After getting married, a popular seiyuu suddenly moved to my house

Chapter 619 613. Will Mogami repeat the same mistakes again?

In a world where everyone is lying to each other, being an honest person will be regarded as the black sheep and die alone.

According to this statement, I must be the one who lived the longest, living alone.

I've been lying to my significant other, to my current parents, to my current relationship, time and time again.

But people live in this world, some lies are necessary, I will admit it tentatively.

However, I should be able to avoid those lies about Caiyin, but I didn't do that.

It seems easy to quibble, beautify my behavior, and rack my brains to come up with a reasonable explanation, but I'm tired of it.

To be precise, I didn't have the leeway to continue doing that. I lost to the guilt piled up in my heart, and to her pure and flawless eyes, that's all.

After experiencing Yousha again, I once thought that I could become a more sincere person in the future, but it turned out that people who love to lie will never understand what honesty is. This is indeed a sad thing .

I think that I am not suitable for love, and I am not worthy to be the spiritual support of any cute girl.

But even with such thoughts, I still want to tie the girl named Ayane Sakura to my side.

As I said at the time, I was deep in the quagmire of my heart, desperately dragging that girl in, but hoping she would save me.

If it is not appropriate to call this my love for her, it should be said to be possessive, or something else.

In short, not a good word.

But there is no doubt that I will not allow Ayane Sakura to disappear from my world. This is a development that I want to avoid no matter what.

Therefore, I am deeply disgusted and contemptuous of what I have done. What I will do next will not only hurt her at this moment, witness her shed tears, but also forcefully ask her not to run away from me By my side, I can only stay here and cry for me to see.

Look, what a wicked man.

This is something more hated than mediocrity.

"Caiyin..."

Even before I opened my mouth, I felt so much pain and entanglement in my heart, but after the first character was spit out from my mouth, the next words gushed out like a flood that broke the embankment, so smooth that even I was surprised.

At first, she probably just thought that I wanted her to show her heart, and there was still a happy but slightly jealous expression on her face, which was as cute as ever.

But when she heard what happened in the izakaya last night, the smile on her face was like Shibuya Tianya after the drizzle. Just when she thought it would be sunny for a moment, the torrential rain knocked her down. I was caught off guard.

Confusion, consternation, sadness, pain, despair.

I don't know which word to use to describe it is more appropriate.

It's ridiculous that at a time like this, what I'm thinking about in my head is actually about adjectives.

No, it was precisely because I didn't have the courage to face her sad expression that I used this unimportant matter to divert my attention.

Realizing that this is something I can't do, I glanced at my thoughts and looked directly into her eyes.

"What you said just now... was a lie to me."

Her moving eyes bloomed with a beautiful and sad light. At any moment in the past, I would not be able to stand her gaze at this moment. I hugged her in my arms and said to her softly:

[Idiot, of course I lied to you. 】

"It's all true."

I say.

"It's not just yesterday, in April, I force majeure and sent her home drunk."

The eyes she looked at me gradually lost temperature, her clenched fists, trembling shoulders, and silent, slowly overflowing tears from the corners of her eyes all hurt my heart.

Even so, I still stared at her intently.

"……after that?"

"Nothing, go home."

She was silent.

The hands of the clock on the wall kept turning, and it was the only thing in the living room that kept time flowing. Everything else seemed to be immobilized by a magic spell.

Oh no, and her teardrops.

I couldn't suppress the severe pain in my heart, and I reached out to wipe away her tears, but she just let my hand touch her cheek.

Do not cater to, do not resist.

Silly like a delicate doll.

Unfortunately, there are no crying dolls in the world.

As for Sakura Ayane, she is a living, flesh-and-blood girl.

"Do you remember what I said?"

"remember."

"If one day, let me find out that there is another girl in your heart, I will go to a place where you will never find it."

"Ah."

"I'll date other men, sleep with other men, marry other men."

"I won't let you do that."

"What right do you have to rule my life?"

What kind of eyes do I have at this moment? Is it panic or indifference? I have no idea what the essence of the individual named "I" is.

"Why are you telling me now? It would be fine if you lied to me like you did before, just like you lied to Kianosuke.

Why do you always give up halfway. "

Unexpectedly, her reaction was much calmer than I expected, there was no hysterical roar, just looking at me with sad eyes.

But I would rather she hit me and scold me, which is not as painful as one ten-millionth of this look.

I can't help but want to hold her in my arms, she struggles, pushes, wants to get out of my muddy swamp, but I don't want to let her go.

How could he let her go? He wished he could hug her and drown in this swamp together.

How could such a weak girl like her have the strength to contend with me? In the end, I hugged her tightly as I wished, but she just kept silent.

"I don't understand how you still have the face to hug me."

Her voice came.

"When I tell you this, I definitely don't mean to embarrass you deliberately, nor do I want you to escape from my side.

I also want to say some beautiful words to show my sincerity, but I know that I am not sincere at all, and the reason for confessing to you is just self-satisfaction.

When I want to hide it from you, I hide it from you, and when I want to say it, I say it without authorization.

While hurting you, I also hope that you can forgive me carelessly.

I know it's impossible, but I just can't help fantasizing about it.

But let me tell you in advance that I will not allow what you said, no matter whether you are dating or marrying someone else. "

"My body is up to me. Don't think that you can control me because you have entered and exited my body many times. Only Sakura Ayane has the right to control her life."

"I said, I won't let you do that."

"Tsk! An unreasonable man."

I can't deny it.

She was silent for a while, and I gradually felt that she no longer resisted my embrace.

"Do you know what is the biggest blow to me when this matter is said?"

I know, of course I know.

"What you told me today is equivalent to declaring to me that as long as I'm with you, I can no longer be friends with that woman.

No, even if I am not with you, it will never be possible.

Everything before is an illusion, it is my self-righteousness.

Duan Renjun, you... once again repeated the same mistakes that Kinosuke did back then. "

"Maybe, but I won't let things turn out that way, and as a result, I won't let you go."

"Even though you knew it would happen, you still let me choose between you and her."

"Yes."

"...You are really a hopeless and wicked man."

"Have you grown to hate me?"

"yes……"

"You want to leave me, don't you?"

"yes……"

"I won't let you do that."

I continued to answer forcefully, and I had never spoken to anyone in such a tone before, and I clearly realized that it was impossible for me to just let the girl named Sakura Ayane disappear into my world.

Even though I don't have the corresponding bargaining chips and self-confidence, I still think so firmly.

Only by first strengthening my mind can I continue on this path.

It doesn't matter what you say, but you will never let go of the girl in your arms.

I thought so.

"I warned you like that, why didn't you tell me at the time, I could still lie to myself that what happened yesterday was all that woman's fault and had nothing to do with you. But what happened before that?

Answer me, Kazuto Mogami.

Have you ever had a little bit of love for her? "

"My answer will determine whether you will stay or not?"

"Maybe, maybe not."

(End of this chapter)