The story of a cook

Chapter 5 Water case
It is very lucky for me to be able to continue to work in Shengmei. A child who works outside the country does not have high requirements. He has a stable job, can pay wages on time, and at the same time can learn crafts, which is already very satisfying. up.

All of these are inseparable from the benefits of my work, not hiding traitors and playing tricks, and not afraid of hardships and burdens.And all this stems from the influence of my mother since I was a child. From the day I can remember, my mother has never been young at all, with gray hair and a sad face, working in silence all day long, and when danger comes, my mother has never been young at all. asylum.He has inherited his mother's hard-working genes and stubborn character very well. He can live in poverty, but he has to live strong.

In the blink of an eye, it's September, the weather is not so hot, and the wind blows on my body to make me feel cool.

I called Sister Wang, she is fine now, and she is still working at Wuai Market, she said that Yingzi's place is also fine, so I went to see her once.Although there was Yingzi's contact information, it was her boss's call, she didn't want to call, and wanted to have a look at it when she had time.

I miss Yingzi very much, and unknowingly regard her as a relative and a younger sister.To be precise, Yingzi is a girl she met while working abroad. They are all migrant workers. Their common destiny has come together, and the young people have become friends without too many barriers.Her innocence and well-behaved made a young man see the image of a little sister, and thus developed the psychology of caring and caring.

This kind of psychology is between a friend and a strange emotion. This kind of strange emotion is a vague cognition of the emotion between a man and a woman. I know clearly in my heart that she is not the lover I chose, but the liking actually exists. If there is a blood relationship, then she is his younger sister, and it is logical to care and miss her.

Knowing that Yingzi went out to work alone, her face would always appear before her eyes.I wonder if she is doing well now?Are you tired?What are you doing?Have you ever been bullied?
The thoughts in my heart are the worries that I can't let go of. She is too beautiful and has a charm that men can't resist.She doesn't know how she can make a man's heart flutter, but I am a man, and I know the lethality of that charm.

This kind of worry that can't let go is very torturous. She always thinks that if a man bullies her, she, a little girl, will not be able to resist and will definitely be bullied. Whenever she thinks that she is being bullied by a man, she feels uncomfortable and very angry. She wanted to beat up the person who bullied her, or even tear her to pieces.Knowing that this is just a worry, it is my own imagination, in fact nothing will happen, but I just can't let it go.

After knowing that Yingzi's brother was admitted to university and no longer got along with Sister Wang, he also understood the reason why Yingzi insisted on leaving Sister Wang.She felt that her brother was sorry for Sister Wang, and she even owed Sister Wang to herself. Working with Sister Wang had a kind of guilt and indescribable depression.Rather than leaving Sister Wang, it is better to say escape.

The greatness of Sister Wang's personality revealed her brother's insignificance. She began to look down on him, making him hypocritical, rebellious, and even inhuman.I wish I didn't have this brother, it would make me feel better.If I hadn't come out to work and hadn't seen how Sister Wang survived outside, I would have less resentment towards my brother. But since I went out to work with Sister Wang and experienced the working life, I realized the hardships and difficulties. So ashamed of my brother's actions.

She felt the pressure from her heart and desperately wanted to find a job, leave this sister she admired, and let herself breathe.

It's also embarrassing for this 19-year-old girl. She shouldn't pay for her brother's bastard, let alone she can't afford it.

The marriage between Sister Wang and Brother Yingzi is a tragedy for Sister Wang. A kind girl works outside silently for her sweetheart, longing for her sweet love.If Yingzi's brother didn't go to university and went out to work like her, she would never leave this man who had a baby kiss since she was a child, and would feel happy.

A rural girl who has graduated from junior high school and has traditional moral values. She is kind-hearted and simple. She doesn't think too much about other things.Sometimes I think, that is my man.Just holding this idea and the concepts that have been formed, she has not had the idea of ​​dating other men during her five-year working life. She feels that she is a woman with a man and cannot gossip outside—even though she is not married yet.

She used to be proud of Yingzi's brother's diligence and studious, and hoped that her future man could be admitted to university and become a college student that everyone envied, and even dreamed of one day walking into the marriage hall with this college student——
She can do anything for her man, and she can use the money she earns from working to send her man to college.

However, even if she didn't expect it, what she had thought of a long time ago happened naturally. When Yingzi's brother got the admission letter from the university he had dreamed of, he proposed to break up with her.

She accepted it calmly.In fact, she has been waiting for this day. When this boy who was defaulted to be her man shortly after he was born decided to review for another year and vowed to be admitted to university, she knew that when he was admitted to university, he would leave her. when.Although she knew it, this kind-hearted girl also had her own stubbornness and persistence. She wanted to see for herself whether such a thing could happen and whether it was true.

She gave this boy the purest feelings of her girlhood, and she worked hard for four years of her youth for her love. She has waited for four years, and this year is not bad.During the year of the boy's review, she lived peacefully and figured out everything, just quietly waiting for a result, an answer.

The pain and suffering in it are only known to her.

I feel worthless for the youth I spent for Sister Wang.

Thinking of Sister Wang, I couldn't help but think of the fellow woman I met in the small hotel in the labor market.She is different from Sister Wang, she is doing it for her younger brother, for his younger brother to go to college, she is earning money by being a young lady, using her youth, body, and even dignity to earn money, and then take this money to give to her younger brother. Tuition fees, living expenses, let my dear brother study in the university that the villagers envy.

Is this sister's youth worth it?For what it's worth, she has my respect.

