Back to the era with space supplies

Si Ningning came down from the attic before dinner was served, recombed her hair, washed her face with water in a slow manner to refresh herself, and when Huo Lang served the food on the table, she just hung the clean towel on the washbasin rack and wiped her face. Sit on the table with your hands.

There are five people at a table, Si Ningning, Huo Lang, two little ones, and Si Zhennan.

Unlike the seat under the table when he came here, this time Si Zhennan sat in the main seat. Maybe Huo Lang didn't like Si Zhennan in his heart, but he was Si Ningning's father after all.

When Si Ningning fell into agitation, there were some things she couldn't take care of, so at this time, Huo Lang would help her take care of things, such as the respect Si Zhennan should have at the moment.

If Si Zhennan had just arrived in the afternoon, Si Ningning might have resisted, but after an afternoon of adjustments, at this moment, Si Ningning's state of mind was like a calm lake without any waves, and indirectly, Si Ningning Ning Ning also approved of Huo Lang's arrangement.

This matter seems subtle, but in fact, many things can be seen, such as Huo Lang's self-cultivation and upbringing, and Huo Lang's comfort and guidance to her in behavior, as well as complementing her own deficiencies in various aspects...

Si Ningning is very aware of her own situation, and knows that when facing Si Zhennan, no matter how calm she is, it is difficult to make a proper move, so in this regard, she is very grateful to Huo Lang, and she is even more convinced that she did not choose the wrong person.

Si Ningning looked calm, but there was less talking and laughing than usual during the dinner. The two cubs obviously felt that the atmosphere at home was not right. After scanning around the table, they looked at each other, and obediently lowered their heads to eat without making a sound.

A large table of people finished their meal in silence, and when they helped Huo Lang clean up the dishes, Si Ningning returned to the main room, looked at Si Zhennan who was quite at a loss and rubbed his lips and said, "Since you're here, , then chatter."

Si Zhennan was taken aback for a moment, then shock and tension swept over his entire face in an instant, and he stood up almost immediately, "Okay, okay."

Si Ningning ignored his embarrassment and raised his hand, signaling him to go to the backyard.

After Si Zhennan left, Si Ningning made tea in a leisurely manner. Huo Lang kept silently paying attention to her situation. Seeing her making tea, he immediately cleared the small kitchen table and moved it to the backyard to set it up , and placed two small chairs.

Since the father and daughter want to chat, they should sit down and talk calmly, and make it clear at once.

Si Ningning came from the main room, just as Huo Lang put the chair back to the kitchen, the two of them looked at each other, noticing his actions, Si Ningning cast a look that seemed to be resentment or resentment, Huo Lang laughed, and took advantage of the situation in her hair. She rubbed it lightly, "Go ahead, speak well, I'll wait for you in front."

"Ah."

Si Ningning nodded slightly, and crossed the threshold of the kitchen with two steaming enamel jars.

When Huo Lang saw her walking towards Si Zhennan, he was actually a little worried, but he felt that since he had come to this point, he should give Si Ningning enough time and space to deal with this matter.

After hesitating for a while, Huo Lang staggered a few steps and went to the main room.

In the backyard, Si Ningning handed one of the enamel jars to Si Zhennan, while he held the other enamel jar, shoulder to shoulder with Si Zhennan across the small table, staring idly at the bamboo forest circling around the backyard.

She didn't speak, but Si Zhennan couldn't sit still, and called her name first: "Ningning..."

Si Zhennan had ghosts in his heart, but the main source of his guilt was his lack of company during the journey of his daughter growing up.

As for wishing to have a man and a son, he always felt that this was a common idea and wish among all men and families.

He never felt it was wrong.

Indeed, in a traditional family, winning by quantity is an obsession that is almost pathological. It is indeed difficult to characterize it, but Si Zhennan still seems to be unaware of the big and small mistakes he has accumulated along the way. , is the biggest factor that ultimately led to the current stalemate.

Si Zhennan lowered his head, kneading and rubbing his big palms unconsciously, as if he wanted to relieve the psychological pressure through these small movements.

He wanted to reach a reconciliation with his daughter, but he didn't know how to do it. It seemed that all he could do and think of was: "I'm sorry."

Thinking so, he said so.

"Ningning, I've been sorry for you all these years..."

