I'm just an actor

Chapter 15 Confidence
The scene to be filmed is a scene in which Zhang Baojin invited a friend to the educated youth spot, because he had an argument with someone because of the overfilling of pork, and was called by Section Chief Bai to educate him.

Li Zhi, who played the role of Section Chief Bai, was already sitting, while Xu Rong was standing, waiting for the record to hit the board.

Li Zhiguo has a straight face and a beard. He is an old actor.

Hearing the beating, Li Zhi sat on the saddle, picked up the porcelain teapot, said in a low voice with a sullen face, "What happened to your face, who did you fight with?"

Zhang Baojin is an unscrupulous person with a stubborn temper and a bad stomach. The bruise on his face was scratched while mowing the grass.

But because of the old Botou's misunderstanding of him, he didn't want to explain.

Xu Rong casually took off the locomotive from his head, put it on the table next to him, gave Li Zhi a sideways glance, took out a cigarette, put it in his mouth, and said nonchalantly, "I hit you, what's the matter?"

Li Zhi put the teapot he picked up on the ground with a little force, and raised his voice: "I'm asking who are you fighting with."

Xu Rong put the cigarette in his mouth, didn't even look at him, and said with a twist of his neck, "You don't know him."

"I said Zhang Baojin, why can't you learn something?"

Practicing alone in the air and playing with others feels completely different. Looking at Li Zhi who is sitting across from him frowning and angry, Xu Rong suddenly feels that the other party has become infinitely small, as if he The other party was the only one left in his line of sight, and there was an impulse in his heart for no reason.

"Thorn."

He lit a cigarette, threw the match under his feet, stomped on it, took a puff between his teeth, grinned, smoke was coming from both nostrils, and raised his brow slightly: "Oh, I really can't."

According to the lines, he should say "no", but the words came out naturally.

And Chen Jialin didn't call to stop.

"You are a fucking bastard, I tell you, if I didn't look at your stepfather's face"

Xu Rong stopped Li Zhi, he stretched his head slightly, held a cigarette between his hands, dangling with his hands in mid-air, and said: "Hey, don't, you don't need to look at his face, hey, I tell you, don't follow me If I mention him, you can do whatever you want, why are you looking at his face?"

At this time, his way of acting has changed a lot from the rehearsal just now, but he followed his feeling.

In the penultimate scene of filming, he seemed to have found the feeling of Zhang Baojin's role.

"Card."

After Chen Weiguo finished shouting, he turned to look at Chen Jialin. The one just now was good, but not so good.

Xu Rong played a little bit, but in his feeling, this is the first time that Zhang Baojin "lived" after more than a month of filming.

It's this pee sex that makes people angry just looking at it.

However, Li Zhi didn't catch it. In the passage just now, Xu Rong made slight changes to several lines and added a tone of exclamation. Give an appropriate response.

Xu Rong's improvisation fell to the ground.

Chen Jialin hesitated for a moment, and said, "Let's do it all over again."

He didn't say what the problem was.

But Li Zhi understood, and Xu Rong also understood.

On the set, if a newcomer has a problem, they will call their names directly, and say what they want, and they are not polite at all.

If something goes wrong with an old actor, just start over and don't say who is at fault. This is to save face for the old actor.

"Director, wait a minute." Li Zhi hurriedly waved his hand and apologized, "I'll think about it."

He already knew it was bad when he was filming, because he was a little out of control just now, especially when Xu Rong stretched out his face to mock, he had the urge to swat it up with a big ear scraper.

Why do you suddenly hate such a serious child when you usually look at it?
By the time he realized that Xu Rong had entered the drama, it was too late.

Xu Rong closed his eyes and didn't speak. He finally knew how to bring out his emotions. It was difficult to say, but it was actually very simple. He had a thorough understanding of the characters, outlined them in his mind, and then continued to exert self-suggestion.

He closed his eyes because he wanted to remember this emotion, even if there were only two scenes left.

The others didn't bother him either. This state is too common on the set, but Xu Rong entered the state a little too late.

The scenes are all about to wrap up.

"The audience is quiet."

"action"

"Card."

"Pass."

Chen Jialin stomped his feet, sighed, and said, "It's a pity."

Chen Weiguo also expressed regret, and said, "Indeed."

If Xu Rong could have the current state earlier, whether it is him personally or the whole play, the quality can be raised to a big level.

Because in terms of roles, he is considered the second male lead.

Probably because of the state of affairs, Xu Rong almost passed all the scenes in the next scene, and Li Youbin was taken aback for a while.

After getting drunk again, throwing up again, and vowing never to drink again, Xu Rong packed his luggage and left the set.

He was tired, very happy, and uncomfortable when filming this movie.

I was tired because of rehearsals, and Li Youbin scolded me like a grandson day by day.

It's cool because of the rich experience points. In one play, his comprehensive evaluation has been raised from D+ to C+, which is like riding a rocket. Most importantly, he finally knows how to act. That feeling is really cool.

Until this time, he didn't understand why some people say they love acting.

In the past, he just thought that it was just an excuse and excuse for fame and fortune.

love.

Because in that state, all the troubles and sorrows in the real world seem to disappear for the time being, and it becomes purely the character to be portrayed, as if completely entering a fantasy world constructed by myself.

It's uncomfortable because I knew it too late, and the day lily was completely cold.

The next play, the next play strives to enter the state as quickly as possible.

He thought so.

