephew.

Because of the vegetables, Jin Yunran leaned very close to Yunyi, and suddenly, the child said in a voice that only she could hear: "Auntie, daddy, will he come back from heaven to see us?"

Hearing this, Jin Yunran's chopsticks stopped suddenly, and the broccoli almost fell onto the table.

She subconsciously wanted to say "yes", but then realized that this is not a question that can be easily perfunctory.

What if she said "yes" and my nephew took it seriously?Just because the other party is a child, you can't feel that the other party won't take anything to heart.

"I'm afraid that's not easy. When a person goes to heaven, it's hard to come back easily."

After saying this, Jin Yunran clearly saw Yun Yi's extremely lonely eyes.

She can understand the child's current mood very well.

When she and her sister lost their parents, they were past the age of believing in heaven.

Jin Yunran was thinking, when this child goes to school, he will soon know that there is no heaven, and when a person dies, he is dead, and there will be no soul left behind.

After dinner, Alan went to wash the dishes, Yun Yi watched TV, and Yun Lan took Yun Ran to the room arranged for her on the second floor.

After entering the room, Jin Yunlan sat on the bed in the bedroom and stared blankly at Jin Yunran.

"Yunran... I still don't have any sense of reality. I always feel that Qishu has not left, as if he is still here."

"Sister," Jin Yunran immediately walked up and hugged her sister, "everything will pass."

"I'm serious..." Yunlan pushed Yunran away, and said, "I don't have any sense of reality at all, as if all this is just a nightmare. I seem to feel that the prayer book is still in this villa, and it's still with me. Me and Yun Yi live together."

"Sister, don't be like this..." Jin Yunran is most afraid of this appearance, "I understand how you feel, but if you are like this, brother-in-law can't leave in peace."

"You said that too...everyone said that to me..." Jin Yunlan shook his head desperately: "everyone is like this, what do you say to me, he is a good man, he will go to heaven, he will become a star to see me in the sky Yes, he will rest in peace under the Nine Springs... In fact, I don't feel comforted by such words. If he can be in heaven and under the Nine Springs, why can't he be by my side?"

Jin Yunran originally wanted to refute, but suddenly thought, maybe it's better to follow her sister's words now.Otherwise, it would be worse if she really followed her to "Heaven".

"You, you're right...sister. Brother-in-law, he won't let you go easily, maybe...he's right beside you and Yun Yi, waiting for your mother and son."

Speaking of such creepy words, Jin Yunran only hoped that her sister would never have any bad thoughts.

"Yunran, can I ask you something?" Jin Yunlan grabbed Jin Yunran's hand earnestly, and said, "Most of the relics of prayers are in his study. I...I want to ask you to help me." I'll sort out his belongings. I, I dare not go there again..."

Jin Yunran naturally understood her sister's mood, and under such circumstances, she would definitely be emotional.

"It's tidying up... But, I don't know what to do with my brother-in-law's things. He is a well-known writer at the top of the bestseller list. Maybe a draft is very valuable."

"His editor in charge came to the house before, and all the manuscripts he wrote and saved in the computer were copied away, and the rest is not important."

"OK then."

then……

The two sisters suddenly fell silent for a while.

"Recently, I always feel that my memory is getting worse." Jin Yunlan brushed his hair, "After Qishu left like this, I often recall the past, but when I think about it now, it seems that many things have been separated by an hour. The same as in the century. Yunran, if only I were as capable as you, I would become a well-known designer at a young age."

"elder sister……"

"Parents always love you more. Sometimes I even think they are too partial."

Jin Yunran listened to his sister's words, and the more he listened, the more worried he became. My sister won't be suffering from depression, right?
"My parents prefer me because I was born with a weaker physique, so they pay more attention to me, not because they think you are bad, sister."

"Yunran."

Suddenly, Jin Yunlan looked towards the ceiling.

"I recently discovered that I really envy you."

Jin Yunran was stunned.

"It was the same when my parents passed away. You did a lot of funeral arrangements by yourself. I would just hide and cry at that time. I didn't dare to face the portraits of my parents. In film and television dramas, it is common for the protagonist's parents to die. The thing, but when I really lost my parents, I realized that it was not as easy as it said. At that time, relatives said behind their backs that you were more like the eldest daughter of the Jin family. "

Jin Yunran didn't know what her sister wanted to say.

It's not like "memory is getting worse" at all.

Suddenly, she stared straight at Jin Yunran.

"With you by my side, I will feel at ease, Yun Ran."

"Well," Jin Yunran nodded emphatically, "I will always stay by your side, sister."

……

The villa is just too big.

Jin Yunran came to the northeast corner of the villa, the study on the third floor.

This is where my brother-in-law works on a daily basis.

The study room is about [-] square meters, and the bookshelves are filled with dense books, a considerable part of which are novels published by the brother-in-law under the pseudonym of Abyss Blue Whale.

About two-thirds of my brother-in-law's works take place in European and American countries.After he earned a large amount of manuscript fees that year, he began to travel around the world.

Norway, Iceland, Greece, Egypt, Romania, Vienna, Poland... My sister often shares with herself the places she and her brother-in-law have been to. After these years of marriage, Jin Yunran's circle of friends can already form a world travel guidebook.

Jin Yunran raised his hand slightly, stroking the masterpiece novels written by his brother-in-law.Vampires in the Principality of Bavaria, gladiators in the Roman Colosseum, the Inca Empire in the Spanish colonial era, the mummy curse of Ramses II in ancient Egypt... She has read all these books.

Moreover, she bought all the reprints of these books after they were published, filling the bookcases in her home.

Open the drawer under the bookshelf...

Inside are the diaries written by my brother-in-law.

I don't know when my brother-in-law started to insist, but for so many years, he has been writing a diary every day without interruption.My sister told her personally that even if nothing special happened that day, my brother-in-law must finish writing a diary before going to bed before going to bed.

She picked up the last diary.

The police once took the diary back for investigation, but nothing was found, so they sent it back.My brother-in-law's parents should have seen it too, but they never found anything.

This is also the relic of her brother-in-law that she wants to sort out, right?

Suddenly, she had an idea that she shouldn't have had.

Brother-in-law is dead...

Then can she read the diary of his life?

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