After getting married, a popular seiyuu suddenly moved to my house

Chapter 850 844. Times have changed, and there are always some things that have not changed.

【Choose it! 】

【Choose it! 】

In a still and broken space, I stand alone in the middle of the world.

Surrounded by the discolored Tsukishima Station, it was cold and lonely, echoing with palpitating unpleasant sounds.

Kazuto stood in front of me like this, maintaining a lukewarm smile, and said to me in the last second, "Be careful on the road."

I haven't entered this space for a long time, but naturally I don't have thoughts of nostalgia in my heart. If possible, I don't want to come here again in my life.

But I'm still here.

Saw.

Seeing what [is about to] happen to him, the tragic future.

I saw him cleaning the room alone, I saw him sitting at the desk writing a suicide note, I saw his smile before he died.

I can change his future with the flick of a finger.

A breeze.

But I still couldn't help thinking about it.

If this is the end of his choice, then there is nothing wrong with letting him go like this.

If it wasn't for himself, who would choose to end his life if he despaired of life to the extreme.

What kind of mood did he have when he wrote "I'm sorry for being a human" in the suicide note?
He is not from this world, he does not belong to this world, and now he wants to disappear, perhaps it is the most correct destination.

He is burdened with many things that I cannot see. Of course, this is not an excuse for him to hurt them, but he is tired enough, I am tired, and everyone is tired.

He wanted to break free from this ridiculous and twisted journey, and there was no other way but to end his life.

He is well aware of his own powerlessness, because he can't change anything, Caiyin will neither forgive him, nor will Yousha leave him, distorted love, distorted hate, countless emotions are intertwined, inseparable.

It wasn't until this moment that I realized what his words meant and why he entrusted Yousha to me.

From the bottom of my heart, I think he is unforgivable.

He wanted to sever the emotional cord at the cost of ending his life.

Should I, then, honor his will?

I do not know.

I don't know, but...

Very unwilling.

How cunning.

He was really, really running away until the very end.

Unable to face the mistakes he made, he chose the most shameful course of action.

...Why, why don't you come to talk to me?
If you really suffer so much that you want to end your life, why don't you want to come to me and talk to me?
Does he understand how many people his choice will hurt?

He thought that as long as he died, he would be free, did he really think so?

This kind of behavior has no meaning other than bringing sadness to those who love him deeply.

It doesn't matter if it's not me, as long as he passes on pain to anyone around him, he will definitely...

what.

It must be, there is no one around.

Only Yousha is left by his side, and no one can listen to his heart except Yousha who can be his pillar.

However, with Yousha's current state, for Kazuto who is deeply mired, all her words are counterproductive.

That's why I was alone in my heart, showing a pale and helpless smile, and I couldn't see the slightest look in my eyes.

Since... since this is something that makes you so painful, don't do it from the very beginning!

Unwilling, regretful, powerless.

A variety of emotions are intertwined in my heart.

At this time, I really regretted it, regretting that I rejected him at that time and gave him an ambiguous answer.

I obviously had many opportunities to walk into his heart, and I had many opportunities to sit down and discuss with him, and he opened his heart to me at that time, but I flinched.

We are really the same people.

Looking at the options before me, I couldn't make a choice.

I'm just a mortal. Is it really good to entrust such a heavy choice, the choice that determines the life of others, to a mortal like me?

Do I really have the right to decide his life?
Five years ago, perhaps because of my choice, he was dragged into this world.

It is undeniable that I gave him painful memories at that time. He was so fragile and sad, and I regretted my behavior all the time.

If at that time, I could try to trust him, believe in him who was still so gentle at that time, would I be able to avoid the tragedy now?
Five years later, when I'm asked to decide whether he should stay here, I'm not a god.

Kazuto, who was my childhood sweetheart, was gone, and now even he was leaving, and a deep sense of powerlessness swept over my body.

At a certain moment, I almost wanted to give up thinking, and simply let this coward go away, and he could never hurt them again.

But I heard, at the moment of parting, he called out my name, how should I understand this behavior?
I don't know if my understanding is correct, maybe he is also wandering and afraid.

At the last moment, deep in my heart, I really hope that someone will help him, and I hope someone can tell him that you don't have to bear these things alone.

Then this person can only be me.

I don't agree with your approach, I don't agree with your way of life, and I don't agree with your psychology that you want to escape.

even so.

I……

I also hope you can live.

I want you to continue to live in this world that is only twisted and sad.

From now on, you will be burdened with sin, loneliness, and sorrow.

There will be my share too.

As for the reason, well... that's right.

This is a simple and profound truth, so simple that anyone who has attended high school philosophy can understand it, and so profound that it takes some people a lifetime to understand it.

There's nothing wrong with trying to protect someone you love.

……

The surrounding scenery became gorgeous, the countdown timer overhead disappeared, and the still time flowed again.

And I will stop the future he is about to go to.

Maybe another future is just as sad, just as twisted, but that's fine.

There are still many obstacles waiting for me in front of this, and I also know very well that when I make this choice, I can no longer stand in front of them as a bystander.

Nothing I ever said or did was valid anymore.

However, it is unbelievable that my state of mind is completely different from that of the past.

The gentle wind in early spring blows away his slightly covered bangs, revealing that slightly sad face.

At this moment, I seem to be able to feel all kinds of emotions in him, most of which are sad and painful.

it's fine.

Because the living Mogami Kazuto was still standing in front of me.

For the first time, I am grateful that I have been endowed with such abilities.

At least at this moment, I should be laughing from the bottom of my heart.

"Hey, Heren."

"Would you like to marry me?"

(End of this chapter)