I deeply understand how hard it is for a poor family to provide for a student, and the ridicule and stares I receive when I borrow money from others, if I don’t have a strong heart, I can’t bear it.

Sister Wang is a good woman. If you talk about a daughter-in-law, you can say that she is like Sister Wang. You can't go wrong.

Although, like Yingzi, she met people who were working outside and became friends.But the image of her older sister has long been fixed in her heart. In my feeling, she is no different from her older sister at home.

I don't have any unreasonable thoughts about her, and I feel that if I have bad thoughts about her, it is a kind of blasphemy-blasphemy to my sister.

Do you want to date someone?
Can you not want to?Which girl does not have a spring, which boy does not have a rabbit.No one would believe a 21-year-old guy if he said he didn't want to have a partner and beat him to death.I always fantasized that there is a girl who likes me, has a date with me, talks about a romantic love, and then spends the rest of my life with her to marry each other and have children.

Whenever he thinks of these beautiful things, the bandit will have a happy smile on his face.

21 years old, not only in the countryside, but also married.

My mother is over 60, so she needs someone to take care of her.How many sixties can a person live?Neither of them survived.My partner said that a daughter-in-law is the greatest wish of a mother in her lifetime.

My mother was so happy when someone said they would introduce me to someone, but when people said that the woman thought my family was poor and would not get along with me, my mother was deeply disappointed and sad, as well as complaining about herself.Even though my mother didn't say anything, I knew that she felt that she was useless as a mother, she didn't save much money, but there was a famine in her ass, and her son was 21 and still couldn't get a date, a mother was incompetent-
Afraid of seeing my mother’s gray eyes full of disappointment and self-blame again, I always shouted in my heart: Mom, it’s not your fault. Live a good life, don't worry anymore, I will definitely find you a filial daughter-in-law, so that you can live a good life and have a grandson.

Tears welled up in my eye sockets whenever I thought about it.

Know what you are looking for.First of all, it has nothing to do with appearance, as long as you are kind and kind, accept my poor and elderly mother, and be filial to my mother, it doesn't matter if you treat me well or not.I also know that people treat me badly and it is impossible to get along with me, but I didn't think so much.The reality does not allow to think so much.

Everyone likes a beautiful girl, including me, but beauty is not a meal. For a girl, being beautiful is a capital, and for me it is a capital.
Pressure, to be honest, I can't afford it.Girls nowadays are so glamorous, especially the prettier ones, they all hope to find a good family for themselves, where they can eat and drink well, and those like me are simply excluded from the three gates.

We don't do that useless work, we are looking for a partner, a daughter-in-law who is filial to his mother, someone who lives together and lives a lifetime of ups and downs.No matter how beautiful a woman is, after 50 to 40 years, she will still have goosebumps and white hair.Everyone gets old. Take the eldest sister as an example. When I can remember, the eldest sister is very young, but now she is [-] years old.And the mother does not have the impression of being young, but she is the most beautiful person in her heart.

When the criteria for choosing a mate are determined, beauty and beauty are no longer important.Poverty cannot limit a young man's imagination, but it definitely limits his choice of reality.If you don't have the experience and hardships that are not as good as life, you will let your thoughts run wild like many people of your age. But after experiencing the hardships of life and knowing the difficulties of life, and witnessing many things that happened, premature maturity The rationality that should not appear makes me look more like an adult when I look at things and deal with them, and I have an adult's thinking and way of thinking.

When I was young, I had the impulsiveness and passion of a young man, as well as calm thinking.

It has been seven months since I came out to work on the eighteenth day of the first lunar month. I started working as a loading and unloading worker, then went to do odd jobs in a noodle restaurant, and finally came here to do odd jobs. I have concluded that I want to work hard outside. To change poverty through hard work, to live a good life, and to be a daughter-in-law, it is not enough to rely on hard work, you have to have a skill.

At present, learning to cook is a way out, and I am already doing it.

After experiencing the last group of chefs, I almost had the idea of ​​not planning to learn.Now this group of chefs are good, especially Master Chen and Li Jianhan are very kind to me, they take the initiative to let me learn, and teach me, so they should calm down and study hard, and they must learn to be chefs.

Knowing that it takes several years to learn to cook, think about your current situation and analyze it carefully.Now there are only me and my mother in the family. My mother is 61 and in good health. She can cook, eat and take care of herself. What is missing is a daughter-in-law.Said that the daughter-in-law was not in a hurry beforehand, and let nature take its course.Of course, my mother is not at ease when she is at home, but this is the only way for the past two years. Let my sisters take care of me at home, please.

Earn money every month, and with the growth of skills, you will earn more and more. I send the money home every month to pay off part of the famine. The rest of my mother’s pocket money is also a good life for my mother at home.It is enviable for elderly people in rural areas to have ample pocket money, not to worry about food and drink, and to be in good health.

Don't think about what you need to do now, just focus on learning the craft.

Make a plan for yourself, go to work and work as usual every day, spend more time practicing knife skills and familiarizing with side dishes, and strive to be a water table after the New Year.If you can't work here, you can ask Master Chen to contact you for a criminal case and go out to do it.Next year, I will work in the water case for a year, try to visit two or three stores, learn more, and solidify my basic skills.In the next year, I guess I already knew a few friends at that time, and through my friends, I contacted a job as a cook, and I went to the stove to cook oil and water.

Work as a chef for a year, and then cook as a chef.

Calculated in this way, it is three years, and three years is fine, and it is nothing to work hard.I can still earn money in three years, and I can pay off the famine at home, and I can have some leftovers, so I can go to the seminary.

