The emperor always wants to promise himself

Chapter 129 It's Not That I Don't Trust You

After returning to Xianrong Palace, Jun Rong walked in front, Xiao Yu followed behind, the two of them entered the bedroom, Tinghua and Fuyue wanted to follow, but Xiao Yu suddenly turned around , gave the two of them a look, put their palms in front of them, and made a "stop" gesture.

Tinghua and Fuyue looked at each other blankly, then stood at the door, watching Xiao Yu close the palace door.

"What's the matter? I look at His Majesty as if a little unhappy?"

"I don't know. Could it be a quarrel?"

"It shouldn't be. The prince has always taken care of His Majesty. How could we quarrel? It may be because of other things, so let's go farther away."

Tinghua walked forward, standing on the edge of the steps, Fuyue turned her head to look at the closed palace door, and walked over worriedly.

Jun Rong in the hall walked forward without knowing it. Unexpectedly, after closing the door, Xiao Yu came over and grabbed his wrist. Jun Rong was stunned, looking at the hand that suddenly appeared on his wrist, "Teacher..."

Xiao Yu pulled him to sit down beside the couch, "Why isn't it called Ziyi?"

Jun Rong pursed her lips and said nothing.

Xiao Yu said bluntly, "Did you hear it just now?"

Unexpectedly, he was discovered, Jun Rong was startled, and suddenly raised his head: "You know me..."

Xiao Yu met his astonished and surprised gaze, and nodded: "I know, you thought your footsteps were very light, but it was still very obvious to us. Chang Huan, you still don't trust me?"

Jun Rong shook his head: "I'm not, it's not that I don't trust you."

"Then why are you eavesdropping?"

Xiao Yu's tone was as usual, without blaming or questioning, but it made Junrong even more uncertain. He pinched his dragon robe with his fingers, and scratched out crumpled marks on the luxurious fabric.

"I didn't eavesdrop. I couldn't hold on when I was walking. Seeing that you haven't come back for a long time, I was a little curious, so I wanted to go and have a look, and then... I heard you talking about me."

Jun Rong's expression was unabashedly frustrated, "I know that everyone looks down on me and doesn't believe me, but knowing it is one thing, and hearing it with my own ears is another. I thought I could accept everyone's opinion." Got it, but... I just can't get past that hurdle."

The voice gradually choked, Jun Rong let out a trembling breath, raised his head and looked at Xiao Yu with confusion in his eyes: "Ziyi, am I really that bad? You teach me every day, are you tired?"

Xiao Yu stared at him quietly for a long time, so long that Jun Rong thought she would not talk anymore, and laughed at himself, "What I asked is stupid, I shouldn't ask you like that... I believe that your kindness to me is true Yes, it's just that I can't help doubting myself, can I really be worthy of your trust and training? I..."

He choked up again, unable to speak, tears rolled down, before he ascended the throne, he felt that after becoming the emperor, no one would bully him, he could do what he wanted to do and protect what he wanted to protect, but he really sat there Only when he was in this position did he know what it means to be involuntary and what it means to be burdened.

Facing all kinds of gazes from the courtiers every day, he was under a lot of pressure, but he didn't want to worry the people around him, so he kept suppressing it. Today, he finally couldn't suppress it, and all kinds of emotions surged up together, almost drowning him. Trapped in the whirlpool, powerless to fight back.

He cried for a while, feeling ashamed, stood up, "I...I'm going to wash my face."

Xiao Yu, who had been silent all this time, suddenly moved. She took Junrong's hand, and turned him around without refusal. She reached out and took out a brocade handkerchief from her arms, and gently wiped away the tears from the corners of his eyes. , she said softly: "I'm sorry, I forgot that you worked hard too."

Jun Rong was stunned, and looked at Xiao Yu without blinking, round teardrops poured out and slid down the corners of his eyes, Xiao Yu said helplessly: "Why are you like a person made of water, how many tears, even if the handkerchief is wet Can't wipe it off."

Jun Rong blinked hurriedly, "Ziyi—"

"I'm very pleased that you believed in me and didn't doubt me just because you heard such words, but I feel a little guilty. These days have been urging you to grow, but you have ignored your feelings."

Xiao Yu took his hand and told him to sit down, "Chang Huan, shall I tell you a story?"

Jun Rong raised her eyes and looked at Xiao Yu puzzledly, but Xiao Yu didn't look at him, and started talking on her own, her eyes were foggy, as if she was caught in memories.

"I read the story by chance from a storybook. It says that in a certain dynasty, there was a girl. Her father was a high-ranking official, and her mother was also from an aristocratic family. She was very good at doing business. Little girl, little girl grew up in the countryside with her grandmother."

Jun Rong was immersed in Xiao Yu's voice, and gradually forgot her own pain as she narrated the story.

"Her grandmother was a very strong woman. While taking care of her husband who was paralyzed in bed, she found a job to support the family. In addition, she had to take care of the little girl who was only three or four years old at the time. Later, the little girl was taken away by her parents. When I came to live in Fugui Township, I thought I could have a family reunion, but I didn’t know that this was just the beginning of a nightmare.”

Xiao Yu adjusted his posture, leaned on the cushion, and sighed: "The little girl's parents are still busy with their own business. After a long time, they each have a new relationship and meet a new sweetheart."

"what?"

Jun Rong frowned: "How could this be?"

"On the one hand, the two couldn't let go of each other, and on the other hand, they couldn't control their yearning for other people, so they were so entangled. The little girl studied at home by herself every day, and took care of herself alone. Yes, I will scold her a few more words."

"The little girl's originally lively temperament has become introverted in this day-to-day training. She has become more and more reticent, and she has no sense of identity with her parents. She even feels that the world is so big that no one is her home. After the last quarrel, her parents finally reconciled and the girl lived with her father."

"Everyone who saw the girl pointed at her, whether she wanted to or not, they would always tell her about her parents, and finally said a few words of sympathetic comfort to satisfy their curiosity. After the heart, let the little girl digest the sadness and pain by herself."

Jun Rong's facial features slowly wrinkled together, "Those people... why are they talking so much? Isn't it hurting again to mention it once?"

Xiao Yu chuckled: "Yes, they all understand this truth, but they still have to ask, do you know why?"

"why?"

Xiao Yu turned his head to look at Jun Rong, the light in his eyes disappeared, and he became extraordinarily gloomy, "Because it didn't hurt them, what does it matter to others whether they hurt or not?"

Jun Rong was speechless, yes, the knife didn't stab him, who cares if he bleeds or not?
　Jun Rong: It's not that I don't trust Taifu, I'm just afraid that Taifu will also be disappointed in me
　　Xiao Yu: It’s not easy to take care of children, there are so many careful thoughts

　　
　
(End of this chapter)