departure tomorrow

Chapter 93
Su Nan carefully turned on the faucet to wash the rice, and then listened to the movement in the room.

After soaking the rice, I turned around and planned to dry the washed clothes.

"Oh, I'll go." Su Nan cursed in a low voice.

The calendar hanging on the wall fell off, so I paid attention to the movement of the room, forgot to look at the road, and almost fell to my death when I stepped on it.

Hang up the calendar again and stand there looking at the date that is all over it.

"April [-]th"

Su Nan sighed.

Since Fang Mingxuan appeared out of nowhere last time, time seemed to be on the accelerator.

First, there was a sudden outbreak of the epidemic. I was quarantined at home for a month because I couldn't go out. The pet shop was taken care of by Sister Mang. It was a pity that she had to apply to go out every day during the quarantine. Let Sister Mang be in charge of the distribution of pet supplies on that street, so that not only do you not have to worry about those small animals, but you can also maintain the operation.Otherwise, there would be nothing to do with the large batch of goods that just came in.

Then Xu Linlin and the others began to stay at home and take online classes.It just so happened that Su Nan was also preparing for the exam at home.

Fortunately, I have some savings in my hand, and the community will also distribute food, so that I won't become a pauper in isolation at home.

After the epidemic situation improved and the lockdown was lifted, April has arrived.

Xu Linlin also changed the offline exam to online because of the epidemic.

Today is exam day.

Su Nan specially asked for a day off to accompany her.

Su Nan turned her head to dry her clothes, looked at the time, it was eleven o'clock, let's cook, Xu Linlin's exam ended at [-]:[-].

Just as he took out the dishes, he saw Xu Linlin coming out of the room.

"How is it?" Su Nan closed the refrigerator.

"I don't know. Anyway, we're done with the exam and we're waiting for the results." Xu Linlin came over and opened the refrigerator to take out a bottle of milk.

"Believe in your abilities." Su Nan encouraged Xu Linlin.

"Let me describe the situation of the government to you in this way. Our normal class only recruits [-] people, and the number of finalists is [-]." Xu Linlin sighed.

"Don't worry that the exam is over." Su Nan patted Xu Linlin, "Next, you just wait for the good news."

"I hope." Xu Linlin smiled.

"Come, eat hot pot." Su Nan brought out the washed dishes, and plugged in the bottom of the pot that had been prepared earlier.

"Wow, I love you so much." Xu Linlin sat down quickly.

"Stop washing your hands?" Su Nan stood and looked at Xu Linlin who was waiting to eat.

"Okay, okay." Xu Linlin reluctantly stood up to wash his hands.

"Hurry up." Su Nan sat down.

"How are you preparing?" Xu Linlin washed his hands and sat down.

"It's quite strenuous, but at least I have something." Su Nan sighed.

"It's enough to have something. Anyway, if you have any problems, tell me, my strength can be placed there." Xu Linlin smiled and poured the meat into the boiling pot.

"Okay, okay, I got it, student Xueba." Su Nan smiled.

"What are you going to do this afternoon?" Xu Linlin looked up at Su Nan.

"Aren't you going back to school this afternoon?" Su Nan put all the bamboo shoots into the pot, "Then I'll clean it up at home in the afternoon."

"What a good wife and mother." Xu Linlin looked at Su Nan with relief, "Whoever marries you in the future will be blessed."

"Don't you." Su Nan stared blankly at Guo and sighed.

"Su Nan." Xu Linlin looked at Su Nan, "You still miss that kid, don't you?"

"Ah?" Su Nan raised her head and realized, "No."

"Forget it, I'm not forcing you. According to your personality, it's hell to let go so soon." Xu Linlin sighed.

"Who said, am I fine now?" Su Nan smiled.

"It's fine." Xu Linlin looked at Su Nan, "I'm afraid you are pretending to be good."

"I'm not waiting for him, I'm just waiting for him at normal times, just right. Besides, I just want to ask him why." Su Nan nodded.

"Let me tell you, as long as it is a person, it is impossible to disappear. If there is no news, even a dead person, you will know where he is buried in the end." Xu Linlin looked at Su Nan, "Besides, he is a big job People, the mouth is on him, and the feet are on him. Besides, you still have the same connection with him before. Unless. No, there is only one possibility. He doesn’t want you to know his news.”

"But everyone who knows him has no news about him." Su Nan retorted Xu Linlin.

"How long have you known him?" Xu Linlin directly explained the problem.

"Until the day he disappears, not for a year." Xu Linlin continued to seriously say to Su Nan, "Is it really everyone? Are you familiar with his circle of friends? Are they familiar with you? Their words Does it have to be true? No one will leave suddenly. Su Nan. There are not so many accidents. Even if an accident does happen, it cannot be quietly."

Su Nan looked at her and said nothing.

She couldn't make sense of herself.

"All departures are planned for a long time." Xu Linlin sighed, "You understand this truth better than me. No one would be willing to make someone they care about sad. You understand this better."

"Then..." Su Nan's eyes suddenly turned red, "Where are my parents?"

Xu Linlin was speechless for a while.

She forgot about it.

"This, after all, it's different." Xu Linlin scolded herself in her heart, what was wrong with mentioning it, and brought up this one.

"Actually, I have thought of many reasons for them myself." Su Nan put down his chopsticks.

"Ah?" Now it was Xu Linlin's turn to be overwhelmed.

