Why it never ends

Chapter 81 Another perspective

Speaking of this, Valenti suddenly remembered something, she looked at Chiba: "...Does my saying this make you uncomfortable?"

"No, you continue."

"Some time ago, when I was sorting out Sean's files, I heard the conversation you secretly recorded—it was the conversation between him and Calvin in the corridor leading to the library. At that time, I suddenly understood why Xiao En En must be close to Jane.

"Actually, it doesn't have to be Jane, but if a newcomer from Duanming Lane or Hekla Wasteland comes to the base, and this newcomer looks relatively weak, TA will be very attractive to Sean. The fundamental reason is There is only one point: in this person, Sean can completely project the self he hates.

"The deer hunting case two years ago had a deeper impact on Sean than we thought, especially after he had initially mastered some computer technology. Editorials in newspapers.

"Compared to the wasteland, Sean certainly prefers the life in the Habitable Land, but when he fantasizes about embracing the Habitable Land, he feels very sharp hostility. He understands that he does not belong here, but he is extremely Desire to stay, this contradiction will make him suffer.

"He can disguise himself as a solitary genius now, and he can further transform himself into a gentleman in the future, and he never even tells us the truth in the consulting room for this, but I guess, in his heart, he may He has never felt relieved of the gap between himself and the livable place. For him, Hekla's background is a label that he will never get rid of.

"At this time, Jane appeared, she looked so thin, so helpless, and came from a place with a more notorious reputation than Hekla, of course Sean would be interested in her-because, that is another self. "

The sun in the distance had completely sunk, and the sky had turned into a dark blue like the deep sea. The sudden evening wind blew up Valenti's thick long hair. Hair ties tie long, shaggy hair into a bunch.

The night was getting colder, so she put away her long skirt and wrapped the skirt tightly around her calves.

Chiba didn't feel it at all, whether it was the cool evening wind or Valenti's actions.She thought about what Valenti said for a long time, and she didn't turn her head until Valenti sneezed.

"Is it too cold here? Let's go down and find a place to sit and talk."

"No need," Valenti stretched out her hand to smooth the messy hair in front of her ears, "It's been a long time since I saw the whole Tan Yi from such a high place... right here."

"...'another self', then what?"

"As far as my personal observation is concerned, I think Sean transferred part of his self-attack to Jane."

"How to say?"

"He loathes the part of himself related to Hekla, and self-loathing is painful, even more unbearable than the punishment of the base. Because it is easy to avoid the rules and regulations of the base, but it is time for a person to examine himself. It exists every moment. As long as a person is awake for a moment, this kind of scrutiny exists for a moment, and the torture lasts for a moment as long as it exists.

"And I speculate that another reason is also related to this - when Jane appears, it is like a walking mirror for Sean. In front of other people, Sean may be able to play a person he wants to play. role, but in front of Jane, he can't do it, he has to worry about being seen every moment."

"Why? Jane doesn't know how to read minds, so how can she see through what he's thinking at a glance."

"It's very simple, because Jane's background is similar to his. Since he will use Hekla's code of conduct to deduce Jane's psychology and behavior, then conversely, in Sean's imagination, Jane will definitely use the short cry Lane's code of conduct to see him - if so, then all his performances, disguises, are meaningless.

"So, I guess, Jane's existence is very complicated for him. He hates her and fears her, but maybe he also sympathizes with her a little bit, and even wants to protect her. But all these positive emotions have a The premise of its establishment is that Jane submits to him."

"submission?"

"It is to turn Jane into a 'one of my own', a follower, or an emotional container. Only when Jane is exhausted and has no strength to struggle anymore, and then loses her own subjectivity, she is willing to submit to Sean. Only when he surrenders can he avoid the danger of being stared at. I guess at that time, he will show kindness to Jane."

Valenti said softly, "Sean's methods are layered up. At first, he just hacked into Jane's computer account to observe what she was looking at every day; then he threatened in the study room, he wanted to show Jane His own control and power over the environment; then, when he discovered that Liz and Turan seemed to be helping Jane use the rules of the base to protect herself, he warned her that the rules of the base did not always stand over there.

"To sum it up, I think at this stage, Sean is trying to domesticate Jane in a relatively gentle way. After all, he has a deeper understanding of the rules of the game in the base and is more familiar with the people here. Difficult. Although, these actions of his do not seem to arouse Jane's fear at present, but make each of Jane's counterattacks more intense than the last one, but I think...it is also very dangerous. "

"why?"

"Because Jane's trust in the base was very thin at the beginning." Valenti said softly, "Although she can express her needs very well as soon as she enters the base, she never explains these needs. On the other hand, She also intentionally concealed her true tendency in the psychological measurement. Except for the roommates in the same dormitory, she never took the initiative to make any friends-this is exactly the same as Sean and Calvin.

"Now, since Sean can use bitter tricks to make Jane disadvantaged in the base's rules, can he also find another way to isolate Jane from the girls in 403 in the future? Of course, this point is It's impossible to happen when Liz is here, but Liz will change jobs soon, and by then, will Jane be able to calmly deal with Sean's various provocations?"

Chiba took a deep breath, and she frowned at Valenti, "Then why do you assert that Sean will not trouble Jane again? Isn't Liz still going to change jobs next month? If Sean Waiting for an opportunity to retaliate—"

"I was about to say, I think Jane did a very good job of breaking through Sean this time." Valenti smiled and said, "I saw the confrontation between her and Sean in the underground corridor-those words, yes Did you teach her to say it?"

(End of this chapter)