The girl is not good in this life

Chapter 436
Pei Qingyuan said that he wanted to meet Zhao Ran alone, but he didn't say what the reason for meeting Zhao Ran was. The elders thought that these things should be discussed by the two children themselves.

As for the fact that Xiao Jiang told Pei Qingyuan what Zhao Ran said about not being a prince, of course Jiang was angry again, but it was Gu who persuaded him to stop him, so he reluctantly did not mention it.

Zhao Ran is in the Duke's Mansion.

It's just that Mrs. Jiang arrived today, and he couldn't stay by Pei Qingyuan's bed all the time, so he wasn't there.

Now I went to Pei Qingyuan's courtyard from outside, and I didn't meet Mrs. Jiang and the elders first, so I was actually uneasy.

When Pei Qingyuan fell asleep, he stayed by her side almost every step of the way, not breaking the rules, but he also refused to leave her hospital bed easily because of worry.

When she woke up later, Zhao Ran restrained herself a lot, fearing that she would be uncomfortable or not like her.

Even though he was still living in Daxiangguo Temple at that time, Zhao Ran only went to visit it once or twice a day, and mostly talked with her outside the door.

She is silent, he is the one who talks every day, she simply listens and does not give him any response.

Zhao Ran didn't feel tired, but felt that such a day was not bad.

The years are quiet, that's probably the case, at least she didn't reject or resist.

But Zhao Ran also knew it in his heart.

Her mentality is different from before.

He was no different. Although she didn't repel and resist, she was indeed rejecting him.

So A Niang sent someone to say that she wanted to see him alone, but he felt uneasy.

When entering the door, there was a scent of medicine in the room, Zhao Ran's eyes hurt, and he lowered his eyes, and after quickly adjusting, he stepped into the inner room.

Originally, he was supposed to talk through the screen, but the elders knew about it and allowed him to come to see him, so there were not so many rules to show.

Pei Qingyuan's complexion is still not good, it looks a little stronger than when he fell asleep, but there is still no blood.

So thin again.

Zhao Ran sat down on the round pier at the end of the bed, and sighed inaudibly: "If you can eat something, you should eat more. After sleeping for so long, you have to rely on medicine to hang your spirits, and you have lost weight several times. I asked the imperial doctor that it is still okay to eat some easy-to-digest foods now, and asked them to cook porridge. Didn’t my aunt also ask someone to cook steamed eggs today? That’s okay too.

If you are sick, you probably have a bad appetite, and you take medicine all day long, and your mouth is full of bitter taste, so you have even less appetite, but you should take some at least.

Eating more is also good for your health. "

He didn't say anything else, every word and every word was concerned.

So sincere.

Pei Qingyuan's heart sank slightly.

She actually has a sore nose too.

Zhao Ran is very kind, especially to her. People are not grass and trees, so how can one be ruthless?

Even in front of A Niang, I thought so too.

Especially after A Niang told her about Zhao Ran.

Zhao Ran was sitting in front of her, she really couldn't look coldly at him, or look at him blankly.

Listening to Zhao Ran's concerned instructions now, Pei Qingyuan's eyes turned red, but he didn't want him to look at him, lowered his head, and lowered his eyelids together: "Auntie just told me, you report to Uncle Aunt's words."

Zhao Ran was short of breath.

He told his father, queen, mother and concubine in private, and even his brothers didn't let them know.

Father Wang also said that there is no need for this kind of incident to be known to everyone.

But since he had such thoughts, the officials had to report back, so he only went to the palace to face the saint and told him.

It seems that the concubine mother and aunt said it.

The aunt is the one who can't hide things the most, so she brought it to Qing Yuan to tell her.

Zhao Ran was at a loss for words for a while, Pei Qingyuan said such a sentence, but he didn't have anything to say, as if he was waiting for his reaction.

He was silent for a long time before he said with a wry smile: "I am willing, you don't need to have any psychological burden. I never thought of using this to force you. The most important thing now is your body. When you recover from your injuries, Being healthy is the most important thing.”

Pei Qingyuan took a deep breath and looked up: "Why bother?"

Zhao Ran frowned slightly, imitating her previous appearance, and remained silent.

Pei Qingyuan pursed her lips and flattened the line of her lips: "There are so many things about girls in the world, I tell you, you must be even more sad in your heart, and I don't need to persuade you, because you have heard too much.

But now I look like this..."

She also knew that Zhao Ran didn't want to hear this.

But that's the truth, here it is.

