The same table is actually my sick reader

Chapter 125 124. I have loved you for a long time without telling everyone
"Teacher, how is he?"

In the infirmary, Kurose Izumi was lying on the bed, and standing beside him was the health care teacher - Shiina Hiroshi.

And the person who asked was naturally Makoto Hirasawa.

He looked at Shiina Hiroshi nervously, and his heart immediately hung high.

"It's okay, just take a rest."

Having said that, Shiina Hiru raised his head and looked away from Kurose Izumi.

Instead, he looked at the other person - Shiraishi Qianrei.

"You have to let him rest, so you can only leave one. I still have something to do, so I will leave for a while, and you can decide for yourself."

As she spoke, she stood up, put her hands in the pockets of her white coat, and her black high-heeled shoes made a soft sound when she stepped on the ground.

After Shiina Haru left, the two who were left in the infirmary fell into a brief silence.

It was Shiraishi Qianrei who spoke first: "You, what do you mean by letting Quan transfer to another school?"

"Literally." Hirasawa Makoto said indifferently, his eyes kept looking at Kurose Izumi who was lying on the side.

"Literally?" Baishi Qianlian suddenly laughed, "Don't you think that I have gone too far? Ping Ze Zhen Wu."

At the end of the sentence, her tone became cold, and there was anger in her eyes.

Shinwu Hirasawa repeatedly leaked secrets, but she didn't care.

Because Kurose Izumi would be embarrassed if he really wanted to do something to him, and he would never forgive her.

But Shintake Hirasawa's act of persuading Kurose Izumi to transfer to another school made her unable to bear it anymore.

"What's too much?" Hirasawa Shintake's face was calm, unmoved at all, "Izumi will only feel uncomfortable when he gets along with you, so why can't I let him transfer?"

Shiraishi Qianlian clenched her hands tightly and shouted uncontrollably, "Why? Because I'm his girlfriend!"

"so what?"

Hirasawa Shintake frowned slightly, glanced at Kurose Izumi who was lying on the bed beside him, and was relieved when he found that he was still sleeping soundly.

Then, he went on to say: "If you have anything to say, just go out and say it, don't disturb Quan."

After Hirasawa Shintake finished speaking, he walked out of the infirmary first.

Before Shiraishi Qianrei left, she turned her head and glanced at Kurose Izumi, then retracted her gaze, and walked out right behind.

They came to the corridor, looked at each other, and stood facing each other.

Because it was time for class, there was no one there, only silence and a depressing atmosphere enveloped it.

Shiraishi Qianrei looked at Hirasawa Makoto who was a head taller than him, and asked calmly: "You want to destroy everything about me, don't you?"

This tranquility gave rise to an illusion.

It seemed that the person who couldn't restrain his emotions in the infirmary just now was not her.

"I just don't want Quan to continue to suffer." Hirasawa Matake's face was also very calm.

"Ha ha."

Shiraishi Qianlian smiled sarcastically, and continued: "Love each other deeply, but it's painful to not be together."

"Hirasawa, you won't understand this pain, but if Izumi transfers to another school and cuts off contact with me, I will let you understand."

"In order not to aggravate Quan's pain, I choose to forgive you, what about you?"

"How do you do it?"

"You induced Quan again and again, making him farther and farther away from me."

"What exactly do you want?!"

"Do you have to force me to destroy everything about you too, so that you are satisfied?!"

At the end of the conversation, Baishi Qianlian's violent emotions resurfaced again, making her want to be desperate.

If she lost Kurose Izumi completely, then she had nothing left to lose.

She will do everything to get revenge on Hirasawa and make him regret what he did.

"..."

Shintake Hirasawa looked at Chirei Shiraishi silently, as if hesitating.

It's not a threat to her.

"You are ashamed of me. You clearly promised me not to tell Quan the truth, but you hinted repeatedly."

"I didn't care about it, because I didn't want to do everything wrong and embarrass everyone."

"But you are really going too far, and it's making me more and more unbearable."

"Pirasawa Makoto, you are really too selfish, and you have never considered Quan's thoughts, not at all!"

Yes.

None of them really considered Kurose Izumi's thoughts.

They said that their actions were all for Kurose Izumi, but in reality?

Everyone is hiding from him, not revealing everything to him.

Is it really good for Kurose Izumi to transfer schools?

Hirasawa Shintake didn't understand.

He was at a loss.

He also just wanted Kurose Izumi to get out of the pain and make a clean break as soon as possible.

The so-called long-term pain is worse than short-term pain, isn't this the truth?
But the pain of being separated from Shiraishi Qianrei is beyond words.

For Kurose Izumi, this was a fatal injury, like an injury that tore him in half and made him no longer whole.

Separation is fatal.

For each other.

They love each other deeply, but they can't love each other, which is the most tormenting.

"...Okay, I am ashamed of you."

Hirasawa Makoto, who was silent for a long time, turned and left with a gloomy expression.

Perhaps, it is a good policy not to interfere with Kurose Izumi and Shiraishi Chirei's affairs.

During that period of silence, he thought about whether it was right to transfer Kurose Izumi to another school.

... This is beyond his ability to judge.

