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Chapter 150 149. The Happiness of Kurose Izumi
In the evening, after a big dinner as usual, everyone packed their clothes and went to take a shower.

The difference is that Kurose Izumi is tired of the hot springs and went to the bathroom alone.

The bathroom for living alone is huge, like an ordinary room, and the bathtub is big enough to accommodate four people!

He soaked in the bathtub and opened the window. Outside was a secluded forest, and he could see lights in the distance.

"What should we play tomorrow?"

After Kurose Izumi muttered something to himself, he raised his head and closed his eyes, letting go of his thoughts.

And his thoughts inevitably wandered to things after the trip.

It is necessary to go back to Ogijima with Chirei Shiraishi to meet his parents.

This is not only to prove his heart to his parents and Shiraishi Qianre, but also for her.

Kurose Izumi thought she could understand the warmth of family affection and the importance of bonds between people.

Perhaps, Shiraishi Chirei still won't understand, and won't make any changes, but as long as there is a slight possibility, Kurose Izumi will make it happen.

He hoped that Baishi Qianlian would no longer maintain that indifferent attitude towards others and even his parents.

He sincerely hopes that Baishi Qianlian can reveal her true self, because she is so gentle and beautiful.

Izumi Kurose said that he is the person who loves Chirei Shiraishi the most in the world. This is beyond doubt and beyond doubt.

He is the only one who can put himself in the shoes of Qianrei Shiraishi, to understand, tolerate, love and care for her.

In front of Kurose Izumi, Shiraishi Chirei can be a willful child, act like a baby, and do what she wants.

He will always be relying on, standing there quietly forever, waiting for her.

And how could Shiraishi Qianren not like him like this?

In the eyes of others, Kurose Izumi may appear mediocre, thinking that he is not worthy of Shiraishi Chirei.

But in Shiraishi Qianrei's heart, she is the only one who is not worthy of Kurose Izumi.

Kurose Izumi is more perfect than her, if his personality charm is known, then everyone will be impressed by him.

Therefore, during the Cold War, Chirei Shiraishi was so worried that Izumi Kurose would be snatched away by others.

In fact, she is not lonely, powerful, nor does she need anyone.

It is she who needs Kurose Izumi, and it is she who cannot live without Kurose Izumi.

She doesn't think Kurose Izumi can't live without her, because she can't imagine being separated from Kurose Izumi even for a moment.

Without Kurose Izumi, Shiraishi Chirei's life would not be able to go on.

The color in front of her eyes will become dim, her heart will be wiped out, and the self that she finally wanted to reveal will be dusty again.

During the cold war with Kurose Izumi, the only support for Chirei Shiraishi was the atonement and the slightest hope of reconciliation.

When she was rejected and deliberately alienated, she was good at disguising and couldn't hide her sadness;

When she realized that she would be abandoned, she, who had never cried since she was a child, burst into tears, begging like a helpless child;

The night that made Kurose Izumi sleepless, she also had sleepless nights, blamed herself, and regretted it.

The vortex of emotion invaded her, making her unbearable and almost collapsed.

Sometimes, she can't forgive herself more than Kurose Izumi.

Hurt the one you love, but you have to hypocritically hint to yourself, this is for the sake of being together better in the future.

Whenever thinking of these things, Shiraishi Chiren would always feel inexplicably guilty and sad.

In her heart, this is a scar that cannot be erased.

Even if she was forgiven by Kurose Izumi, she could not forgive or be relieved.

She can only carry this sense of guilt forever, stay with Kurose Izumi well, and love him well.

This is the sin she committed and she needs to make up for it.

……

After taking a bath, Kurose Izumi put on a black bathrobe and took a pleasant walk in the villa, enjoying the coolness of the evening breeze.

His mind was empty, completely devoid of the complications of being in the bathroom.

I have already thought about what I should think, so I can only do my best.

No matter how bad it is, isn't there still him?

If Shiraishi Qianrei can't open her heart to other people and show her true side, Kurose Izumi is willing to accompany her all the time and be her only support.

She hates everyone, and that's okay.

Kurose Izumi will be on her side and help her hate everyone.

Perhaps, this behavior is wrong, but he doesn't care.

As long as Baishi Qianrei is happy.

"spring."

When Izumi Kurose was walking leisurely on the cobblestone path, Chirei Shiraishi suddenly called softly from behind.

Turning his head, he could see Shiraishi Qianrei in a white bathrobe standing behind him, a scent gushed into his breath along the wind.

"Good evening, Qianlian." Kurose Izumi greeted with a smile, stepped forward to hold her hand, "Let's go together?"

"it is good."

Shiraishi Qianrei nodded slightly, and slightly clenched the hands intertwined with Kurose Izumi's ten fingers, with a touch of joy lingering in her heart.

They walked forward quietly like this, only the fireflies twinkling with lights and the long chirping of crickets accompanied them along the way.

As they walked, Kurose Izumi suddenly broke the silence and asked an inexplicable question: "Qianlian, what do you think happiness is?"

Baishi Qianlian didn't answer this question immediately, but pondered for a while before saying: "Being with Quan is happiness."

"It's very Qianlian's style." Kurose Izumi smiled and didn't say anything more.

Baishi Qianlian seemed to feel that he was unusual tonight, so he asked: "Quan, what's wrong with you?"

"Nothing." Izumi Kurose shook his head lightly, "Qianlian, do you know what my happiness is?"