After filming for so long, the role of Zhang Baojin made him realize for the first time what "spirituality" is. It has different manifestations in different characters, and can present huge tension and infinite possibilities. It belongs to the category of emotions, but it cannot be said to be all, because emotions can also be influenced through skills, and spirituality is the emotional resonance between the actor and the character, and the test standard is also very simple, whether it can make the audience empathize .

After returning to the capital, he went to a training institution first and resigned from his job.

Next, he has to devote his mind to his studies and make up for the missing theories. It is too time-consuming to teach people every day.

Up to now, he has saved all kinds of 4 yuan, and in a short period of time, he doesn't have to worry about money.

The reason why he has the confidence to make up his mind is that when he invited Guo Si to dinner, Guo Si vaguely hinted that he would arrange a play for him before the end of the year.

But at the same time, I also told him, don't expect too much, there will definitely be plays, but not important roles.

Before school started, after making several phone calls, Xu Rong finally made an appointment with Aunt Xu, and at the same time was going to give some gifts, which was considered a return of the favor.

He didn't know what to give, so after much deliberation, he called Xiao Zhang to ask, after all, there were not many women he was familiar with.

"It must be gold. Gold pendants, gold bracelets, and gold necklaces are all fine." Xiao Zhang said directly.

Xu Rong thought in his heart that it's strange that you think highly of me.

Just when he was on the phone, he passed by the entrance of Tongrentang, went in and asked the clerk, and bought two catties of sanqi powder, six heads.

When he came out of the store, he even wondered if he had been cheated. Looking at the small box in his hand, it cost more than 6000 for just such a small box. How about stealing money?
The place where I made an appointment with Aunt Xu is a hot pot restaurant. The store is not big, but there are many people coming and going, and the business is booming.

"Sorry, Miss Xu, I'm late."

"Well, although there are still 10 minutes before the said time, but remember, it is a bad habit to let girls wait for you."

As soon as they met, they were taught a lesson, and Xu Rong was a little at a loss.

"Hehe, just kidding, I live nearby, so I arrived a little earlier." Aunt Xu laughed when she saw his embarrassed look, and when he sat down, she said, "I forgot to ask you on a busy schedule. How is it?"

"It's okay, I was accepted by Nortel."

"How many points?"

"617."

Aunt Xu was stunned, and said in surprise: "Are you the one who passed the score line and reported twice as much to Nortel?"

Xu Rong heard something wrong from his words, handed over the gift box, and said, "Almost, sister Xu, how do you know?"

"I brought you a little gift, and I don't know what to buy, don't mind."

"The media has reported that the candidate with the highest score was admitted by Nortel." Aunt Xu took it subconsciously, glanced at it, raised her head, looked at him strangely and said, "Yo, did you spend a lot of money? What? Do you have thoughts about your sister?"

"Haha, why are you blushing?" Without waiting for Xu Rong to speak, she put away the gift box and said, "But since you bought it, I won't be polite, let's order first."

Seeing that Aunt Xu's face became like the sky in June, Xu Rong dealt with it cautiously, and at the same time regretted that she should not have agreed to the meal proposal earlier.

But it's all here, you can't just drop your things and run away, right?

"Why do you feel a little nervous?"

"No."

"Really?"

Xu Rong knew that this topic could not be continued, so she pretended to say "Ah" in surprise, quickly changed the topic, and sincerely thanked: "Thank you sister Xu last time, if it weren't for you, maybe I would have been on the set .”

"Small things are always difficult." Aunt Xu waved her hand indifferently and said, "It's just a small effort, what have you been up to recently? Look at the things you bought, and you made a lot of money?"

"I took on two more plays, and I just came back from the crew."

Xu Rong knew that he couldn't give her the topic, otherwise he would put himself in an embarrassing situation, so he asked, "Where is Sister Xu?"

"You haven't answered me yet." Aunt Xu didn't answer his question, her eyes slowly turned into crescent moons, revealing two dimples, she stretched out her finger, nodded at him and said, "When I was chatting with my sister, Don't try to dominate the conversation, and the way you do it, is really lame."

Xu Rong was stunned, why can such words be said so openly and so naturally?

And shouldn't the person who should be said be embarrassed, why do you feel cramped instead?
Is it because she helped herself?

Or is it because of his gentle smile?
This question has been lingering in his mind, unable to solve it.

It wasn't until he returned to the rental house that Xu Rong fully understood the reason.

It's not the reason why he is gentle or not when he smiles, it's not that he has never seen a gentle and good-looking woman.

No matter how good-looking she is, she is still a woman, and if she is a woman, it is difficult to deal with. This is a very simple logic, so being good-looking and gentle is not the cause of my embarrassment.

The real answer is that Aunt Xu is very confident.

Similar to Jiang Wen, the kind of strong self-confidence that radiates from the inside out.

This is what he lacks.

He can't say that he has low self-esteem, but he can't talk about self-confidence either.

This kind of moderation does not come from the lack of material and wealth, but from the mediocrity of ability.

At the beginning of last year, he walked out of a small county town and stepped into this bustling world little by little. During this process, he experienced the first time taking a train, the first time taking an airplane, the first time staying in a hotel, and the first time living in a hotel. It's the first time to buy too many mobile phones.

And these, not only exceeded his simple cognition in the past, but also exceeded his ability to bear in the past.

Because according to his own ability, he should not be able to feel these in a short time, but because of fate, he experienced many new things that he had never experienced before.

But the reason is more an accident caused by luck than an inevitability caused by the attainment of ability.

After thinking about the reason, Xu Rongan calmed down.

Since it is luck, then try to turn luck into ability.

If you are not confident enough, be confident.

(End of this chapter)