In the past three years, I have met a suitable person, but I must tell them our real situation. If the other party accepts it, I will stay with him. , besides, it is not too late for a daughter-in-law.Mother will wait anxiously, which is also impossible.

Once there are fewer thoughts, the energy will be concentrated, and when complicated things become simple, there will be more indifference and happiness.

【wayward fellow】

Western Liaoning is a poor area with mountainous terrain.The land is barren, mostly mountainous, and there is not much irrigated land.The common people living here rely on the sky for food from generation to generation, facing the loess and back to the sky, working hard and industriously.

The folk customs here are simple and kind, although they are poor, they are kind-hearted and hard-working.Men have the rough and heroic spirit of Northeast men, and women have the simplicity and pungentness of Northeast women, daring to love and hate.

One side raises one person.

Li Yanhua is beautiful, with the simplicity and hard work of Beipiao people, everyone likes her very much.I am nineteen this year, and I went out to work with her sister last year. Her sister came out early and has been working in a restaurant. She has been working as a waiter in a restaurant since she came out.

In the first half of the year, she and her sister worked in the city. Her sister was introduced to a hotel in Santaizi to work as a bar counter.After her sister came to Santaizi, she was worried that she would work alone in the city, and it happened that Sheng Mei was recruiting a waiter, so she introduced her.

The places where the two sisters work are closer to each other, so they can take care of each other.And the place where her sister lives is spacious, she doesn't live in the dormitory after get off work every day, but lives with her sister.

In Shengmei, we are authentic fellow villagers, and we cannot be adulterated.As the saying goes, when a fellow countryman sees a fellow countryman, his eyes are full of tears.Although not to that extent, but closer than others.In addition to being unfamiliar with each other in the first few days, we were guarded and tempted each other. As we worked together longer, the sense of superiority of the fellow villagers gradually emerged. In addition, they were all young people, or the opposite sex, and had common topics, which gradually became non-talking. Friends who don't talk.

She is very simple, has the simplicity of a rural girl, and at the same time has the breath of a city girl.Her home is next to Beipiao City, and she is more or less infected and influenced by the city, which is different from ordinary rural girls.

In a certain point, she is a bit similar to Yingzi, but there are also differences. For example, Yingzi has some charms and she does not have it. Yingzi is beautiful without makeup, and she is natural.She is just beautiful, not charming, more pure.But definitely a beauty.

She seldom speaks, but she is by no means a silent person. She will only open the chatterbox when she meets someone who is interested in her, and she will talk non-stop.She doesn't like to laugh at ordinary times, she feels a little cold, not easy to approach, very high-minded, with a maturity that doesn't match her age.A bit like Du Haiyan, but definitely not like Du Haiyan, she has no contempt in her eyes, she is polite to everyone, and no one can find fault.

After getting acquainted with me, she loves to chat with me, most of the time she is talking and I am listening.When chatting, she returned to the appearance of a 19-year-old girl, pure and cute, sometimes unruly and willful, playing the temper of the eldest lady.

She has never believed that I am 21, saying that I am at least 25, and stubbornly believes that I came out of a fight at home, and sometimes threatens to report me if I don't obey.

She giggled happily every time the subject came up.

She is very good at observing words and expressions, and doesn't provoke me when she sees that I am unhappy, she silently helps me wash the dishes, and beats around the bush to tease me why I am unhappy.After knowing the reason, I feel that I have completed an impossible task, and I have a smile on my face with a sense of accomplishment, and I am very happy about it.

"Brother Tan, you promise to like Xiaoyingzi, otherwise you wouldn't miss her so much." She said to me with wide eyes after knowing that I was depressed because of thinking about Yingzi.

I said, "Like it for sure, but not that kind of like."

"Liar, and besides, you know the kind of liking I'm talking about."

"I still don't know what you're thinking? Look at your monkey spirit."

"Don't describe me like that, you should say I'm smart."

Li Yanhua is indeed very smart, she knows everything.When she was in school, she studied very well and wanted to be admitted to a technical secondary school, but she failed the exam in the first year. After reviewing for a year, she fell short in the second year.Her parents asked her to study for another year, but she said she would stop studying and farmed at home, but her sister took her out to work.

"Brother Tan, I think you should go and see Xiaoyingzi, you are suffering, I feel sorry for you." She said, with a distressed expression on her face, she really wanted to experience the torment of thinking like me.

"If you have time, go and have a look." I said.

"I see that you are very affectionate."

"We Beipiao people are not all like this. We value affection. If someone treats you well, you have to give them ten."

She thought for a while and said: "This is not good, it is easy to be deceived, and I have to change it in the future."

"Born with bones and grown with flesh, how can it be changed? It will be like this for the rest of your life, and you can't change it."

"It can't be changed by hard change!"

She laughed.

Beautiful girls are always pursued. Li Jianhan likes Li Yanhua, and he told me more than once that he wanted me to talk to Li Yanhua and send him a message.But Li Yanhua doesn't like people like Li Jianhan, saying that he is not from the same way.When I asked her what she liked, she said she didn't know, she hadn't figured it out yet, and she could just follow her own mood.

Every day after get off work, she would go to her sister's place. Li Jianhan sent her off once, and then he stopped asking Li Jianhan to see her off. He would call me when I got off work, saying that I was safe.It's not that I'm safe, it's just that I look scary.

There are few customers today, and the front desk gets off work early, so she came to help me wash the dishes.Li Jianhan also came over, and she said to Li Jianhan very bluntly: "Brother Tan and I can come here without you."