"I have no idea."

"My happiness is probably because I really think about one person."

Unknowingly, the two walked into the depths of the jungle, and the surroundings became quiet, and the emptiness was replaced by lush green trees.

When they walked out of the green forest, there was a high ground in front of them. Standing on it, they could see the whole picture of Karuizawa.

Tonight, the cloud is very thin, the holy and cold moon hangs high in the sky, and the bright moonlight pours down, tenderly attached to the ground.

Looking at the distant scenery, Kurose Izumi unconsciously said, "It's really magnificent."

After all, he sat down on the soft and fragrant grass, and patted the empty seat beside him, motioning Shiraishi Qianrei to sit down.

Seeing this, Shiraishi Qianrei, who was a little confused, could only sit down obediently.

She didn't know what happened to Kurose Izumi tonight, but she felt uneasy in her heart.

"Shall we continue the topic just now?" Kurose Izumi looked forward, his voice softened.

"Qianlian, do you know why I said "happiness is for the sake of others"? "

Chirei Shiraishi didn't speak, but quietly waited for Izumi Kurose's follow-up.

She knew that she didn't have to answer now, she just needed to listen quietly.

Sure enough, Kurose Izumi then started nagging on his own.

"My happiness is very simple, such as I went shopping today."

"I bought ingredients, shampoo, drinks, some daily necessities, it's a simple routine, right?"

"Haha, this has nothing to do with happiness at all, even I want to complain about it myself."

"But... ever since I got together with Qian Lian, I began to think, what should I buy today?"

"I ate curry yesterday, so do you want to change the taste today?"

"Qian Lian doesn't like salty food, but sweet food, so I have to think about making sweeter dishes."

"After buying the ingredients, I will think that Qian Lian will be happy when she sees that I bought her favorite dishes."

"When I came back to my senses, I found myself thinking about Qian Lian all the time."

"At that moment, I felt an incredible feeling in my heart, because before I met Qian Lian, I hadn't thought about who for a long time."

"I thought that during the time I was studying in Tokyo, it would be like a pool of stagnant water, without waves or meaning, just existing."

"To be honest, I'm about to give up on myself, so I've been living a casual life, and I can do whatever I feel comfortable with."

"But after meeting Qian Lian, I suddenly understood that when I really think about others, I feel so satisfied and happy in my heart."

This is Kurose Izumi's happiness, very plain and inexplicable.

But this is the happiness he has recently understood, and it is what he is after.

Before he said that his original intention of writing novels was not happy, but he was wrong.

For the sake of the family, it is actually a very happy and satisfying thing to share the pressure of parents and hear their gratifying laughter and praise.

Happiness is often like this, easily overlooked.

People's demand for happiness is not high, but the definition is too high.

The time of laughing with someone is happy and fulfilling.

It's just that as time goes by, the bitterness and helplessness of life fade away, so that I feel unhappy.

People often miss the past, because that time was happy, so they miss it.

……

After hearing this, Baishi Qianlian closed her eyes, and after a long silence, said in a low voice: "...Quan, you are really amazing."

She can't express such feelings and happiness, nor can she discover them.

"It's nothing, everyone's definition of happiness is different." Kurose Izumi smiled softly, and turned his gaze to Shiraishi Chirei.

He put his hand on Baishi Qianlian's head, stroked it gently, and said softly: "So... Qianlian, you have to work hard to discover and grasp happiness by yourself, instead of waiting for it to come to you. "

"If your happiness is me, I am very happy, because I am also very happy to be with you."

"But my happiness can't be entirely because of you, because I also become happy when I am with my friends and family."

"I think Qian Lian will also try to find other happiness, even a little bit, so I will be very happy."

Chirei Shiraishi rubbed her head against Kurose Izumi's hand affectionately, leaned her body in his arms naturally, and began to act like a baby.

"Quan, I will. But please stand by my side, encourage me, and let me work hard."

"Of course." Kurose Izumi smiled happily, and the movements of his hands became more and more gentle, "I am your lover, the person who loves you the most in the world, and I will definitely stand by your side and encourage you It's yours."

"Um……"

Shiraishi Qianlian closed her eyes, showing a reassuring smile.

Sure enough, Kurose Izumi was gentler than her and better than everyone in the world.

She who doesn't know how to love, was taught to love by him.

She, who was trapped in the abyss of self, was also redeemed because of him.

The affection for him is really, really, too strong.

It cannot be expressed in words, nor can it be expressed in actions.

"Quan, I love you, and I am also... the person who loves you the most in the world."

Shiraishi Qianlian couldn't help but raised her head, offered her soft cherry lips, and kissed him greedily.

If she didn't vent her feelings, she might go crazy.

Kurose Izumi closed his eyes quietly, accepting her sincere and warm heart.

The bright moonlight, attached to the two of them, was flowing like a spring.

The world of the two began to change, everything disappeared and became blank.

And when all is reduced to nothing, only they remain.

"Qian Lian, it's great that we can meet."

"I'm starting to feel lucky that I'm a reborn."

"I must have come here to meet you, for sure."

On that day, Kurose Izumi gave the answer that troubled Shiraishi Chirei for a certain period of time.

He confessed to her, confessed openly, revealed himself.

　I recently read a light novel titled "I Did It Again, The Same Dream".

　　It's a very good book, I have learned from it, and I recommend reading it to fellow book friends.

　　
　
(End of this chapter)