Shiraishi Qianrei, who was standing at the door of the infirmary, closed her eyes, took a deep breath, and tried her best to suppress the surging emotions.

Then, she walked into the infirmary.

"spring……"

Sitting on the side of the bed, Shiraishi Chirei looked at Kurose Izumi with her eyes closed and a melancholy expression, and couldn't help stretching out her hand.

She caressed his side face as before, but felt the touch of the palm, so illusory.

If Kurose Izumi wakes up at this moment, then her hand must not stay.

But before, no matter how long she stayed, Kurose Izumi was willing.

"Quan, how can I get your forgiveness..."

……

At five o'clock in the afternoon, the unconscious Kurose Izumi moved his fingers slightly.

Immediately, he regained consciousness and slowly opened his eyes.

What caught the eye was the white ceiling, followed by the faint smell of disinfectant.

"Quan, you're awake."

When Kurose Izumi was still a little confused, a soft call sounded in his ear, which woke him up suddenly.

He turned his head sideways, opened his eyes slightly and looked at Qianrei Shiraishi, and was speechless for a while.

"Quan, are you alright?"

"..."

"Quan, you fell into a coma because you were too tired. If you feel uncomfortable, you can rest for a while?"

Shiraishi Qianrei said with concern, and couldn't help reaching out her hand, wanting to touch Kurose Izumi.

But when she just stretched out her hand, Kurose Izumi glanced aside and said in a low voice, "...Why are you here? Where is Zhenwu."

Shiraishi Qianlian was stunned for a moment, and disappointment could not be restrained in her eyes.

She withdrew her hand and said in a tone of frustration, "He's going back first, I'll stay and take care of you."

"..."

Kurose Izumi remained silent, turned his body away, turned his back to Shiraishi Chirei, and did not look at her.

"Quan, do you want to transfer?" Shiraishi Qianren asked softly, "Can you tell me, is this true?"

"...How do you know? Did Zhenwu say that?"

"Sure enough, do you want to transfer schools..." Shiraishi Qianrei didn't answer Kurose Izumi, but murmured absentmindedly.

"...Even if you transfer to another school, so what?" Kurose Izumi said in a low voice, but his expression was so unbearable and lonely.

Transferring another school meant that no matter how difficult it was for him to see Qianrei Shiraishi, there was almost no connection with her.

If he really decides to transfer schools, it means that he is determined to cut everything off.

"I... will be very lonely." Shiraishi Qianlian replied truthfully.

"……Is it."

"Quan, don't transfer schools, okay?" Baishi Qianlian said softly, her tone mixed with pleading.

"If I don't transfer schools, you will feel uncomfortable seeing me. I think we..."

Kurose Izumi had just made up his mind, and when he was about to say the most decisive words, Shiraishi Qianren suddenly interrupted: "No, don't! Izumi, don't say any more!"

"Quan, don't transfer schools, even if I watch you, don't leave me, okay?"

"Didn't you say that you would not leave me? You promised me."

Hearing the helpless words behind him, Kurose Izumi couldn't bear to close his eyes, his heart was full of impatience.

"Quan, I know you still can't forgive me, but I will try my best to make you forgive me, and I will make it up to you, you let me..."

As if he couldn't bear it any longer, Izumi Kurose turned around suddenly, faced Qianrei Shiraishi, and interrupted her: "How do you want me to forgive you?"

"I...don't know." Shiraishi Qianrei clenched her hands tightly, not daring to look into Kurose Izumi's eyes.

Because... at this moment, his eyes are full of sadness and despair from being deceived.

Kurose Izumi said with a trembling voice, "Why did you do this? It's... unnecessary, isn't it?"

Didn't Shiraishi Chirei already get what she wanted?
Why do you still want to keep him like this and show reluctance to him?

That's just—so despicable.

This made Kurose Izumi's determination, which took several days to build, suddenly collapsed in just a few minutes.

He couldn't speak harshly in front of the sad and helpless Shiraishi Chirei, and he couldn't say the decision that hurt both of them.

"Because I love you."

Again.

He used that sincere gesture again to express that false love.

Kurose Izumi didn't know what to believe, Shiraishi Chirei who had been deceiving him and keeping him in the dark.

Even if he forced himself to believe in Baishi Qianlian's love, there was still a grudge in his heart, and he still couldn't let go.

"Qian... Shiraishi, don't say this again, how can you tell me to believe in you and your love." Kurose Izumi's expression was low, and his voice was intermittent, loud and sometimes small.

"Quan, these two days, when you were thinking of me, I was thinking of you too..."

Shiraishi Qianrei ignored Kurose Izumi's change of address, which is a trivial matter at this moment.

Next, she wants to express her heart, trying to impress Kurose Izumi so that he can believe it.

"Every night, I toss and turn, wondering what you're thinking, whether it's difficult to sleep, whether it will be painful."

"I know, you think I don't love you, and everything is just to rewrite the ending of the novel."

"No, this is the only thing I can confirm - I love you, and it's because I love you that I dare not reveal that I am Kuchiki Toko."

"It's true that I want to be with you, and it's true that I love you."

"From beginning to end, without your knowledge, I may have liked you for a long, long time."

(End of this chapter)