Li Jianhan didn't say anything, just washed the dishes.

With the help of the two of them, they quickly cleaned the dishes. Li Jianhan, Master Chen, and the cold dish master went back to the dormitory, and I sent her to her sister's place.

When I got out of the hotel, I said to her: "It's better not to live with your sister, that's not good, we have room in the female dormitory, and it's convenient for a waiter to live."

"What's wrong with my sister? Why can't I live?" she asked.

I summed it up and said, "It's not bad, it's just that her restaurant is not good, and there is a lady—how should I put it, I just don't like it."

"Because of this, I know. I'm afraid I will learn bad things there, aren't you?" She asked directly.

"A little bit."

"Brother Tan, are you worried about me?"

"Yes."

She was very happy to hear that, and then asked, "Worry more about me, or more about Xiaoyingzi?"

"I'm worried." I said.

Obviously very dissatisfied with my answer, he said to me: "I think you are still more worried about Xiaoyingzi than me."

I laughed, and without answering she went straight ahead.Knowing her character, if this were answered she would ask many curious questions.

Seeing that I didn't speak, she was a little bit reconciled, so she took a few steps and asked, "Is Xiaoyingzi very beautiful?" After asking, she replied to herself in a serious manner: "It must be very beautiful, otherwise you can't always gossip about her."

"You haven't seen it again."

"Intuition, women's intuition is very good, you won't worry if you are not pretty."

"Does that mean you are more beautiful?"

"Hehe, brother Tan, you are so smart. Although this girl is not very beautiful, she can handle it well."

"Let me tell you that Yingzi and Sister Wang are the first friends I met when I came out to work. We got along very well. Now we are separated. I am worried about it. Yingzi is young and is the same age as you. I am afraid that she will be bullied outside. Do you know?" ?"I said.

She stopped in front of me, raised her face and asked expectantly: "Brother Tan, tell the truth, am I prettier or Xiaoyingzi is prettier?"

She stood too close, a little embarrassed, her breath was blowing on her face, and she blushed, embarrassed and uncomfortable in an instant.This scene is a bit like two people falling in love, but unfortunately it is not falling in love.

Rubbing her head with his hands, he said casually: "You are the most beautiful when you cry." After speaking, he walked around her and continued on.After walking a few steps, there was no movement.

Looking back, she was still standing there.

"Let's go."

She still didn't move.

Walking over to take a look, the little girl was so wronged that tears were falling one by one.Quickly say: "You are beautiful, you are beautiful."

She still didn't move, the tears continued to fall, and the pear blossoms were raining.

"If you don't leave, I'll call your sister." I threatened her.

"Call it, I'll tell you that you bully me when she comes."

I can't do anything about her, and anyone who wants to marry her as a wife will die if they say what they want.

"Just teasing you, okay, be obedient, and wipe it off quickly."

She took out a piece of tissue paper from her bag and wiped it. Without looking at me, she muttered, "I don't need you to deliver it from now on. I'll go by myself."

"Okay, I'll find you a flower protector tomorrow."

"No! Go by yourself, just go by yourself!"

After she finished speaking, she stomped her feet vigorously and walked forward angrily.He resented while walking, it must be that Xiaoyingzi is good-looking, he was embarrassed to say, if he is good-looking, he is good-looking, if he just says no, it is fine, how can I be angry?Annoyed people, and said that I am the most beautiful when I cry, then I will cry and see what you do.

She muttered in her heart like this, she couldn't help but glanced at me who was silent, and said in her heart, don't say it, he's okay, he's a good match for my sister, if he's not good, introduce him to my sister, let him be my brother-in-law .

Not only was she satisfied with her own idea, she also had a smile on her face.

I met her sister once, but I didn’t have a good impression. She was very good-looking, not as tall as her, and very plump. When I saw her sister, I thought of four words—big breasts and fat buttocks.

There is no trace of a rural girl in her sister, who has been completely urbanized, with heavy makeup, some dust, scarlet lips and dark eye circles, and she can't help but think of giant pandas in the zoo.It's a bit bad to say that, but there was indeed a giant panda in front of my eyes.

She is completely different from her sister. Although she also wears makeup, it is not too thick and very delicate.The proprietress said that she could do makeup, praised her as a delicate girl, and asked her to teach herself how to do makeup.

Soon he arrived at the door of his sister's restaurant, and when she was about to open the door to enter, he pulled her to him and took a closer look.

"See what?" she asked.

"See if the tears are wiped clean, it's all right, let's go in." I said

"You're afraid that my sister will find out that I'm crying and ask you to settle the score."

"What are you thinking?" I was a little worried about her IQ, "I'm afraid your sister will worry about you if she sees you crying."

"Humph!"

She realized that she was wrong, and a little unwilling, she stomped her foot hard and pushed the door open to go in.

【Eiko's Kiss】

Soon to October [-]st, the National Day is very busy these days, there are reserved seats every day, every day is full, and sometimes we have to overturn the table.

After the National Day, the aircraft factory began to conduct annual circuit inspections, including the Shengmei Hotel.I can't do business without electricity, the boss has a day off, so I decided to go see Yingzi.

Yingzi's place of work is in Tiexi, which is far away from Santaizi, and he had to reverse his car twice to get there.After getting off the bus, there is a street like Beisi Road, with small restaurants on both sides.After walking forward for a while, I saw "Chunhua Fast Food" on the left side of the road, and I thought this was it.