So she bent her heart, raised her fingertips, and pulled the hair hanging on her cheeks, which could slightly cover part of the scars on her face, behind her ears: "Look carefully at my current face, and my face. this body.

The imperial doctor said that I almost hurt the root, even if I take care of it calmly now, they can't guarantee whether there will be any root cause of the disease in the future.

What's more, it may be difficult for offspring.

Marrying a wife and a virtuous person, I also ask myself virtuous and virtuous, but is virtuousness enough?

You know best in your heart, no. "

Pei Qingyuan's voice paused for a moment, and his voice became softer and softer: "You are so attentive to me now, and you will say that you will not marry for the rest of your life. You don't even have to be the heir of the county prince's mansion, so you have to wait for me. If you want to come, if my heir It's difficult, you really can't have children, and you also absolutely refuse to take concubines.

But don't you want to have children for the rest of your life?
I don't want you to blame me one day, hate me, and blame me for ruining your future.

There are also uncles and aunts - when there is deep affection, everything is good, but the most fearful thing is...

You probably know what I mean too.

I was really scared.

Maybe I have a lot of troubles in my life, and I am doomed not to live a smooth and healthy life. Such an accident can happen when I climb the mountain in Daxiangguo Temple. Who can say for sure what will happen in the future?

It's best not to drag others down. "

Zhao Ran's heart tightened, and his complexion sank.

What happened to her was not necessarily an accident.

He has been with her in the Daxiangguo Temple these days, looking after her, how much Yuan Hui has found, he has not had time to ask in detail.

However, I met Brother Shu Wang yesterday, and I mentioned something about him inside and outside the words. Qing Yuan fell off the cliff, and there are already some clues.

If he wants to know the details, he can ask Yuan Hui.

But Yuan Hui hasn't found out with any certainty, so he doesn't necessarily have to tell him.

Today, when his uncle and aunt arrived in Beijing, he didn't bother to ask Yuan Hui about these things.

"You didn't..."

Zhao Ran was a little anxious in his heart, and almost blurted out.

He suddenly stopped talking, his face changed slightly, and he immediately changed his words: "I can understand what you said, but I have made a decision, so you don't have to persuade me.

I am willing to wait for you, it is also my business.

My father, queen, mother and concubine agreed, and even the officials agreed to my wishes, and didn't scold me for being worthless, so don't say these things. "

He took a deep breath, and his tone became firmer than before: "I said, the most important thing right now is to take care of your body first. You always like to look forward and backward, it doesn't matter, I will accompany you. If you think that my behavior caused After your troubles, when you recover, you can go back to Hedong. I will never chase you to Hedong District to bother you.

Or if it is not suitable to travel far for a year or a half, and you want to settle in Shengjing temporarily, if you really don't want to see me, I can leave the capital and just go outside for a tour.

Qing Yuan, I never thought you were a drag, let alone trapped you.

If you are afraid of concubine mother and aunt trying to persuade you, I can go and explain it to them.

You don't need to think about these things, just recuperate with peace of mind. "

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For the sake of Pei Qingyuan, Zhao Ran even the eldest son of Changping County Prince's Mansion was willing to give up doing this, and kept it from everyone for half a month. After all, because of Xiao Jiang's words, all relatives knew about it.

Zhao Xing came out of the palace and accompanied Pei Gaoyang to Pei Guogong's mansion. Hearing about this, he didn't stay long and went back to Shu Wang's mansion.

When I met Jiang Wan, I told her everything.

"What about my cousin's attitude? What do you say now?"

Zhao Xing shook his head and said he didn't know: "She met Zhao Ran alone once, and her attitude... attitude is still the same.

When Zhao Ran came out from her, he went to report to Aunt Huang and the elders, saying that he should stop bothering his cousin with this matter, and let her recover from her illness with peace of mind. Leaving Beijing immediately, cut off the idea of ​​the elders.

I figured, my cousin still didn't let go.

She... According to what you said, she already had a knot in her heart, and she was moved by Zhao Ran's sincerity before the accident, so her attitude softened.

In addition, she knew very well at that time that Aunt Huang wanted her to marry Zhao Ran wholeheartedly, and the marriage might not be far off in the end, so she still had to accept it and get used to it early.

But the knot was not completely untied.

Now that something happened, her face was ruined, her body was in a mess, and she was almost hurt. She said that she was afraid of dragging Zhao Ran down, but in fact, she was more afraid of ten years and twenty years. will regret it. "

That is true.

People are like that.

It's human nature for my cousin to be afraid.

After decades, the elders are gone, Zhao then regretted it, blamed her, even hated her, who can really interfere in the affairs of their couple's room?
So this is still an unsolved knot.

