departure tomorrow

Chapter 30

"I'll give you five days..." An ethereal voice sounded around Su Nan, "I'm merciful..."

Su Nan opened her eyes and saw the hero sitting on the head of her bed. Seeing that she was awake, she clicked her tongue twice, "You're so stupid, you actually agreed."

Su Nan was a little overwhelmed, his thoughts wandered for a while, and then he remembered the matter of agreeing to that person.

"She gave me five days anyway..." Su Nan said stupidly.

"But you don't exist anymore!" Daxia was a little annoyed.

"But she was suppressed and even disappeared, and you are gone!" Su Nan was inexplicably angry.

The hero didn't react right away.

"If I'm not here, I won't be here... I was you in the first place."

"You really don't have anything to commemorate?" The hero drove Erlang's legs, "Go and find a doctor, otherwise, oh, you really will disappear." After speaking, the hero disappeared into the ward by himself.

"Su Nan! Don't go to the doctor!" There was an inexplicable voice in my ear, I don't know if it was true or not, Su Nan looked around, but there was nothing.

Su Nan got out of bed in a groggy state. She went to sleep when she had nothing to do these few days. She was so confused that she didn't know anything at all. Even the frequency of auditory hallucinations was high...

"I told you not to go to Su Nan!" The voice was suddenly harsh, and there was obvious fear in the voice.

Su Nan ignored it, and she didn't have the strength to bother.

Su Nan held on to the handrail all the way to the office, and a lot of doctors gathered around for a meeting.

Su Nan shook her head, forget it, seeing that they are frowning, they must be doing something big, something big is about to happen...

"No hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha" the voice sounded again.
Su Nan shook her head, trying to block out the sound.

"Useless Su Nan." The voice gradually faded...

Su Nan sat on the bed and thought about those things. They were just her own dreams and hallucinations. What does it matter.

"Hey! Su Nan!" Zhu Hao suddenly threw himself on Su Nan's bed, "Don't stay on the bed, every day, your limbs are softening."

Su Nan stared blankly at Zhu Hao, and the hero asked himself if he had any souvenirs. There are so many people who love her. Su Nan looked at Zhu Hao who was not serious at this moment, this is it...

But these loves put a heavy burden on Su Nan instead, worrying about being sorry for them, afraid of failing their expectations, afraid of...
So that Su Nan is actually not afraid of death, but the grief of those who love her after death. She is afraid.
"What's wrong? Are you in a bad mood?" Zhu Hao shook Su Nan's hand, "Go, Jiang Ziwen is not here, let's go play with Xu Qiyi!"

Su Nan shook her head, "I don't want to do anything."

"What's wrong..." Zhu Hao was at a loss.

"Zhu Hao." Su Nan looked up at Zhu Hao who was holding her hand.

Zhu Hao knelt down and looked up at Su Nan, "What's wrong?"

"Do you have anything to keep in mind?" Su Nan asked Zhu Hao seriously.

"Sure, and there are many, so I am now fighting against the disease." Zhu Hao pulled Su Nan and hoped that she would be happier.

"I don't have anything to keep in mind." Su Nan didn't know why she said such words.

Zhu Hao couldn't take it easy for Su Nan's words, "Maybe. It's only temporary,...you are sick now."

Su Nan suddenly started to cry, "I don't know. I don't know what's going on... Even though I'm very happy, I'm still like this. I figured it out today, but I can't do it tomorrow... I can't hold on..." Su Nan didn't know how to tell Zhu Hao expressed this matter.

Zhu Hao hugged Su Nan, "It's okay, Su Nan, aren't we already in the hospital? If there is a problem, we can solve it, okay?"

At this moment, Su Nan collapsed or collapsed, screaming silently, it seems that it is better to let her replace herself, who would like her like this, and she herself is very tired...

Su Nan gradually slowed down, looking at Zhu Hao who looked worried, feeling a little guilty.

So I told Zhu Hao about the dream.

Zhu Hao frowned and thought for a while, "Other people with split personalities are actually people with two personalities. No way, one of you is in a dream, and the other is in real life." Zhu Hao scratched his head, but he really couldn't explain it. "Dream The person in the book is yourself, you can control yourself. Replacing this statement is just a memory reset."

Su Nan thought about it for a while, but it made sense but felt strange, "But what I said was very real, and my hallucinations, auditory hallucinations and my dreams can be connected into one thing."

Zhu Hao laughed at Su Nan, "Aren't you talking nonsense. Whether it's your hallucinations, your auditory hallucinations, or your dreams, it's all about you."

Su Nan suddenly realized, "That means he can't replace me."

Zhu Hao frowned, "I'm not a doctor, so I don't know about this kind of thing. I don't know about bidirectional personality. But I don't know about the dream."
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Su Nan laughed at Zhu Hao, "Why are you nervous? You keep repeating things. I'm not a doctor. I have my own discretion in this matter."