Yingzi was sitting in front of the table, and when she heard the sound of the door opening, she looked towards the door, and when she saw that it was my face, surprise first appeared on my face, followed by surprise, and then surprise on my face, rushing towards me like a little swallow Hugged tightly, and said in his mouth: "Brother, why are you here?"

He touched her head and said, "Come and see you."

"I didn't expect it to be you."

"Happy?"

She nodded excitedly, her little face was flushed with excitement, and she pulled me to sit down.

"Brother, are you quitting there?"

"No, we have a circuit inspection today, and we have a day off."

"Scared me, I thought you quit."

Looking around the room, the shop is not big, with six tables. There are three people sitting in front of the table near the kitchen, two women and one man. They are looking at Yingzi and me curiously. One of the women who looks like a boss smiles at me.

It's already one o'clock in the afternoon, after the meal time, there are no customers in the store.After chatting with Yingzi, she greeted the boss, the woman who laughed at me, saying that my brother is here and going out for dinner.

Coming out of the store, Yingzi happily put my arm on my arm and said, "Brother, I miss you so much."

"Aren't you here to see you?"

"I thought you forgot about me."

"How can it be."

Seeing her happy appearance, I thought it was right, and felt a little satisfied.Find a small restaurant nearby.Yingzi was very excited, and ordered his favorite boiled sliced ​​pork and pot-packed pork, as well as wine.

"You still go to work in the afternoon, so you can't drink." I said.

"Our store sells breakfast and closes at [-] pm, so we don't have to go to work."

"It's okay if you don't go to work, you can have a drink."

"It's very good here. There are only four people in the store, a boss, a chef, and a pastry, plus me, I am the waiter." She said: "My family sells fried buns. Many people eat breakfast in the morning, and there are also snacks at noon. There are not many guests, and after two o’clock in the afternoon, there will be no one.”

"The house is owned by the boss, and the bungalow behind is also owned by the boss. I live in the bungalow behind, and I live in my own house. The cook and the pastry are husband and wife, and they live in another house."

Yingzi introduced the situation here to me, and she didn't believe me to come to see her until now.She has been thinking about me, because in this strange city, besides Sister Wang, I am the closest person to her.She liked the days on Beisi Road. Once she was wronged, she felt unhappy, so she ran to me after get off work and vented to him. I looked at her with a smile like a big brother, and I was not angry.

Looking at Yingzi in front of him, there is a big change from the beginning of the year.The innocence on her body is still there, but there is an air of a city girl between her brows, which is faintly present but can be felt.Now she has painted her eyebrows, applied a little makeup, and put on a light red lip, which was not there two months ago.

A pink shirt set off her vigor, and blue jeans made her more slim. If she smiled again, it would undoubtedly be a huge temptation for men.

This kind of change in her body is common to many girls who just came out to work.While a city is changing the fate of migrant girls from the countryside, it is also polishing off their immaturity and simplicity, and becoming mature while being infected with the atmosphere of the city.

This is also the process that people have to go through in the process of growing up.Especially for children from the countryside, this is a transformation, from appearance to heart.Take me for example, I never pay attention to my appearance, but when I look in the mirror, I find that I have turned white and the skin on my hands is tender. When I first came out, my hands were full of calluses and the skin was dry and cracked.

These changes may not have been noticed by herself, and she felt nothing. If she appeared in front of her mother now, she would definitely say that she has changed.

Changes in appearance are inevitable, but the heart is also changing subtly.This change is the cognition of life and the planning of life, as well as some habits that are exposed outside.For a girl, if she doesn't come out to work, she may spend her adolescence safely at home, and then find her husband's family to marry under the arrangement of her parents, and spend her whole life in the countryside with her man.

Now that I have come out, the broadening of horizons and the growth of knowledge, the temptation of city life and the splendor of this world have stirred my restless heart, and I have begun to try my best to integrate myself into this city and become the envied city dweller. I don’t want to go back to that city again. Raise your own countryside.

This kind of change happens to the workers every day, and it is natural and inevitable.

Yingzi and the two of us were very happy, chatting happily, we both deliberately avoided the topic of Sister Wang and her brother, after all, that topic was very embarrassing.

She drank two bottles of beer, her little face was flushed, and she wanted to drink more, but she was not allowed to drink.

"It's okay, brother, I can drink five or six bottles. I'll have another bottle. I'm glad you came here today."

"Just one more bottle."

Seeing that she didn't seem to be drinking too much, I asked her to have another bottle.

I seldom drink beer. I always feel that beer is sour and unpalatable, not as pleasant as white wine.

My drinking capacity has been practiced since I was a child.When guests come to a rural home, someone needs to accompany them to drink some wine. The sisters are all girls and cannot sit there to accompany the wine.I'm the only man in my family, and I've been serving drinks since I was 13.I'm young and don't drink much, just for the sake of avoiding the embarrassment of the guests drinking alone and appearing ruthless.

As the saying goes, the Lord does not drink and the guest does not drink.

Wealthy customers tend to be more, but shabby ones rarely visit.

Poor relatives hide far away. There is no way to come over to see my mother during the New Year and holidays. They don’t come to the house on normal days.No one else came, cousin, second aunt, distant uncle, elder brother or something.The amount of alcohol that comes and goes is practiced, it is very large, and I rarely drink too much.

It was three o'clock when I came out of the restaurant after eating with Yingzi. The meal was very long, and Yingzi was chattering throughout the meal, starting from when she was in junior high school and continuing until now.She talked about how naughty she was at home, how she fought with boys, even about her puppy love without reservation, and giggled when she was happy.It seemed that she was so suffocated that she didn't even have anyone to chat with.

