departure tomorrow

Chapter 66 is the hope of hope
"Recently the situation is not bad, and the indicators have also improved. I will go for another examination today to see how it is. The medicine is almost adjusted. If the situation is good, I can be discharged from the hospital." The doctor looked at Su Nan's report a few days ago talking.

"Okay, okay, thank you doctor." Mom quickly thanked.

The doctor explained the treatment in the afternoon and left.

After the ward round was over, Su Nan didn't know what to do again. She looked at her mother who was playing with her mobile phone next to her, and sighed.

This place is no different from the previous hospitalization. Each person lives in one room, each living their own life without interfering with each other. Although every day is boring, Su Nan is actually more afraid of communicating with others.

Su Nan picked up the phone, but there was no message. Zhu Hao should be in class, Xu Linlin was in school, no one was chatting, and he didn't know what to do with the phone. One day, he was so bored that he didn't even know what to do with the phone.

"Mom, I'm going for a walk." Su Nan got up, "Then I'll go to the treatment later."

"Do you need me to accompany you?" Mom asked, poking her head.

"No need." Su Nan put on the mask and left.

In fact, to be honest, Su Nan didn't know what to do after she came out.

"Shall I walk with you?" The hero always appeared when Su Nan needed someone the most.

Su Nan smiled at the hero, "Okay, but I can't leave the hospital."

"Then let's go for a walk in the hospital." The hero also smiled at Su Nan.

"Let's go then." Su Nan tilted her head and smiled.

"Su Nan, how do you feel about yourself recently?" Daxia asked Su Nan as he walked.

"It's pretty good. I'm starting to want to live a normal life. I'm very active in taking medicine and treatment, but sometimes I'm quite broken. I'm quite troubled emotionally. I'm either excited or sad, and even have the urge to kill. Su Nan sighed, "I don't know what the future holds."

"The future? There is hope for the future, Su Nan, think about it, you have a family who takes care of you, Zhu Hao who loves you, friends who care about you, and a doctor who cares about you, hope to multiply every day. "The hero said.

"That's right, it's because of this that I'm even more sad. I have a good life, but I'm in a mess." Su Nan lowered her head.

"Su Nan, you have to look forward, not everyone's life is smooth sailing, and no one's life is smooth sailing at all, no one spends their life smoothly, you have to let yourself go, you know. The hero straightened Su Nan's head, "Look at this huge hospital, how many people are like you, you are not alone, you have to let yourself go, accept that you are not so perfect, and no one can be perfect. You know that?"

"I don't know why I don't want to heal in my heart. I just give up on myself and love to die every day. I feel that I live every day just because I will be sad after leaving my mother." This is the first time Su Nan opened her heart and said these words "Mom Didn’t you have an abortion before giving birth to me? I often think that it would be fine if I was the one who was aborted.”

"Su Nan, you have to think this way. When you were a little tadpole, you fought against hundreds of millions of lives. You were finally born. Are you willing to live like this?"

"I'm not reconciled, but it seems that I can only live like this." Su Nan said flatly.

"Others can do it, why can't you." The hero advised Su Nan.

"Okay, I actually understand the truth, but I just can't think about it." Su Nan smiled, "I know it all, thank you, hero, fortunately, you are always here."

"You should thank yourself." The hero shook his head, "Only you can save yourself, no one else can."

"I know, okay, you can accompany me to the treatment." Su Nan said with a smile.

Su Nan sat on the bench and waited, and the hero stood beside Su Nan.

"There are so many people who are sick." Su Nan couldn't help sighing.

"Yeah, it's your turn soon, I'll go first."

Before Su Nan could react, the hero disappeared.

"Su Nan." The doctor called.

"Here we come." Su Nan got up quickly.

Su Nan lay on the bed thinking about the conversation with the hero just now, and seemed to be relieved suddenly.

Life is very short, no matter when you die, it will definitely cease to exist after a hundred years, why torture yourself, Su Nan thought, if possible, Su Nan would definitely like to live a good life, but it is not ruled out There is an accident, if one day I really can't live anymore, Su Nan makes a wish, then it should be a happy departure, a kind of relief, not with regret and unwillingness.

Life is short, why live like this.

If possible, who would not want to live a good life, who would want to die? If possible, Su Nan would like to live a good life, but it feels impossible now, so let’s do it for now, don’t care what the future looks like, anyway It's all good now.

Every day should be full of hope, right?

Su Nan smiled.

That's it, whether it's life or death, just be happy.

The future should be full of hope, right?

It should be full of hope.

It is the hope of hope.

(End of this chapter)