departure tomorrow

Chapter 17 Su Nan's Little Emotions
"Su Nan, is there something wrong with you?" Jiang Ziwen looked at Su Nan and didn't know what to say.

Su Nan doesn't know why, but she just likes this casserole very much, and then she collected five people's casserole, and put it on the bed to enjoy after heating?

"You don't understand a girl's sense of ritual! Such a cute casserole, after it's cooked, put things in it, and then arrange it for a photo, isn't it full of ritual sense?" Su Nan argued excitedly.

Zhu Hao leaned against the door and watched all this happen, sighed, he had already normalized Su Nan's weird thoughts and things, if he didn't do this, he wouldn't be Su Nan.

"Put it away and take it home." Su Nan carefully put it in the suitcase like a treasure.

Su Nan arranged the casserole one by one, and took out her mobile phone to take pictures as souvenirs.

Jiang Ziwen looked even more speechless, "I'm convinced, who did you see taking pictures of the casserole? Is there something wrong with you?"

Su Nan was unconvinced, "What's wrong? No way? Besides, why would I come here if I have nothing wrong with you? You speak strangely."

Jiang Ziwen didn't know what to say, so he shook his head to express his helplessness.

"Why bring so much back home? Can't you buy them over there?" Jiang Ziwen still didn't understand Su Nan's sand sculpture behavior.

"The meaning is different!" Su Nan ignored Jiang Ziwen tossing these casserole by himself.

"Sister, please let these casserole go." Zhu Hao couldn't stand it any longer. "It's just a few casseroles. I fiddled with them. If the casserole could talk, I would have scolded you a long time ago."

"You can just talk about it, my casserole is so cute." Su Nan countered Zhu Hao.

"Don't disgust me, thank you, I don't know what to do with the casserole." Zhu Hao stood by the door, "Honey, I haven't packed it yet."

"You have to put it slowly and carefully, you know what the hell, otherwise it will be broken when you take it home." Su Nan put it away one by one.

Zhu Hao shook his head and didn't know what to say.

"Is it okay, big sister, it's biofeedback." Zhu Hao urged Su Nan.

"Wait for me to get down for a while, get down for a while."

"Hey, poor thing, you still need biofeedback, but I don't need it." Jiang Ziwen lay on the bed and looked at them.

"You go, are you going to do transcranial stimulation with sister Xu later?" Zhu Hao checked the time, it was [-]:[-], and couldn't wait any longer, so he picked up Su Nan and left.

"Hey, please help me close the lid of the suitcase!" Su Nan was being dragged away, while shouting to Jiang Ziwen who was sitting on the bed.

"Hey, what are you in a hurry for?" Su Nan asked Zhu Hao who was walking beside him while walking quickly.

"See what time is it?" Zhu Hao picked up the watch on his wrist and showed it to Su Nan.

"Ah, it's half past two." Su Nan finally knew why Zhu Hao was in such a hurry.

Su Nan stopped walking suddenly.

Zhu Hao walked and found that there was no one around, and turned to look at Su Nan who was standing there, "What are you doing?"

"I don't want to go, you go." Su Nan suddenly became irritable.

"What's the matter?" Zhu Hao was a little overwhelmed by Su Nan's sudden impatience.

Zhu Hao walked back and pulled Su Nan, "What's the matter?"

Su Nan looked at Zhu Hao, who was worried and questioned himself, and became more restless, and suppressed his irritability and said, "It's okay, it's okay, you can go." She pushed Zhu Hao forward.

"You go, I'm going back." Su Nan let go of Zhu Hao and turned around to leave.

Zhu Hao looked at Su Nan who left and didn't know what to do. Wasn't she fine just now...

Su Nan stood in the corridor and didn't want to go back to the room. Seeing Jiang Ziwen in this state, he must care about himself and ask questions, and his mother would also worry. In my heart, Su Nan really didn't know what to do...

Su Nan looked at the doctor's lounge next to him, checked that no one was there, went in and closed the door, squatted down and hugged his head, it was really annoying!Su Nan didn't know what was bothering her, but once she got upset, she would have an emotion, an emotion of wanting to destroy the world, wanting to hurt herself, to smash herself...

"collapse"

Su Nan slammed her fist against the wall, "It's so annoying..." Su Nan buried her head and burst into tears.

"collapse!"

The punch was even louder, and the hand swelled up all of a sudden...

But this didn't eliminate the irritability in Su Nan's heart, but made her even more chaotic, irritability, sadness, and desire to destroy all flooded her heart, making Su Nan helpless.

"It's so annoying!" Su Nan scratched her head, "It's so annoying... woooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo" Su Nan didn't know how to control himself.

"Crash!" Another cry.

"Crash!" Su Nan's hands were already swollen badly after knocking on the wall again and again.

Su Nan grabbed his arm vigorously with his hands, and the scratches gradually leaked blood.

"Su Nan Su Nan? Are you in there?" The nurse knocked on the door outside.

"If there is something, let's come out and say it's okay, don't hurt yourself." The nurse was a little afraid that Su Nan could not do something well.