Yingzi took me to the place where she lived, and told me to take a look, so as not to worry about it in the future.

The room is ok, [-] square meters, quite spacious for one person.Looking at her room, I can't help but sigh with emotion, thinking of the scene of sleeping on a stool on Beisi Road, it was really hard at that time.Now she has her own independent room, and I also live in the dormitory, which is very different.

The girl's room is different, it is clean, and there is a fragrance.

"Brother, are you tired? If you are tired, lie down on the bed for a while." Yingzi said.

"I'm not tired, just sit for a while, and I have to go back later." I said.

"I know you're going back, sit for a while before leaving."

Sitting on the stool beside the bed, there is a small table next to the stool, with cosmetics on it, and two books, which I took from me.

Picking up a book and flipping through it, he asked, "Haven't you finished reading it yet?"

"After reading it, I don't have any other books. I read it before going to bed, and I fell asleep after reading it."

After she finished speaking, she took out a photo album and handed it to me, "Brother, look at my photo album, hee hee, I'm too drunk, I'll go to the bathroom first." After finishing speaking, she walked out, it seems that she was drinking beer.

Looking through the album, most of them are single photos of Yingzi, and some group photos, some with Sister Wang, some with her classmates, and a few photos of me and Sister Wang.

After a while, Yingzi came back, chatted with her for a while, and saw that the time was almost four o'clock, so I could talk back to her.

"Sit down a little longer, brother." She was a little bit reluctant for me to leave.

I stood up and said, "I'm going back, I'll see you again when I have time."

"Wait a minute."

She took a step towards me, looked up at me and said, "Brother, give me a hug."

I was stunned by one sentence, and I didn't recover from it for a long time.

Seeing that I didn't move, she pulled my clothes and whispered, "I'll let you hug me."

"Okay." Relieved, he stretched out his hand and gave him a symbolic hug.

"No, hug me well, you are fooling people."

Yingzi was very dissatisfied with my perfunctory.

Looking at her expectant eyes, I couldn't bear it, and at the same time, a strange feeling gradually emerged, and I couldn't help but hug her into my arms.

She hugged me tightly, hard, and buried her head in my chest.

For 1 minute, slowly release your hands.She didn't let go, but still hugged her tightly, as if I would run away as soon as I let go.

Putting the loosened hands around her waist again, she hugged her vigorously.

Her head was buried deeper.

For some reason, Yingzi just wanted to hold this bandit-like Brother Tan like this, and lean her petite body against him to feel the warmth.At the moment of embracing her, she felt that she had reliance and security, and the loneliness that had always accompanied her disappeared.

She felt that she was tired and at a loss, and she always wanted to find someone to talk to, but she knew too few people in this strange city, except Sister Wang, who was Brother Tan, and there were some things that she couldn't say to Sister Wang. I'm sorry, I dare not face the kind-hearted Sister Wang for this reason.

These days, she was depressed and entangled, and wanted to find a place where no one was there to cry.Brother Tan finally came today, and she was as happy as seeing her family.She chattered on and on throughout the meal because finally someone listened to her.She likes this bandit-like Brother Tan, she doesn't want him to go, she wants him to spend more time with her, and even thinks that it would be great if she could lie in his arms and sleep.

The thought of him leaving soon made her feel uncomfortable, and the reluctance in her heart and the girl's dim liking for the opposite sex quickly clouded her eyes.

Yingzi raised her head and saw that her eyes were full of tears, she felt nervous and flustered, and asked, "What's wrong?" She wondered if someone was bullying her.

"It's nothing, I just want you to hug me."

"Aren't you hugging now?"

"Hold for a while."

"Are you wronged?"

"Don't talk, or you will cry."

She buried her head in her chest again.

At this moment, she felt her helplessness and loneliness. What she wanted was the warmth and care of home.

She didn't let go, raised her head and asked me: "Have you ever hugged my sister?"

She was still concerned about the fact that I stayed with Sister Wang for one night. At this time, she became the lovely Yingzi of Beisi Road, and said to her: "No."

"I don't believe you. Have you ever hugged my sister with so much flesh? I've hugged her. It's alright."

"I'll try it later when I have a chance."

"No."

She said quickly, pinched my waist, and rubbed it quickly.

"Okay, I have to go back." I said.

"Hold for a while."

"Stop hugging, brother is also a normal man, if you hug him any longer, you will make a fool of yourself."

She smiled, smiling charmingly, making people's heart beat.

Leaning hard against me, I couldn't stand still in the narrow space, and fell on the bed behind me.

She fell down with me, pressing on my chest, her hands wrapped around my neck, her fiery eyes began to blur.

Just as I was about to speak, her lips quickly fell on my face, and then kissed——
For a long time, the lips are divided.

Sitting up from the bed in her reluctance, flustered, he asked himself as if in a dream, was he kissed by her just now?Why was she kissed?What did you do?Not daring to look at her, flustered and embarrassed.

Finally, after calming down, he patted her head and said, "Brother is gone, I will see you next time."

She stood at the door, hugging me with longing eyes——
The moment she hugged me, my heart ached.

【a kind of mind】

On the bus back, my heart was turbulent, and the scene of Yingzi kissing me appeared in front of my eyes constantly, back and forth.

Why did you fall down?why-
The first kiss in adolescence came too suddenly, before I could react, I accepted it passively, dazedly, and without knowing what was wrong.After reflecting it, it disappeared, leaving behind the fiery heat, the fluster that hadn't dissipated, and the sweetness that came back aftertaste.