The knot in my heart is so easy to untie.

Jiang Wan suddenly thought of Abbot Jueming.

The abbot is indeed an eminent monk.

When she followed Zhao Xing to the Daxiangguo Temple, he could tell at a glance that she was a person who had taken her life against the sky and was reborn. She was burdened with sins and had a rough life.

Jiang Wan's eyes brightened: "Second brother will accompany cousin to Daxiangguo Temple again?"

Zhao Xing didn't know, so he went in: "Why do you still want to go to Daxiangguo Temple? What's the matter for you?"

She shook her head again and again and said no: "It's not me, it's my cousin! Abbot Jueming is an eminent monk who has attained the Tao. If I can get a word from him, maybe my cousin will figure it out?
If we persuade her, she will definitely not listen.

What my cousin meant was that he didn't ask us to persuade him any more.

It must be that my cousin doesn't like to hear it anymore, and my cousin doesn't want to disturb her, so he told us not to say it.

Jueming Abbot is an outsider and has nothing to do with anyone. He just asked him to make a comment to explain away his cousin.

Of course, if even the abbot says that my cousin really has a bad life and can't bear to get married, then we might as well persuade my cousin as soon as possible, let him give up his heart and live his life well. "

Naturally, she would not tell Zhao Xing what happened back then.

But Zhao Xing keenly sensed something was wrong.

He frowned and pinched Jiang Wan's palm: "Zhuzhu, when Hu Kezhen was involved in the case two years ago, I accompanied you to the Daxiangguo Temple, and you went to see Master Abbot alone. What did he tell you?"

Jiang Wan's heart sank: "That's fine, why are you talking about what happened more than two years ago?"

"You didn't believe this before, and there was really no good way to do it that day, so I made this bad plan and took you to the Daxiangguo Temple to ask the abbot to comment. If it wasn't for what he said to you at that time, and it was right, you wouldn't I will suddenly think of him when it comes to my cousin."

Zhao Xing looked down at her, staring at her with burning eyes, refusing to move his gaze away for a moment: "I understand what you mean, if what Abbot Jueming said is good, he would naturally use this to persuade his cousin, but I thought again, How to persuade? She must have believed what the abbot said?
There must be someone who has experienced it personally and can confirm to her that what the abbot said should be believed, and even regarded as a golden rule, so that she can feel relieved and slowly accept Zhao Ran.

If what the abbot said was not good, Zhao Ran would give up. There is nothing to say.

But the question is, Zhuzhu, whose personal experience? "

He is really not easy to fool.

Jiang Wan's small face collapsed: "You can't pretend you don't know, since I didn't tell you, I definitely don't want to tell you, I still have to ask."

"It's been two years, why don't people ask?"

Zhao Xing was also helpless: "When you came out of the abbot's abode, I saw that you looked different, so I asked you, but you perfunctory passed it, and for two years, I didn't ask you a single word.

Now that the dust has settled on a lot of things, we are living a peaceful and clean life, so you don't want to tell me? "

He sighed, and started to retreat, rubbing Jiang Wan's palms, and made a concession: "If you really don't want to say it, forget it, I don't have to force you to tell me, it's just that you are ready to take it." These go to solve cousin, but I can't even tell."

He sighed more and more loudly, and finally let go of Jiang Wan's little hand: "I'm going to find Zhao Ran now, and I'll take him to Daxiangguo Temple, but I still have to report to the elders, but you don't want to?" Let me tell you about what happened two years ago, I have to find a way to cover it up for you, just take it as my idea, lest the elders chase after you and ask questions."

After he finished speaking, he really wanted to get up.

Jiang Wanming knew that he did it on purpose, but he couldn't help but soften his heart.

The little hand raised slightly, grabbed his wrist, and pulled him back: "What are you doing, you want to know, and you want to show me this picture again, please beg me a few words in a nice voice, and I will tell you Are you there yet?"

She pursed her lips, and pulled Zhao Xing to sit back beside her: "It's nothing special, but the master abbot said that I was also a person with a bad life, and I was destined to be a catastrophe. If I can't break or stand, I have to experience it. But the rest of my life went smoothly.

Although I don't really believe it, but when I heard such words at that time, I must have murmured in my heart, and that's why you saw my complexion changed.

Later, after going through so many things, until now I have achieved a positive result with you, and whether it is the Zheng family or Zhao Yi, after accidents happened one after another, I suddenly realized what Abbot Jueming said about not breaking or not standing. I completely believed it! "

(End of this chapter)