Zhu Hao ignored Su Nan's ridicule, "What is your sense of propriety? If this is true, you will definitely be replaced, and no one will know, and then you will disappear without a trace in this world." Even I can't find it."

Su Nan didn't believe that "if a person changes suddenly, no one will doubt it."

Zhu Hao smiled, "If the personality in your dream really exists, then he will definitely use his consciousness to cause you a serious illness, and after waking up, you will be another Su Nan." Zhu Hao sighed, "No Do so many people have a big change in personality after a serious illness, and I don’t know if it’s a replacement of personality, or a real rebirth, anyway, neither of these is good, because it means that the former self has died.”

Su Nan listened to Zhu Hao's explanation and tilted her head to look at Zhu Hao, "I will be seriously ill one day in the future. I have everything, the memories of the past, but they are different. Will you still believe me?"

Zhu Hao was a little embarrassed, "Because, you are both you and not you, you have all the memories, but your behavior is not like you anymore. It is impossible to judge."

Su Nan shook her head, "You speak. It's getting more and more profound. Do I have to doubt whether you are real?"

Zhu Hao sighed, "I realized that you are getting more and more stupid, so I should suspect that you were replaced by someone else."

Su Nan was a little surprised, "If it's really replaced, it won't get worse."

Zhu Hao gave Su Nan a blank look and went out the door without paying attention.

Su Nan looked at the one who walked out the door, and he didn't know if it was Su Nan's souvenir, but if they wanted to separate, they would definitely be reluctant.But as far as family is concerned, the most reluctant ones are naturally parents.

"Your condition has become more and more serious recently, and I appear more and more frequently." The hero suddenly appeared.

Su Nan was taken aback, "Is there something wrong?"

The hero was a little helpless, "It is because you need me in your heart that I will appear."

Su Nan thought for a while, he didn't need a hero.

The hero sighed, "I have thought about things that cannot be replaced, and things to remember."

Su Nan was helpless.I'm still thinking about the replacement, but I've already promised her, and I don't know what to do about the commemoration.

"Don't you have anything you want to do? Bungee jumping, riding a roller coaster, going shopping in the park. Do what a woman would do." Da Xia explained on the side.

Su Nan looked at the hero blankly, "We can only stay in the hospital without moving, or go to the sun room to see the sun."

The hero shook his head, "Forget it, it's your life, so I won't interfere too much. When he comes, I'll leave first."

Su Nan turned her head, it was Zhu Hao.

"Why are you here again? Didn't you just leave just now?" Su Nan asked Zhu Hao.

Zhu Hao came over with the backgammon, "Didn't you have no treatment in the afternoon. Let's pass the time."

Su Nan didn't want to play backgammon.Push away Zhu Hao, "You can play with whoever you like, don't disturb me today, I have something to do."

Zhu Hao left the room with a puzzled backgammon.

In fact, Su Nan doesn't know, what should he do after he drives away.

"Su Nan! Your courier!" The hospital courier uncle walked in and called his name.

Su Nan said thank you and saw that it was from my sister.

Ah, the oils and woods that aid sleep.

Speaking of my sister, this sister also loves Su Nan badly and is very worried about her.He also studied bipolar disorder just for her, bought books, and often made videos with Su Nan.I want Su Nan to be happy.

Su Nan has always liked this sister very much.If you say a souvenir.I can't bear to part with her.

Su Nan sighed, there are many things she can't bear to part with, and there is still a lot to love in this world, but why can't I live on.

Souvenir?five days?For Su Nan, five days is not enough if she really wants to say goodbye.

At first, it was to stop the drug.

First of all, wear the best dress for your best friend, give her the grandest gift, take her to the place she wants to go most, watch a movie with her, drink beer without getting drunk, talk freely Life, then wake up and write a letter to her, tell her everything, entrust her to a reliable person to take care of, and leave the last group photo.

Then for life, clean up the place where you live, especially the study room and bedroom, buy what you want, and discard what you don’t want, make it like a fairy living place, make yourself feel comfortable, and live for the last time.

Be a good girl in the eyes of parents once, be obedient, study hard, don't be restless, listen to them carefully, do things for them obediently, go out with them once, go shopping once, let them be proud once, and feel at ease once.

Relatives and friends gathered together and took a last look at their appearance. They are cheerful, lively, happy, kind, difficult, and difficult. All kinds of relatives are united here, and take a photo with me at the end.

Then finally quietly close the door on a sunny day to welcome death, which is the grandest farewell she knows.

In this farewell, all souvenirs are not a problem.

In this farewell, all the souvenirs are easily resolved.

I am self-sufficient in flowers and tenderness.

No need to commemorate anything or things.

Su Nan understood that she had no hope of living anymore, and all her reactions were preparing for the end.

No disappointment, no concern, no touch, no disappointment, an ordinary life, no surprises or accidents, only Su Nan who was born to die.

The fragile Su Nan.Su Nan, who didn't have any souvenirs.

No one can make Su Nan better, not anyone.

Because Su Nan didn't want to be good.

(End of this chapter)