Si Zhennan said, his eyes turned red, and his voice choked up again, "The last time you left Beijing, I went back and reflected on it. I have paid too little attention to you these years, and you have been wronged. Dad is sorry. you……"

In fact, Si Zhennan had never dared to seek his daughter's forgiveness, nor did he have the face to speak up, but at this moment, the father and daughter were alone in this small courtyard, and Si Ningning was in a stable mood, and poured him tea. For a moment, Si Zhennan made a slight mistake.

Si Zhennan thought it was Si Ningning's soft attitude, so after a few times of apologizing, he hesitated, and finally opened his mouth with guilt and expectation:

"Ningning, can you give Dad a chance? Dad, Dad must make it up to you, can you? Can you?"

Si Zhennan is probably an emotional person, usually indifferent and indifferent, but once he is substituted into a certain role, his own words are enough to move him. At the same time, he couldn't restrain himself from falling down.

But Si Ningning is not a three-year-old child, and he won't be fooled by a few words or a piece of candy.

"call……"

Holding the enamel jar, she took a breath, the hot air from the sugar water was lingering, making Si Ningning's vision blurry. She blew lightly a few times, and probably felt that the temperature was about the same, so she brought the enamel jar to her lips and carefully took two sips.

The spring evening is still cold, and the warm sugar water slides down the mouth and into the abdomen, making the lungs feel comfortable.

"I have received your apology."

After listening to Si Zhennan's babbling and confession for a while, Si Ningning let out a sigh of relief, put his hand holding the enamel jar between his knees, and said slowly and calmly:

"Before I went to the countryside, I might give you an answer of forgiveness or no forgiveness, but now, I am not qualified."

The lost life will not come back, she is not qualified to forgive the former Si Ningning.

Hearing her torture, Si Zhennan mistakenly thought that she was still angry and refused to forgive him, and his expression became heavy and painful again, "Ningning, I..."

Si Zhennan didn't have time to say anything, but was interrupted by Si Ningning, "Just because I can sit down and talk to you calmly, doesn't mean I forgive you."

Si Ningning turned her head to look at Si Zhennan, her expression was calm, more like indifference than calm.

It was just that unemotional glance that successfully suppressed Si Zhennan who was about to speak.

"I'm just curious."

"...Huh? What?"

"Can I ask a question?"

"...Mmm." Si Zhennan nodded stiffly, "Say it."

Si Ningning breathed another sigh of relief, looked away at the hazy crescent moon in the distance, and asked the question that had been puzzling him all along:

"As a father, you will abuse your own daughter, or allow others to abuse your daughter, what kind of state of mind is it?"

"Is it true loathing? Or hate?"

If Si Zhennan in the 70s chose to ignore it because of selfishness, what about her father in the 21st century?

The world's top [-], with a lot of wealth, yes, he has no son.

But he was already divorced, and he could remarry if he wanted a son, but he didn't, he kept himself clean, and never had another woman by his side...

Why is that?

Do that to her.

"Ningning..."

Si Zhennan thought that Si Ningning was still talking about those things before, and he hesitated to explain, but Si Ningning didn't give him a chance to speak.

Wiping his face to hide his sadness, Si Ningning took a deep breath and continued to speak calmly:
"I used to empathize from your point of view, but the more I think about you, the more I feel sorry for myself."

"I've been thinking about it for many nights, but I can't figure it out. Such a cute and small child, with your hands full of sincerity and eyes full of attachment, how can you be so determined to trample on her again and again, and push her away again and again?"

"Whether it's love, hate, or adults' entanglements... mixed in, what did she do wrong?"

Si Ningning said to himself, it seemed that he was facing Si Zhennan, but it seemed that time and space were intertwined, and the person sitting in front of him was no longer Si Zhennan, but the man in a suit and leather shoes in the 21st century, with a distant and indifferent expression Sifu.

She already had her own life, so it was pointless to dwell on the past, but Si Ningning had never vented out the resentment and resentment accumulated in her heart since she was a child.

And only this time.

She can't pass the test, but after this time, she will bid farewell to her sensitive and fragile self forever.

The past scarred her, but the past really didn't matter that much.

What matters is the front, the future.

She will have her own children in the future, and she will stand in the same position as her father. She will become that role, but she will never become a person like her father...

Si Zhennan was always looking for an opportunity to speak, but he couldn't say a word until the end of the topic.