"I used to hold the wrong child, but the girl now belongs to them. Or the fortune teller said that I didn't match them, so I adopted one that matched me. Because you know, our family is quite superstitious. You Said, even more outrageous, they are actually born again, knowing that because of me, their life will not be good in the future, so they decide to change their life. Or, they simply don’t want me anymore. There are too many possibilities It seems that at that moment, it was justifiable." Su Nan smiled with red eyes, "Also, Zhu Hao. I also found a lot of reasons for him. There was an accident at home, something happened, and he had to leave. Or, something happened to me. I even thought about whether he would be gone. But I never dreamed that he would disappear so suddenly and without a trace. And for such a long time. I was afraid that he would disappear for a lifetime, and I was afraid that he would disappear suddenly Appearing. I am afraid that he will be unlucky now, and I am afraid that he will be happy now. I often think, otherwise, he will never show up for the rest of his life, but I really miss him. Also, I hate him. When I first started, I kept thinking about whether I had done something wrong, and after thinking about it, I found that my existence seemed to be a problem."

"Su Nan!" Xu Linlin looked at Su Nan whose eyes were red.

"I'm really working hard to live." Su Nan lowered her head with flushed eyes and unstoppable tears.

Crying for the self who was suddenly abandoned, crying for the unbelievable self, crying for the world from which he could not escape.

"I know, I know everything." Xu Linlin stretched out his hand to hold Su Nan, "You have done a good job."

"I also know that since the matter has already happened, it's useless to say more, and we can only change it forward." Su Nan raised her head, "But, I can't get through it. But I have to get through it."

"Okay. Then let's change the future." Xu Linlin stood up and hugged Su Nan who was crying. "It's okay, we live first, and only by living can we have hope."

Xu Linlin patted Su Nan on the back lightly, looked up and looked outside.

For the first time, she suddenly had a fear of the future.

The light of spring passes through the thin clouds and falls on the small balcony. Every piece of clothing and objects is endowed with life-like splendor. The sunlight turns into bunches of golden light from the gaps and shuttles among them, full of hope.

But at this moment, the light produced by the Tyndall effect only brought desolation to people.

The shining of the light, the dimness of the lamp.

It seems that at this moment, everything is like a joke.

And Guang stood on the high ground and stood in the distance, laughing at their incompetence.

Su Nan silently washed the dishes.

Xu Linlin had already gone to school, and she was the only one left at home.

Gather up all the trash and get ready to go down and dump it.

Wearing slippers and going downstairs, kicking and kicking, the neighborhood is very quiet, so quiet that Su Nan suspects that there is no one at all.

After throwing out the garbage, I went to buy some things, and then I was going to go back, and I planned to get a good night's sleep when I went back.

so tired.

As soon as I stepped out of the elevator, I saw a bag of strawberries and a note at the door.

Su Nan frowned and looked around, but there was no one.

He entered the house with his things and quickly locked them.

Sitting on the ground against the sofa, put the strawberries aside, and opened the note.

Sure enough, it was him, and even the font was still the same font.

楠：
I'm sorry I know you don't want to see me or know about me

but this time for the last time

You don't have to hide from me anymore
don't be afraid anymore

I'm going to go abroad, the school has cooperation with there
I'm on the list

At least for the next five years, there is a high probability that we will not meet again
Hope your life doesn't get worse because of me
Sorry

After reading it, Su Nan crumpled the ball of paper and threw it into the trash can.

It's better to go.

Su Nan smiled.

Leaning on the couch and looking up at the ceiling.

Tears rolled down his cheeks.

It felt like something had dropped in my heart.

Is this good news?
That's right.

Really tired, Su Nan lay down on the sofa, curled up and hugged herself.

Then take a short break.

Take a break.

The exhaustion of the day reached its peak at this moment.

"Sleep well, life must go on."

Su Nan turned to look at the hero sitting beside her.

"Life. Live." Su Nan sighed.

"I didn't starve to death, what are you afraid of." The hero looked at Su Nan with a smile.

"Yes, I won't starve to death, what are you afraid of." Su Nan also looked at the hero with a smile.

"You have to know that you won't drown if you fall into the water, you can only stay in the water." The hero stroked Su Nan's messy hair.

"Then, what am I doing now?" Su Nan sighed, "Is it half dead or not?"

"Forget it, half of your body is soaked in the water." The hero looked at the bright sunshine outside the window.

"Don't you want to see this gentle sunshine every day?"

Su Nan stood up on the sofa and looked outside.

"Think about it." Su Nan looked enviously at the sparrow that had just stopped to rest on the balcony. "In the next life, I can't do this again, no, I don't want to have a next life."

"That's not necessarily true." The hero looked at Su Nan, "Su Nan, the world is actually not that bad. Why do everyone want to live well? Isn't it because they want to see the so-called beautiful world? You are doing it because The environment you are in is too bad, let's take it slowly. Step by step, to find the so-called beautiful world."

"I think so too." Su Nan looked at the calendar full of plans, "I haven't done anything today."

"If you feel tired, it's okay not to work hard." The hero turned his head to look at the tired Su Nan, "You have worked very hard, and I have seen it all this month. Let's not rush for success, take your time." Take it easy, it's okay."

Su Nan looked at the gentle hero.

She suddenly didn't know whether to thank herself or, thank you.
"Thank you, hero." Su Nan finally said, "Because of you, I survived many difficult days very well."

"Then you should thank yourself." The hero smiled helplessly.

Su Nan laughed too.

Before, when I was young, I always fantasized about having a friend that only I can see.

a different self.

Unexpectedly, such a day really happened.

But fortunately, the appearance of the hero really made her survive many unimaginable days smoothly.

She is also very grateful.

She is still alive.

To be alive is to have hope.

(End of this chapter)