departure tomorrow

Chapter 46 Integrate into this world
Su Nan was lying on the bed tossing and turning, no matter what position he used, he couldn't fall asleep. He had obviously taken medicine, but it didn't help anything except sleepiness, and his head was very uncomfortable.

I took out the thermometer and actually developed a fever again, thirty-eight degrees, got up and found antipyretics to swallow, and lay on the bed again trying to fall asleep.

But in the end it didn't work out.Turned on the phone and it showed half past ten. After lying down for a long time, an hour passed. Su Nan couldn't sleep anymore. She got up and opened the curtains. From time to time there was noise and car horns.

"Oh, can't you sleep?" The hero suddenly stood beside Su Nan.

Su Nan was no stranger to the hero who suddenly appeared, "Yeah, I can't sleep, it's so uncomfortable."

"Envy the noisy world outside?" The hero followed Su Nan's gaze.

"No, I'm just curious. It's so late, aren't they going home?" Su Nan looked at the lights in the distance, "I'm just a little curious."

"Not everyone will go home early. In the words of you young people, this is nightlife." The hero explained.

"I don't even have a nightlife." Su Nan murmured.

"You are still young, you will have it in the future, maybe you will miss the present day in the future." The hero said, "Really, people are always like this, they want what they don't have, and miss what they used to have."

"Wow, you understand well, hero." Su Nan looked up at the hero.

"I know it from your memory." The hero didn't look at Su Nan.

"Then I don't know." Su Nan pouted.

"Maybe it's stupid." The hero complained about Su Nan.

"Hey, I don't want to talk to you." Su Nan couldn't say that he was a hero.

"Go to the roof and have a look." Su Nan suggested.

"Go." The hero nodded.

Su Nan quietly pushed open the door to make sure that her mother was asleep, then went upstairs quietly, and tiptoed to the refrigerator to get drinks.

"I really envy you. You don't need to worry about anything every day, and you can go wherever you want." Su Nan looked at the leisurely hero with a little jealousy.

"I can only appear and move within the range of your side." The hero said lightly.

"Suddenly I'm not envious anymore." Su Nan pouted.

"Don't drink at night." The hero stared at Su Nan.

Su Nan panicked at the sight of the hero, "Okay, okay, go up." Then put the drink back.

Su Nan carefully climbed up to the roof and sat down, finally heaving a sigh of relief.

Su Nan looked at the brightly lit downtown a few kilometers away, a little puzzled, "Is this kind of life really happy?"

The hero sitting next to Su Nan asked Su Nan puzzled, "Why do you think they are happy?"

"Because I used to go home from self-study at night, and I often saw them playing outside at half past nine. Everyone had smiles on their faces, as if they were very happy." Su Nan said, "At that time, I , I am very eager to grow up, and feel that when I grow up, I will be as happy as them."

The hero laughed out loud, "You are eager to grow up and be independent now, but you may not think so when you grow up."

"Tch, everyone says that, so is it better to grow up or be a child?" Su Nan asked the hero.

"That depends on you, everyone is different." The hero sighed, "In fact, no matter what, I hope you can live well."

When Su Nan heard this, she suddenly stared in her heart, yes, just live well.

"Listen to music?" Su Nan turned to look at the hero under the night sky.

"Okay." The hero nodded, "Just as long as you like it."

Su Nan smiled, "Okay, then follow me."

Su Nan turned on the phone and started playing songs.

"A piece of fireflies... the whole galaxy... was captured by you... meteors also fell for you... what are you thinking... what are you thinking... you look at that flower... say you see some colors..."

The hero looked at Su Nan with a smile on his face, "It's Wang Yuan's song when you hear it, you like Wang Yuan very much, you are so happy listening to a song."

Su Nan nodded, "Chasing the stars...Wang Yuan's existence is like...in short, like an assistant. His existence makes me very warm. In some situations that I don't know what's wrong, he is just like..." my redemption."

Heroes don't understand "People who chase stars don't understand."

"This song is called Meteor Falling for You. Wang Yuan said that he hopes everyone's wishes will come true when the meteor passes by, but there are not always meteors, so I will give you a three-minute meteor to make a wish together. , Isn't such a person very valuable?" Su Nan said.

"How do you know what Wang Yuan said?" The hero became even more curious, "He didn't tell you either."

"I saw it in the comment section." Su Nan said seriously.

"..." The hero was speechless for a moment.

"This world is so lively." Su Nan looked at the busy city in the distance, "When this group of people go home, there will be another group, those who make breakfast, and then those who sweep the floor, those who study, and those who go to work, and slowly this The city becomes more lively, and then at night, it’s like this again and again, this city is always busy, it’s great, you’re never alone.”

