The same table is actually my sick reader

Chapter 122 121. The distance between them is forever
At 09:30 in the morning, inside Pyeongtaek Prefecture.

The warm sunlight shone in through the slightly open window, reflecting on Kurose Izumi who was lying on the bed with a tired expression.

As if feeling glaring, he frowned, turned around, and buried his head in the quilt.

After a few minutes like this, Kurose Izumi's consciousness woke up, and his eyes slowly opened.

He poked his head out of the quilt, squinted his eyes to adapt to the light coming in from the window, and his thoughts became clearer a little bit.

The pain of tossing and turning last night is also slowly recalling.

Kurose Izumi sighed, and muttered to himself: "I really hope, all this is a dream..."

He got up from the bed, took out the casual clothes he had prepared from the closet and changed into them, and then opened the bedroom door, ready to wash up.

slam-la-

After the door was opened, Kurose Izumi saw a woman in kimono and wooden shoes standing quietly at the door, as if waiting for something.

"Master, good morning." The woman said hello first.

"Well, good morning." Kurose Izumi nodded slightly and greeted back.

Immediately, he asked again: "Where is the bathroom?"

"Please let me take you there, this is also the young master's order."

"Then trouble you."

Led by Feng Zi, Kurose Izumi washed up and was taken to the main room for breakfast.

Feng Zi stood aside and asked aloud: "Master, do you want to go to school later, or do you have any plans?"

Kuroseizumi ate his breakfast, said after a silence, "...stay here for now, I don't have the intention of going to school today."

"I understand." Feng Zi nodded lightly, "Before the young master returns, please feel free to tell me what you need."

"Okay, I'll trouble you then."

After saying this, Izumi Kurose ate his breakfast quietly, and Bongko didn't speak again.

He knew Fengzi Hirasawa and had met him several times.

When I came here as a guest before, when I asked Hirasawa Makoto to play, she was responsible for the reception.

When they first met, Kurose Izumi thought Fengzi was Hirasawa's mother, and made an oolong.

No way, who made Feng Zi look very elegant, with the charm of a noble lady?
Well, the actual situation is that Fengzi is actually only 27 years old, not yet married, and has no emotional experience.

She was adopted by Hirasawa's parents since she was a child, and her abilities are also outstanding and excellent, so she became a royal family.

——I learned this from Shintake Hirasawa.

At that time, Hirasawa Shintake also teased Kurose Izumi, saying that he likes the Nian Shang Department, and maybe he can consider Bongzi.

In that way, they will really become brothers!
It's a pity that Kurose Izumi likes the flowers of the high mountains in the year is right, but it doesn't mean that he likes to drive big cars!
After breakfast, Kurose Izumi returned to his room, picked a book from the bookshelf, and sat on a Japanese-style rocking chair outside the courtyard.

He lowered his head slightly, stroking the foot of the page that was blown to restlessness by the wind, and his mood was very stable.

Feng Zi stood quietly aside.

This scene, in the eyes of outsiders, may have a sense of melancholy between the noble son and his female servant.

Since yesterday, Kurose Izumi's feeling has changed from gloomy to melancholy.

Although she didn't break up with Shiraishi Qianrei, it's considered a lovelorn, right?
It is normal for people to become depressed after a broken relationship.

Throughout the whole day, Kurose Izumi didn't go anywhere, just sat and read by the courtyard, and occasionally took a walk in the courtyard when he got tired of reading.

The courtyard of Pingze Mansion alone is as big as half a football field, and the flowers, plants and trees inside are all carefully cut by people!
In the afternoon, Hirasawa Shintake returned home, looked at Kurose Izumi who was sitting by the courtyard, looking at the setting sun in the distance, feeling a little delicate.

"Ugh……"

He sighed softly, looked away, and went back to the main room to change his clothes, without disturbing Kurose Izumi.

And in the evening, the two sat together for dinner, and during the process, they didn't talk much.

Kurose Izumi now is completely different from before.

He became more withdrawn, preoccupied, and came across with a lingering sense of melancholy.

In this regard, Hirasawa Shintake just kept silent-he couldn't provide any help.

How Kurose Izumi felt was based on his own thoughts.

As an outsider, Hirasawa Makoto couldn't make irresponsible remarks.

All he can do is to provide Kurose Izumi with a place to live, help him ask for leave from school, and deal with some trivial matters.

After dinner, Kurose Izumi packed up his clothes and was about to take a bath in the bath.

But when he just turned around, the mobile phone placed on the table vibrated suddenly, beeping a few times.

——It was Shiraishi Chirei's.

Kurose Izumi inexplicably had such an intuition.

Regarding this, he hesitated for a while, and finally took the mobile phone, and then walked into the bathtub.

Soaking in the turbid white bath, Kurose Izumi unlocked the phone screen and looked at the message sent by Shiraishi Chirei.

The message is very short, just a simple greeting: "Good evening"

Kurose Izumi looked at the news, and his mood suddenly became complicated.

She always does.

Just one action can pull Kurose Izumi's heart and make him start to think wildly.

Kurose Izumi didn't reply, just looked at the message.

After watching this for 1 minute, the phone started vibrating again.

"Izumi, what are you doing now?"

"Is it convenient to return to me?"

