Why it never ends

"I'm done," Lin Jiao looked at her, "What did you want to say just now? Tell me all now. I won't interrupt you again."

Hesta's throat moved slightly and she shook her head.

"Why don't you say it? Do you think I'm unreasonable?"

Words couldn't convince her, Hesta thought, no matter what she said, it would be useless.

"Jane?" Lin Jiao frowned.

"I don't want to argue with you about a topic that you think is meaningless," Hesta said softly, "You are right, it is ridiculous to argue over such a topic."

"Do you really think so, or are you too lazy to argue with me?" Lin Jiao looked at her seriously, "If it's the former, let's end this topic now. If it's the latter, I hope you can tell me your story completely. My own thoughts - indeed, I find this topic ridiculous, but for me it's worth the effort to argue with you, and I hope it's the same for you."

Hesta loosened her fist in her pocket and turned around, "I don't have anything to argue with... I've said it before, I don't know Ava, I just think your accusations against her are untenable. "

"Ha," Lin Jiao raised his eyebrows, "'Feel'? Just 'Feel'?"

"Just think of it as an intuition," Hesta said with a smile, "I've always had good intuition."

They both breathed a sigh of relief, and after chatting for a while in front of Ava's statue, they said goodbye to each other.

Hesta stood there, looking at Lin Jiao's back, and she felt empty again.

She didn't know what went wrong that caused such a deep gap between Lin Jiao and Ava. If Ava were still alive, she would probably give affirmation, appreciation and even guidance to a sharp young leader like Lin Jiao. If they were given the opportunity to stand in front of each other, some prejudices would probably be broken down... It's a pity that they are separated by a long time, a vast territory, and now they are still separated by death and life.

It's a pity that there is no such opportunity.

Hesta walked slowly along the sidewalk toward her home. She slowly sorted out her thoughts, and some of the previously intertwined chaotic thoughts slowly became clear.

Among all Lin Jiao's comments tonight, except for the so-called "pimp" rumor, the sentence "Women's thinking in the last century has its limitations" made Hesta feel the most angry. She clearly felt that this conclusive description instantly made Ava's face blurry. It is as if Ava's experience has become banal and outdated, and the tug-of-war and struggle she has experienced no longer have reference value at the moment. Therefore, all of this can be boldly erased or ignored.

But why misinterpret a distant deceased person so violently...what good does it do? Even if we have differences on certain matters, aren't we all travelers on the same road?

After thinking about it again, Hesta suddenly realized that Lin Jiao and the others were able to find so much information and opinions, indicating that these misunderstandings were rampant during Ava's lifetime, but Ava did not respond directly - the deceased certainly could not defend himself. , but Ava never paid attention to these sounds when she was alive. Maybe she thinks those dirty rumors are not worth defending, or maybe she has other considerations... Ava always has her own reasons.

In silence, Hesta suddenly felt a little lonely for Ava.

……

When Hesta walked downstairs of the community, Ding Jiali was already waiting at the entrance of the corridor.

Seeing Hesta come back, Ding Jiali immediately put out his cigarette, "You're finally back. It really made me wait."

Hesta glanced at the cigarette butts on the ground and suddenly felt confused, "Are you waiting for me?"

"I have something I want to talk to you about," Ding Jiali said.

"Go up and chat?"

"Let's go up after we finish chatting," Ding Jiali smiled, "The old man asked me to come. He may be a little worried about his own face, so he won't talk about this at home."

Hesta was even more surprised, "...Why does Uncle Ding want me?"

"Haha, let's go," Ding Jiali warmly helped Hestad's shoulders, "Let's find a convenience store, and I'll treat you to something to eat -" "No," Hestad interrupted him, "Let's just take a walk downstairs. Just tell us."

"..." Ding Jiali's mouth sank slightly, but his eyes always fell on Hesta, "When I passed by the West District Canteen in the afternoon, I seemed to see you and Lin Jiao sitting together...?"

"Do you know Lin Jiao too?"

"It's not really acquaintance," Ding Jiali said, "Are you familiar with each other?"

"It's okay. We know each other from the club. What's wrong?"

"Are you with her tonight?"

"What exactly do you want to ask?"

"I'm kindly reminding you," Ding Jiali said seriously, "This person is not a good person. You have only come to Orange Town not long ago, so don't let her lead you astray."

"for example?"

"Tell me honestly, was she the one who secretly instigated you to criticize the teacher in class?"

Hesta's expression slightly condensed, "...what?"

"Look, you have lived in my house for so long. Anyway, after getting along with you, I feel that you are a reasonable person, not the kind of messy person. Although you don't talk much, you are still kind-hearted and you still miss my mother. The dishes are tired, fix the dishwasher for her..." Ding Jiali suddenly turned his head, "How could someone like you suddenly find trouble with the teacher in class? Did someone instill something in you during this time - —”

"We did talk about Zuo Wentao for a while tonight," Hesta replied, "Lin Jiao and I."

"Tsk, I knew it!" Ding Jiali clapped his hands, "She must-"

"She advised me that there was no need to persist in this matter, it was meaningless."

Ding Jiali was stunned, "...really?"

"You're here for this matter," Hesta looked at him, "What does this have to do with Uncle Ding?"

"He has a friend, a friend of Zuo Wentao. I just heard yesterday that the person who had a conflict with Teacher Zuo was you. His friend thought that since there is such a relationship, is it possible to come and persuade you? ——”

"Are you taking it personally?"

"It's nothing private, it's not a big deal," Ding Jiali said with a smile, "If it can be resolved peacefully -"

"It's not that I didn't think about resolving the matter peacefully. A teacher said the same thing before, just clear up the misunderstanding," Hestad said, "Then I waited for him in Wenhui Building for three hours."

"My dad's friend actually mentioned this, saying that you might have misunderstood... He went to the hospital that time," Ding Jiali said, "The old man is not in good health——"

"What does he want me to do now?" Hesta asked.

Ding Jiali smiled and said, "Let's stop it here. He can apologize to you in private and won't care about it in the future... Everyone take a step back and pretend that nothing happened."