"Why are you lamenting blindly, then you have been living in this busy world, even if you die, you will be buried in this world. Besides, you think the world is not tired." Daxia said do not understand.

"It's inexplicable, I'm tired every day. You said, when I was a teenager, I went from seven to nine, and when I became an adult, I went from nine to five, just one after another, busy, busy every day." Su Nan sighed.

"What are you thinking about every day?" The hero didn't know how to reply to Su Nan, "This is life."

"Maybe it's really like what my mother said, I'm just free every day, thinking about this and that, that's why I am like this." Su Nan thought for a while, "I have to find something for myself to do. If I get busy, I may It won’t be what it is now.”

"What do you want?" The hero looked at Su Nan.

"Look for a job, find a job, paint again, write novels, and pursue dramas. Anyway, it's just enriching, and I can't continue to be decadent like this." Su Nan said enthusiastically.

"Okay, okay, don't get excited, I have to go back to sleep later." The hero looked at Su Nan so excited that he was about to stand up and quickly stopped him.

"We must integrate into this world!" Su Nan said angrily.

The hero looked at the flushed Su Nan, "Have you lost your mind?"

Su Nan gave the hero a blank look, "Fuck you!"

"You don't study anymore?" The hero looked at the righteous Su Nan.

"Study, I want to, but I don't seem to be suitable." Su Nan lowered her head, "If it is possible, who doesn't want to get good grades, who doesn't want to be someone else's child."

"Work hard, just try your best, you don't care, this is your own life, you don't need to prove it to others, as long as you are good, just do what you like." The hero encouraged Su Nan.

"But I don't know what I like at all, painting, writing, photography, history?" Su Nan asked herself.

"Take your time, you are still young, and you still have a lot of time." The hero looked at Su Nan, "Live as you like."

Su Nan looked at the hero with a sincere face, "Yes, I hope too."

"Then start tomorrow, start by discovering what you like." The hero encouraged Su Nan.

"Others can do it, why can't you, you are not bad." The hero said, "Come on, little Su Nan."

Su Nan looked at the hero with a smile, "Thank you, hero, I understand."

After finishing speaking, I will go down.

"What are you going to do?" The hero looked at Su Nan lying there like a crab, struggling to reach the ground.

"Go back to the room and make a plan. Besides, the wind blowing from above gave me a headache." Su Nan climbed down the roof with difficulty.

"Slow down, oops, miss." The hero wanted to reach out to help, but suddenly remembered something and quickly withdrew the hand he just extended.

"Hurry up and keep up." Su Nan shouted to Daxia as he climbed down.

Su Nan stood on tiptoe and returned to the room cautiously.

"Huh, it's okay." Su Nan patted his chest.

Su Nan turned on the light, picked up a piece of paper and began to paint and draw.

The hero looked at Su Nan with a serious face, "Tsk tsk tsk, think about it."

"Shut up." Su Nan didn't want to pay attention to the hero.

The hero leaned over his head, "Wang Yuan's daughter-in-law's plan to integrate into the world? You're so mentally retarded. Why don't you do it at what time? You can talk about it after you get up first. Besides, what's wrong with being out of tune with this world? That's called having a personality. It's exactly the same." Robot."

Su Nan said seriously, "But I am like this because I am so out of place. I always have to try it. And if you want to find something you like slowly, just try it one by one, try it."

"Okay, okay, let's see if you can do it." The hero shook his head and looked at Su Nan, "Oh."

"Sigh!" Su Nan turned her head sharply, "Hiss..."

"What's the matter? What's the matter?" The hero looked at Su Nan who was clutching his neck and asked nervously.

"Maybe it's too fast... oh, it's uncomfortable." Su Nan didn't react for a while.

"Go to sleep, don't worry about it." The hero was very helpless.

"Forget it, let's do it tomorrow." Su Nan didn't know why, she got into bed and fell asleep immediately.

The hero looked at Su Nan who was sleeping in seconds and shook his head, "Wonderful, I just said I couldn't sleep, but now I'm sleeping in seconds."

At this time, Su Nan's mother came in to see that the lights were on, she went straight through the hero, made sure that Su Nan was asleep, turned off the lights and went out.

"It's good luck, I was caught a little later." The hero looked at Su Nan and disappeared with a wave of his hand.

It may be because of the high spirits before going to bed. Su Nan dreamed that she grew up to be a painter. It is not the kind of one who is famous only after death. Of course, it is not the top of the world.

I paint every day when I think about it, go out to travel and take pictures when I don’t want to, and write novels. Even if no one reads it, I have been insisting on recording it. I have gradually accumulated a few fans. I am free from illness and disaster, and I live a very happy life alone. happiness.

Although Su Nan in the dream is still alone, she has integrated into the world well, and the world has accepted her well.

She is very happy.

(End of this chapter)