After getting married, a popular seiyuu suddenly moved to my house

Chapter 844 838. I just feel that my heart is dead, and my heart has become a useless mass of meat.

★The perspective of farming pear yarn★
He said a lot of words to Jun, but I couldn't hear a word from the middle.

There are still two months before April Fool's Day, why do you suddenly say such nonsense that you can tell that it is a lie.

And... even if it's April Fool's Day, I don't think it's something to joke about.

I feel a little sad about it, but only a little.

Just imagine He Jun saying "I'm sorry, I was joking" to me with a full face of apology, and then I pretend to be angry and ignore him, asking him to make some sweet promises to me.

For example, take me out on a date on a rest day, or go on a trip, or buy some jewelry or tableware in pairs.

It doesn't need to be expensive, as long as it can make me feel that we are really a pair of lovers in love.

In that case, I must immediately calm down, and I can't blame him anyway.

Nothing will change, he is still the person I like, and I am still his girlfriend.

So please hurry up and tell me.

【Sorry, I shouldn't have made such a joke. 】

...Please hurry up and say this sentence.

"Sorry, I made an unforgivable mistake."

At this moment, the blood in my body seemed to stop flowing.

His expression is so serious, his eyes are so painful, compared to before, I just looked up at him helplessly.

Should I show a more varied expression?
anger?sad?Pitiful?
It's strange, I can't feel anything anymore, as if my mind has been pulled out of my body, and even moving my fingers has become a hard work.

I think I must not have fully understood the meaning of this statement.

"He... He Jun? The one just now... lied to me, right?"

In fact, I already believed it somewhat, because he had such a serious expression on his face.

But I don't want to believe it in my heart. I hope that he is sick to say these things that make me sad.

Is it because of the forehead injury?Or what happened with Caiyin?That's why...

I started to think wildly, desperately trying to find a reason for him to lie to me.

"...He Jun, it's really too much, even if it's a joke, it makes my heart hurt so much."

I couldn't find a reason for him, so I had nothing to do but cry.

It turned out that I was still that fragile farming pear.

I thought that after meeting him, I became a stronger person, but that's not the case at all.

Because he stayed by my side, I thought I was strong, even if I was sick, I was no longer afraid of surgery, and I calmly faced my illness and accepted this frail body.

Because, I've got what I want.

The hero who brought me out of the hospital, who brought me out of this shadow, who gave me courage and a chance.

My hero won't hurt me.

"It's not a joke, everything...is true."

"We originally planned to get married this year, with Caiyin."

His words made it so painful that I couldn't breathe.

The person who gave me courage, the person who kissed me in the hospital, the person who hugged me countless times in the dead of night, demanded me, and kept saying that he loved me in my ear.

Is it all... all my imagination?

Does my hero not exist at all?

"I do not believe."

Gritting her teeth with difficulty, not allowing herself to choke, she just refuted him weakly.

"I don't believe a single word I said to you." I said tremblingly.

I must deny him here, refute him, no matter how sad and bleak it is at this time, I cannot just accept his words like this, I must firmly believe that he has his own unspeakable secrets.

"He Jun likes me! Absolutely likes me! Please don't treat me as a fool!

I am also a person with feelings, and I can tell which ones are sincere and which ones are fake!
I will never forget the words He Jun said to me! "

But no matter how I conveyed my voice to him, he still didn't seem to hear it.

Is my voice so weak?

No matter how much I cry, can he not hear me?

Can't I convey my heart at all?

I couldn't control my voice anymore, I couldn't control my tears, and the way I screamed desperately made my throat tear like pain.

Compared with the pain of the heart, it is unbelievably endurable.

"Why do you say such hurtful things!"

"I'm sorry... what I said is true. I'm not as good a person as you imagined. I'm just an emotional liar."

He showed a sad expression, his eyes dodged and he didn't dare to look at me, if everything was as he said, if I was just a puppet he used to relieve boredom when he was lonely and empty, how could he smile so desolately?

I suddenly calmed down, only my expression calmed down, but a burning fire was still burning deep in my heart.

I stretched out my hands and squeezed his sleeves tightly, with warm tears streaming down my cheeks, and I looked at him intently.

"Then...can He-jun speak out?"

"Say you don't love me at all, say you never put me in your heart! Everything you did to me was...to lie to me."

He was silent.

His silence made me see the dawn of hope, and almost swept away the depression in my heart.

But he still said it.

"Ah, it's all... lying to you."

I can't tell whether it's laughing or crying, but the desire to alienate me on his body really makes me shiver, making me feel the coldness I've never had before.

It felt like a tracheotomy without anesthesia. The thin neck was cut open by a sharp scalpel. Hot blood flowed from the neck to the whole body.

That's it until you lose consciousness.

I finally realized that what he said was true.

I thought of Caiyin's phone call and her melancholy and sad tone on the phone. I thought she was in a situation where I didn't know how to face me because I became his girlfriend.

But in fact, I was the third party who intervened in them.

I don't know how to describe my state of mind at this time, I just feel that my heart is dead and has become a useless mass of meat.

My love is worthless in his eyes.

It was hard for me to accept this fact, and I just stared blankly at him, without a trace of strength in my whole body, staring at this man I love so much.

He slowly moved away my hand that was pinching his sleeve, and moved the corner of his mouth.

Are you laughing?

I can't tell.

"Stupid~~ idiot, I just lied to you for fun."

"Why do you still..."

"Is it true?"

(End of this chapter)