"It's okay, you go ahead, I'll wait for you until you get back to me."

On the screen, the three messages showed that they had been read, but Kurose Izumi did not reply for a long time.

"Qian Lian, are you threatening me..."

After a long time, Kurose Izumi put down the phone, closed his eyes, and murmured softly.

This way of sending messages made him truly realize that Chirei Shiraishi is Toko Kuchiki!
Under extreme care, is the twist of paranoia.

Kurose Izumi can be sure that if he doesn't return, Shiraishi Chirei will wait even one night!
But why doesn't he want to go back?

But what's the point?
Isn't it nice to have meaningless greetings with Chirei Shiraishi and bypass each other?
Isn't it too ridiculous to deceive yourself like this?
Kurose Izumi couldn't face Chirei Shiraishi without any grievances.

Especially the night Kuchiki Toko asked him to meet in Bunkyo District.

This night, Kurose Izumi was the most difficult to let go of.

He had no idea how Chirei Shiraishi, who was disguised as Toko Kuchiki, cared about him, got angry with him, and confessed to him so hypocritically.

It's just - too hypocritical, too disgusting.

This is also the most fundamental reason why Izumi Kurose couldn't believe the love that Chirei Shiraishi said.

If it's just imprisonment and coercion to change the ending, Kurose Izumi can forgive.

But he couldn't bear it, his mind was played with and trampled upon!
Isn't everything arranged by Shiraishi Qianrei?

Whether it's imprisonment, rescue, relationship improvement, a series of things after that...

Everything is just arranged.

He has been kept in the dark all this time, daydreaming foolishly.

'How can someone like me be liked by someone as outstanding and dazzling as Qian Lian? '

Kurose Izumi laughed bitterly, laughing at himself silently in his heart.

Not long after, the world in front of his eyes began to become blurred, and tears poured out silently again.

At this moment, Kurose Izumi felt so useless.

Recently, as long as he thinks that all of this is fake and Shiraishi Qianrei doesn't like him, he always has the urge to cry.

If it's okay in front of outsiders, this sadness can still be suppressed, but if it's alone, it can't help crying.

It is because of his deep love for Shiraishi Qianrei that he has difficulty making choices and is confused.

Difficult to forgive and difficult to separate.

Forcibly erasing the love for Shiraishi Qianlian is tantamount to the pain of pulling out the heart from the chest.

"call……"

After a long time, Kurose Izumi stopped the tears, washed his face, and walked out of the bath.

He returned to the room, dried his hair, and then sat by the window, stunned as usual.

There is no way, his mind is filled with things about Shiraishi Chirei, which makes him unable to sleep at all, and has no mood to do anything at all.

Outside the window, the clouds were not visible, and the bright moon exuded a cool brilliance.

Kurose Izumi looked at it, and couldn't help stretching out his hand, trying to grab the moon that seemed so close at hand.

But he can only cover it, not catch it.

"It's ironic..."

Kurose Izumi couldn't help whispering.

This round of the moon is really like their relationship all the time.

It is obviously close at hand, and you can hold it with your hand, but it is as illusory as looking at flowers in a fog.

It seems to be caught, but it is not.

The same goes for the relationship with Chirei Shiraishi.

It was obviously so good, but after realizing that it was false, it suddenly became shattered and vulnerable.

Is this relationship too fragile?
No, the moon is too far away.

How can mortals go to the moon, how can they touch and own it?

It is cold and lofty, and will not be attached to a certain person.

Izumi Kurose was too stupid to believe that there are adventures in the world.

Until now, he still had a little luck.

Not being willing to break up with Baishi Qianlian, completely breaking up the relationship is the best proof.

During this night, Kurose Izumi thought a lot, both good and bad.

It wasn't until the middle of the night, when the bright moon was covered by dark clouds, that he closed the window and went to bed.

——It is said to be sleeping, but it is just a place where I am in a daze and thinking wildly.

And on the other side of the Imperial Palace, in the apartment in Jimbocho.

Shiraishi Qianrei was also lying on the bed, tossing and turning, picking up her phone to take a look from time to time.

She looked at the chat box with Izumi Kurose, and waited stubbornly—even though she knew there would be no reply.

Because this is what she owes Kurose Izumi.

So no matter how much you wait, Shiraishi Qianrei will wait.

After that, she would just chase after Kurose Izumi like this, waiting for him to turn his head and take another look at her.

Even so, it will be very long.

Baishi Qianlian is willing to wait, no matter how long.

"spring……"

At three or four o'clock in the middle of the night, the sleepy Shiraishi Qianrei murmured and fell asleep in a daze.

"I really... know I was wrong."

"Forgive... clumsy... paranoid... me."

She murmured, and a crystal clear tear fell from the corner of her eye.

Even when she was asleep, Shiraishi Qianlian's expression could hardly conceal her sadness and loneliness.

Unfortunately, this intention will no longer be recognized or believed.

The person who would gently wipe away her tears and said he would not leave her has gradually drifted away.

The distance between them is very, very far.

As far as - forever.

　Does writing this make my stomach ache?
　　ps: Actually, I am not very good at writing abuse, so if there are deficiencies, please let me know. I read every chapter and comment every day.

　　
　
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