What did this do?

Should have pushed her away.Just don't hug her when she wants to hug her, or just don't go to where she lives when she wants to go by herself, nothing will happen.

Although it was just a kiss, for me who had never had close contact with a girl, I was still flustered, uneasy, and uneasy like I had done something bad.

I don't have a date with Yingzi, I don't have that idea at all, I just like it.But what should I do if such a thing happened?
Does Yingzi like me?Want to date me?

Impossible, absolutely impossible.

Although we have never been in a relationship, we still know what a relationship is. The two of us are not in a relationship at all.There was no intimacy before, she just straddled my arm like a little girl, I just rubbed her head like an elder brother, there was no love between a man and a woman in her eyes, but an elder brother looking at a younger sister, full of love spoil.

The turbulent mood gradually calmed down, and he replayed what happened in the afternoon like a movie in his head, from the moment he saw Yingzi.She jumped into her arms like a little swallow, then ate, ordered wine, she chattered excitedly, and then, when she arrived at her room, everything was normal.

All the abnormality started when she asked me to hug her when I was about to leave, I hugged her, then fell on the bed, and then her enthusiasm like fire.

Yingzi had been drinking, and because of the effect of alcohol, he couldn't help making this move.Yes, just drinking.

It seems that I have found the reason why it happened, because this thing that only happens between lovers, it is obviously abnormal between Yingzi and me, and there must be a reason for it to happen.

But this self-righteous incentive is a bit far-fetched. I am a drinker. How can I kiss a girl I don’t like when I drink too much?Of course not, kissing someone who doesn't like it is no different from playing hooligans, it's molesting.

Maybe Yingzi really likes me, that's why she made such a move with Jiu Jin.

But it is undeniable that Yingzi's kisses and hugs made a young man hot and turbulent, and he had the idea of ​​having sex.I said in my heart, Yingzi is a good girl, next time I see her, I must ask her face to face, do I like myself, want to be with myself, if I want to be with myself, then settle this matter, she will be my lovers.If not, then it was a gaffe after she was drunk, she couldn't help it, just pretend that nothing happened, buried deeply in her heart, and became a memory after several years.

When I went to work the next day, the condition of the kitchen staff was not very good.I went to Yingzi's yesterday, and the brothers went to Xiao Wu's for a drink at home. They drank too much, and they still feel uncomfortable, and they are all listless.

Fortunately, there are not many customers, so I get off work at eight o'clock in the evening.

Li Yanhua didn't ask me to see her off, but followed me back to the dormitory - she moved into the dormitory yesterday.

After returning to the dormitory and washing up, the brothers are very honest, no one is talking about playing poker, and no one is talking about drinking, Master Chen is lying on the bed and going to sleep, Li Jianhan is reading a novel, Tie Chu has already fallen asleep.

Li Yanhua came over and asked me to help her move the bed, and Li Jianhan was also called over. The two of them worked quickly and the bed was moved quickly.Just as I was about to leave, Li Yanhua asked me to accompany her to her sister's place, saying that something was left there and that I should go and get it back.

"Ask Li Jianhan to accompany you." I said.

"No, my sister doesn't know him," she said.

"Why don't you know me? I just want to accompany you there. I don't care if I know you or not."

"You have to go, if you don't go, you can't!"

She came to Xiao Xing'er, stomping her feet and staring at me, it's up to you if you don't think about it.When she played with her temper, Miss Ma, who lived with her, laughed and said jokingly, "Tanzi, hurry up and accompany her, she will go crazy after seeing her like a child."

There's no way, I planned to give Li Jianhan a chance, but it looks like she won't.

Coming out of the dormitory and walking on the street, Li Yanhua asked, "Brother Tan, what did you do yesterday? I couldn't even find you."

"Out." I said.

"I know you've gone out, but I'm asking where you went? What did you do? If you don't say yes, I know it. You went to see Xiaoyingzi."

Yingzi appeared in front of my eyes, a little sweet and a little sad.

"I know you still ask." I said.

This sentence made her furious, as if the ground had a grudge against her, she stood there and stomped hard, looking at me angrily.

Suddenly a little irritable, she shouted to her: "You should go quickly, aren't you going to get something from your sister?"

"I don't want to take it anymore, I can take it any day."

She stood there pouting angrily, ignored her, took out a cigarette and lit one and smoked slowly, waiting for her to calm down.

Seeing that I ignored her at all, she became even more angry, her chest was heaving up and down, and she was panting heavily.But soon she laughed, took out the previous method to trick me, and asked calmly: "Did you really go to see Xiaoyingzi?"

"Hmm." I nodded.

"Go and go for a day?"

"She's far away from us, and it takes four hours to go back and forth by car, not even a day?"

"You still go that far?"

"Isn't it a rest, or else there is no time."

When she asked this, she became angry again, stomped her foot and said, "You have time to see Xiaoyingzi, but you don't have time when I move house."

"You didn't mention moving. If you said moving, can I go?"

It turned out that she was angry because she didn't help her move. What a mess, she was angry about everything, and she was still a little girl.

Li Yanhua was really angry because of this.After I told her the other day that it was best not to live at her sister's place, she also thought about it. She actually didn't want to live at her sister's place, but she lived at her sister's place when she came here, and there was room there, so Did not move to the bedroom.Yesterday happened to be a day off, so she ran to the dormitory excitedly and asked me to help her move, but I left unexpectedly, which made her very angry.Later, it was Li Jianhan and Tie Chu who helped her move, and they didn't have many things, so the three of them would finish the job in one trip.