The daughter didn't say that she would forgive him, but she said that she would reach a reconciliation with him, but the premise of reaching a reconciliation is to keep a distance from each other and not interfere with each other's life.

When it is necessary to meet, they will meet, and when it is not necessary, don't force it.

This result did not meet Si Zhennan's expectation, but it was much better than the worst result he had imagined when he came here.

Although it was not satisfactory, Si Zhennan still chose to agree.

Or, he could only agree.

If he had the slightest protest, the result would be the loss of this daughter...

Si Zhennan couldn't accept such a result.

Staying at Huo's house for one night, Si Zhennan quietly counted the money tickets he carried with him, leaving five yuan to buy the train ticket and the cost of the return journey, and the other thick stack of more than 200 yuan, which he rolled up and put under the pillow on the bed , It can be regarded as the start-up capital for the life of the young couple.

If the money is given directly, his stubborn daughter will definitely not accept it.

After hiding the money, Si Zhennan breathed a sigh of relief and slept peacefully all night without dreams.

After waking up the next day, during breakfast break, Si Zhennan proposed this trip.

Si Ningning didn't keep her, and when Huo Lang sent Si Zhennan away, she didn't go to see him off either.

She was calm and composed, but Si Zhennan was not as calm as her. When he stepped out of the small courtyard of the Huo family, Si Zhennan couldn't help turning around.

Even if the relationship is not close, how can there be an old saying?
Blood is thicker than water.

"Ning Ning, Dad is gone..."

When we parted, Si Zhennan felt a strong reluctance in his heart. He endured and endured, and tears began to glisten in his vicissitudes of life, "You and Huo Lang will go back and have a look if you have time, the door of the house will always be open for you."

Si Ningning didn't want to answer the conversation at first, but after thinking about it, he let out a long breath and deliberately mocked: "I am the head of the family, so you can't open the door if you want to?"

Si Zhennan froze for a moment, then rubbed the back of his head with a dry smile.

Si Ningning didn't want to delay any longer, so he waved his hands and urged, "Let's go, let's go."

Before Si Zhennan and Huo Lang could respond, she turned around and entered the room first.

A few minutes passed, or maybe half an hour passed, and Si Ningning sat in the backyard, lost in thought, not knowing what to do.

The two cubs were by her side, one on the left and the other on the right, seeming to sense that she was in a bad mood. Sanae and Hegu hugged her arms one by one, and put their little faces on her arms affectionately:
"Si Ningning/Sister Ning, don't be unhappy."

"We'll be with you, and so will Big Brother."

"We are family and will always be with you, always together."

Si Ningning was in a trance for a moment, and his thoughts were suddenly pulled back.

Children's childish words are the most healing, and Si Ningning's mood gradually became clearer.

After hugging two cubs, one of them smelled sweet on the face, she regained her vitality, raised her fist and gave orders:

"Okay, have you had enough fun since the Chinese New Year? Have you finished your homework? Have you folded the quilt you got up this morning? And the duck down that was dried last time? I will check them one by one in a while!"

"Ahh! Wait a minute! Wait a minute and check again!"

The two little ones laughed dryly at first, and when they heard that they needed to be checked, they quickly ran away to make amends in time.

"Sanae, your quilt is not folded properly! Brother said, you need to fold it into neat tofu cubes!!"

The quiet courtyard became lively again. Standing in the warm morning light, Si Ningning heard the sound of footsteps coming from the attic, and a bright smile suddenly appeared on the corner of her mouth.

Author nonsense time:
No one is perfect, human beings will have weaknesses and weaknesses. I never think that Huo Lang and Si Ningning have a place where they can't be human.

Some people say that in the ending, Huo Lang is stumbling in the secular world. I think it is ridiculous. "Mission" may have a tendency to kidnap, but if Huo Lang really gives up his mission for his own selfish desires and for "love", then in my heart, this is the only way out. It's a collapsed character.

Because it is not necessarily right to simply like and love being together, but if it is love and can complement each other in the process of getting along, and guide the other party to become better, then it must be right.

The girls read rationally, and A Yao didn't realize how good her writing was, but there are many places in the text that are indeed worth pondering.There is never only "love" in this world, there are many other new things, don't just look at the appearance of everything, especially in life, beware of being deceived!