Seeing that Su Nan ignored her, the nurse forcibly opened the door and saw her squatting on the ground grabbing her hair and didn't know what to say.

"Su Nan, tell my sister if something happened?" The nurse gently squatted down and gently removed Su Nan's hand holding her hair.

"Let's calm down first, shall we?" The nurse comforted Su Nan.

"I don't know what's wrong." Su Nan choked up and said, "Suddenly I was so powerless and irritable, I couldn't control myself." Su Nan scratched her head again, "I feel so strange and excited, Very irritable and sad, so powerless, so confused, I don't know what to do..."

"Don't blame yourself, I know, you're sick, it's okay, if we get sick, then we should take medicine, right, let's not do things that hurt ourselves, let's let our own head go, okay?" The nurse wanted to put Su Nan put his hand down.

"No, no." Su Nan resisted all over her body.

"Okay, okay, don't move you, let's take it easy, shall we?" The nurse didn't know what to do.

Su Nan lowered her head and wept.

"It's okay, it's okay, we're all here, can I help you find a doctor?" The nurse gently tried to help Su Nan up.

Su Nan got up slowly, she only felt dizzy.
Su Nan was slowly helped out of the doctor's lounge by the nurse. Zhu Hao stood at the door worriedly. Looking at Zhu Hao, Su Nan understood that he must have called the nurse, and he knew there was nothing he could do.

Su Nan lowered her head and walked into the office without looking at Zhu Hao.

doctor's office.

"What's the matter? I heard you're in a bad mood again?" The doctor asked Su Nan who had regained his composure but was still silent.

"It's just inexplicable again, irritable, want to cry, strong desire to destroy..." Su Nan didn't want to speak at all.

"Then give you some medicine first, and then have a look. If it doesn't work, you can get an injection." The doctor looked at Su Nan.

"That's not good, that's not good. The last time I saw Jiang Ziwen give her an injection, she was so scary, and she told me that it hurt for several days." Su Nan shook her head.

"Then what should you do if your mood is unstable? If the medicine doesn't work, you can only get an injection. Otherwise, what should you do?"

"I don't know, just let me vent myself." Su Nan resisted.

"That can't let you vent by yourself, you will hurt yourself if you vent by yourself." The doctor fiddled with Su Nan's file and wanted to add medicine.

"I can do it." Su Nan said confidently.

"Then what was your venting behavior just now?" The doctor asked Su Nan back.

"That was a reasonable vent just now, and I just smashed the wall." Su Nan felt a little guilty.

"That's what you call venting rationally. If the wall wasn't harder, the wall would be broken. Look at your hands."

Su Nan looked down at her swollen hands.

"Does it hurt?" the doctor asked Su Nan.

"It must hurt..." Su Nan felt like crying.

"That's right, you must not be allowed to do things that hurt yourself, so you have to take medicine, and if the medicine doesn't work, you have to get an injection." The doctor explained.

"Then I'll take the medicine..." Su Nan looked down at her hands.

"Then what if the medicine doesn't help?" The doctor asked back.

"It would be nice if I could vent myself..." Su Nan said in a low voice.

"But the problem now is that you can't show it."

"Then take the medicine first, then talk..." Su Nan didn't want to get an injection at all.

"Okay, you know your own problems, come to me if you have any problems, and go to the nurse to get the medicine first." The doctor made a list.

"it is good"

"Then go get the medicine first..." The doctor patted Su Nan.

Su Nan sat on the bed in a daze after drinking the medicine, and her mother sat aside and looked at Su Nan worriedly.

Jiang Ziwen also looked at Su Nan who was silent, he didn't even watch his favorite TV series, but he didn't dare to speak, for fear of irritating Su Nan accidentally.

Qi Yuan also looked at Su Nan with salt water hanging on her face, without saying a word.

The atmosphere in the ward was extremely cold.

Su Nan couldn't take it anymore, but she didn't know how to speak, so she turned and went into the toilet.

Su Nan sat on the toilet and didn't know what to do. She suddenly felt that life was meaningless. It seemed that she hadn't accomplished anything, and everything was a mess, but she still thought she was very good, so she lied to herself ...deceiving myself...until real life slaps her in the face and tells her you suck...

Su Nan covered her face and didn't know what to do... It would be fine if she was an orphan... It would be fine if her parents didn't love her... It would be fine... everything would be simple...

Su Nan's mother was worried about what Su Nan was doing in the toilet for so long and didn't come out, so she came to knock on the door, "Is Nan Nan okay?"

Su Nan flushed her face with water and calmed down, yes, she has to face the reality, she still has her parents, no matter what, she has to live for her parents
Hope, hope, I can get better.
Su Nan opened the door and looked at her mother, and forced a smile, "I'm fine."

Su Nan bypassed her mother and lay on the bed. She didn't want to do anything. She didn't want to go to the treatment either. That's it.
It may be because of the medicine just taken, Su Nan is in a daze, or just sleep like this... It is best not to wake up forever
(End of this chapter)