She felt that she should find me, a fellow villager, for the job of moving, not to mention that I was her eldest brother.Knowing why she was angry, I didn't care, and asked her:
"What do you get for your sister?""

"Actually, I don't take anything, I just want to—" She didn't continue.

"You, just being narrow-minded, want to know what I did yesterday, don't you?"

"That's not true, I just want to go out for a walk." She refused to admit it, and then said, "I left my lipstick at my sister's place."

"Okay, go get the lipstick."

Knowing that it was an excuse, he didn't expose it, so as not to save her from getting angry again.Tell her, "Let's go."

The two walked in the direction of her sister's restaurant.

"Brother Tan, what is Xiaoyingzi doing there?" She asked nonchalantly.

"waiter."

"She is so far away from here, when did you arrive?"

"It was past one o'clock when I arrived, and I had a meal with her, and started walking back at five o'clock."

"More than three hours for a meal?"

"Yes, can't you eat well?"

"You must like Xiaoyingzi, otherwise you wouldn't have dinner with her for three hours."

"Someday please, eat for four hours."

"This is what you said, remember."

When we arrived at her sister's place with Li Yanhua, she came out within 5 minutes after entering, and then went back to the dormitory.

After Li Yanhua opened the door and entered the room, she sat down on the bed and said angrily, "I'm so mad!"

Miss Ma didn't know what was going on, so she asked her, "Why are you so angry? What's the matter?"

"Sister Ma, tell me, there is no such style. If you are not at home, help me move, go out to eat with women, and eat for more than three hours!"

Miss Xiao Ma smiled and asked, "What about you Brother Tan?"

"Who else is there besides him? I'm still a fellow villager, and I can't borrow any money."

After Li Yanhua finished speaking, she took off her coat and hung it on the nail on the wall of the bed. She seemed to be a little angry, and then she got angry with her young lady: "He said that it is not good to live at my sister's place, and that my sister is Miss Dai. Yes, it’s easy to imitate bad things, and ask me to live in the dormitory. I don’t work at my sister’s place, so why should I learn?”

Seeing Li Yanhua throwing a tantrum like a child, Miss Ma started giggling, and said after laughing, "It's the first time I've seen you so obedient."

"I'm not obedient, I'm trying to save face for him."

"What's more, everyone in the hotel knows it, so you just listen to Brother Tan."

Li Yanhua blushed a little, and defended herself: "That's not true, isn't he from my hometown, he's older than me."

"Do you like him?"

"I don't like it, he looks like a bandit."

"If you don't like it, let someone send you off every day?"

"He sent me to safety, and others were scared away when they saw him."

"Hey, just keep your mouth shut and tell you, little girl, you can find a partner like this, honest and stable, and capable, that is--I heard that his family is very poor, there is an old mother at home, and the conditions are not too good-- "

Madam Xiao Ma didn’t go on talking about this, she thought to herself, what are you doing, she doesn’t date anyone, this guy is pretty good, but his family is difficult, I wouldn’t look for him like this, his family is poor, and I will live my life in the future It's all about.

Li Yanhua knew what Brother Tan's family was like for a long time, but she didn't think about the partner. She admired Brother Tan in her heart and thought he was very caring.As I continued to communicate with Tan Ge, my admiration for him became deeper and deeper.He said in his heart again, look at Brother Tan, how caring he is, he is busy all day, and he is not idle.After washing the dishes, I cut vegetables, either doing this or that, and there is always work in hand.It's not like other men who flirt with little girls every now and then, but they don't flirt with anyone, at most they just say a few polite words.

If you are willing to be with him, you will feel good, speak honestly, do not lie, be warm-hearted, and respond to requests.The main thing is that the fellow villagers, those who are close to home, can chat together.How should I put it, I feel safe with him, there's nothing like this and that, and the way he looks at people is also reassuring, unlike those men who seem to want to eat people.

But Miss Ma said that I like him, it's impossible, he's okay as a big brother, but he can't be a partner.It's fine to bully him, he's not angry yet.Listen to him, have you ever?It seems that there really was.The main reason is that what he said is right, of course you have to listen to it, and Miss Ben who is wrong will definitely not listen.

Now I seem to be inseparable from him, I want to talk to him about everything, I used to talk to my sister about something on my mind, but now I think of him first, maybe he thinks about everything, what he said makes sense, and The method is good, but there are many ideas.

He's just 21, why does he look like he's in his thirties and knows everything?It feels like I'm catching up with my dad, it's scary.Li Yanhua said to herself in her heart, and thought of her dear father along the way.I am my father's favorite, and I am like a princess at home. Although this princess is nothing in front of my mother, she sometimes has to be a maid.But in Dad's eyes, it was a real princess.

Dad was afraid that he would have a date outside, and he always told him not to be fooled by those dubious men. He must find a date at home, and he would go back after playing outside for two years.Can I go back?Absolutely not, no one cares how good it is outside, especially not being able to hear my mother's nagging, this is the most important thing.

As for finding a partner, I haven't had enough fun with this girl, and I don't want to find a partner before 25.Besides, finding a partner is not something to be in a hurry, shouldn't you touch slowly, you have to go around when you meet, to see if the two are compatible, to see what the other person's temperament is like, all this has to be savored slowly, and it's over Only then can we know what it is like, and we can decide whether to deal with each other.

Li Yanhua was thinking in her heart, her brother Tan's face slowly appeared in front of her eyes.

(End of this chapter)