Tokyo Survival from Tamamomae

Chapter 31 There is no turning back!

The so-called genius is a person who is born with a halo.

They may have a noble background, or have a smart mind that others cannot match, or have a special talent, or have something that can attract others.

I once thought I was a genius.

Yes, I once thought...

I have a face deeply blessed by heaven, with good memory, physical strength, and a strong imagination (fog).

Not only good at reading, sports, but also ingenious.

When I was in elementary school, no matter what I did, I was No.1 in the class. Whether it was memorizing exams, learning witchcraft, cleaning, gymnastics, or turning flower ropes, I was excellent in everything. Treat me like an idol.

The adults around me often praised me as a genius and child prodigy.

I used to think that a genius should be someone like me.

It wasn't until I was in middle school that I discovered...there are many people in the world who are smarter than me, better at sports than me, more dexterous than me, and even longer and cuter than me.

At first, I was not to be outdone, and would catch up.

Because no matter who it is, more or less they all have the feeling of not wanting to lose to others.

But the reality is cruel. No matter how hard I try, I will always lose to geniuses in all aspects.

And every time I lose anything, there will be a shadow in my heart, and I will feel more inferior.

Until, in a certain competition, I chose to give up.

Because, I discovered a cruel fact.

Although I am not an ordinary person, I am definitely not a genius either.

I will never win against an unbeatable opponent.

So, I chose to give up.

With the first time to give up, there will naturally be a second time, a third time...even countless times.

In the end, compromise and giving up became the most common options in my life.

I found a way for myself to escape the pain of failure.

Even after graduating from high school, I didn't go to university to continue my studies, but chose to join the work in a hurry.

With my mother's relationship, I joined the Taishi Bureau's demon-elimination class.

Because, I am afraid that when I enter the university, I will meet more geniuses. At that time, maybe I will completely disappear from everyone.

In the eyes of others, I am a very promising spirit remover who can join the Taishi Bureau after graduating from high school.

In fact, only I know, I'm just avoiding cowardly.

Yes, I am not strong, on the contrary, I am a cowardly person.

In the face of real difficulties, I did not have the courage and determination to move forward.

There are only concessions and compromises...

This time is the same, I also chose to give in and compromise.

It's just that I didn't know it at the time, because my choice changed the rest of my life!
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In the past two days, Rumi Hoshino recalled many past events and thought about many things, including some things that she would never think about before.

For example, "Freedom, death and surrender..."

After becoming the exorcist of the Taishi Bureau, because of her mother's care, she has always been smooth sailing.

The workplace is very smooth, he was promoted in less than a year, and there is no danger in his work. Almost all the exorcisms are aimed at some little demons, and basically he has not encountered any major setbacks.

In a public office, she doesn't have to try her best to compare with others, and no one forces her to make comparisons.

It can be said that the year of working after graduation was the most comfortable year for Hoshino, much better than the life in school before.

But it was precisely because she was used to this comfortable life that when she met a real "ruthless and cunning" monster for the first time, faced this "cruel" world head-on for the first time, and encountered "unsolvable" difficulties for the first time... Instead, he became a little overwhelmed.

Now, a huge problem before her is "death" or "surrender"!
The choice given by the fox demon is very clear. After three days, choose "freedom of body" or "freedom of thought", there is no third way to choose!
If she chooses "freedom of the body", it means that her sense of self will disappear from then on.

And when self-awareness disappears, then a person is no different from death!

This option stands for "death"!
And choosing "freedom of thought" means that her self-awareness can still be preserved, but her body is not her own, but has become a slave of the fox demon.

In other words, this option represents "surrender"!
At that time, she did not give an answer, and the fox demon did not urge her. Even in the past two days, the fox demon did not take the initiative to ask her a question, but gave her enough time to think.

At the beginning, for a moment, she thought about sticking to her dignity and righteousness as a human being, and fighting against demons to the end.

If the opponent is an ordinary monster, Hoshino is likely to carry out this idea.

But it is a pity that the other party is obviously not an ordinary monster, but a nine-tailed fox demon-a terrifying existence that is best at playing with people's hearts.

My own resistance may be because the other party finds it interesting and gives me alms.

Maybe the more you resist, the more excited the other party will be!
Moreover, no matter how you resist, the final result will not change.

After she has been toyed with, and the fox demon loses interest in her, her self-consciousness will be completely wiped out by the fox demon.

She will also truly usher in "death"!
After understanding this, and after two days of deliberation, Hoshino finally figured out one thing.

She doesn't want to die!

She is not a strong person, she doesn't want to lose her self-awareness and die for no reason!

What's more, even if she wants to resist to the end, even if the fox demon finds it interesting, if her "self-awareness" is not erased for the time being, her resistance will not have any effect.

This can only bring more joy to the fox demon, and more torture to himself.

In order to appreciate her rebellion, the fox demon will definitely use different methods to torture her, and what awaits her is endless purgatory day after day.

So, she made a difficult decision.

She decided to submit to the fox demon, regard him as her only master, and obey all the orders of the master.

And doing this means that she has completely abandoned the so-called dignity and righteousness.

Of course, maybe she didn't have these things long ago.

because……

The notebook in Fox Demon's hand is the best proof.

She is a shameful traitor, she is the one who leaked the Taishi Bureau's information to Fox Demon.

The fox demon will use this information to carry out cruel revenge on the Taishi Bureau.

Maybe, the fox demon will also use the information obtained from her to design to catch her mother.

Thus turning her mother into a loyal Aheiyan dog who rolled her eyes just like her.

Even the fox demon might lead her mother to her, and let her appreciate the scene of her mother kneeling and begging for a reward for the big bone.

If so, what a sad scene...

However, there is no way to turn back!
From the moment she was caught by the nine-tailed fox demon, her "fallen" fate was already doomed!
"I lost, fox demon... No, Lord Nine-Tails, I promise you, I swear to you with a spirit curse!"

In the guest room in the evening, Hoshino whispered this sentence to Haoren who had just entered the door, and then gently knelt down...

　Rumi Hoshino!Ask for votes~thank you!

　　
　
(End of this chapter)