Why it never ends

Chapter 76 Broken
The synthetic voice was silent for a moment, and then spoke in the same cold tone:
"For the second option, you will participate in an honor project to help organizations or individuals in the Third Region Government enhance their computer security. After completion, AHgAs and the Third Region Coalition Government will give you a certain award depending on the completion of the project."

Sean was stunned—he suddenly realized that he had no choice at all, the first option was only used to intimidate him, and he had to choose the second.

Tears welled up in Sean's eyes.

What is the price.

His shoulders trembled slightly, "Is it just...helping them, enhancing computer security...that's all?"

"If there is anything to do in the future, we will notify you, and you just need to execute it." The synthetic voice was unwavering, "If you agree, just nod, we will collect fingerprints and record a letter of commitment."

Sean followed the instructions and choked up a long promise to the camera.

At the same time, he also realized very clearly that his dream of retreating to the third district to be a livable ordinary person may have been permanently shattered.

……

When Sean returned to the reserve base again, the calmness of the past had been restored here.

Calvin has already experienced his first actual battle outside - not against chelates as they thought, after all, this is a livable place, there will not be so many chelates for mercury needles to catch, and the wilderness There are too many accidents in the battle, which is not suitable for newcomers, so Calvin's opponent in the first actual battle is a criminal among human beings.

He managed to free the hostages from a group of kidnappers without even starting bullet time.

In comparison, Sean is much more depressed.

The base asked him to start preparing the outline of the lecture, a basic safety course of about 6 weeks in length, at that time he would need to go to the Tanyi City Hall to give lectures to those important officials in person.

With the excuse of lesson preparation, Sean couldn't leave behind closed doors.The base's psychological assistance was of no use to him. He used to have eleven thousand ways to scare the counselors who were ready to listen, but now he was silent and said nothing—what do these people know?Do you think that by opening a pair of self-righteous broad shoulders, everyone can land safely?

He shut himself in the house.When Calvin was away, he slept during the day and worked at night. When Calvin came back, he was forced to correct his schedule.

But there is another important reason why Sean chooses to go out at night—he wants to avoid Hesta.

This is not a mandatory regulation, but he must do it.Several times in his sleep, Hesta became his nightmare.She always appeared suddenly at a certain corner in the dream, and Sean ran away when he saw her—but there was often a chelate standing at the other end of the corridor.

This nightmare repeats itself in various forms, but some things never change: Hesta on one side, Chelate on the other, both looming at the same time.

At the same time, Hesta's inquiry was like a magic voice.

——What are you angry about, what are you afraid of?
——Why are you staring at me and making things difficult for me?

—what do you see in me?
Sean couldn't answer any of them, and could only wake up in a cold sweat.

One morning when he was brushing his teeth, Sean suddenly thought of these questions again, and he felt a burst of unexplained pain again, as if he had been hit on the head with a stick several times.

He sat curled up on the toilet, but the toothbrush in his hand was still vigorously scrubbing his teeth and gums until his mouth was covered with blood.

A sharp fear suddenly rose in his heart—is it true what Hesta said in the corridor?
Sean returned to the mirror and looked at himself with red eyes.

He remembered his previous fantasy about future life, and his face slowly became grim.

Am I worthy?
I do not deserve.

He approached the mirror, facing his eyes.

I only deserve to live in a stinking ditch.

……

As September approaches, the leaves of the phoenix tree have slowly turned yellow. The last week of August is a public holiday for all reserve forces. They will not be arranged for any training during this week. A small number of them can be taken home by relatives and friends outside for reunion , and the rest can move freely in the base for a week and do whatever they want.

Sean was still listless, but under Calvin's strong request, he still dawdled out of the apartment one morning, and went to the cafeteria with Calvin for dinner.

Sean was thinking about his own business, and his mind was completely empty. He watched the leaves swirl and fall from the branches, or quickly calculated the sum of the numbers on the license plates on the roadside.

He followed Calvin aimlessly along the way. It was true that he hadn't eaten the buffet in the cafeteria of the base for a long time, but he didn't miss it too much.

He took the dinner plate as before, beat some meat, vegetables, and fruit, and finally picked up two pieces of bread from a small plate, and heated them in the microwave.

The bread spun dozens of times in the microwave, and Sean just stared at it in a daze, until it made a "ding—" and he reached out to pull the handle of the microwave.

Suddenly, a familiar figure entered his peripheral vision.

Hesta, Liz, and Rico walked out from the depths of the cafeteria together.

The fear in the dream came into reality, and Sean's nerves tensed immediately. He suddenly felt a little stomach cramps, a little nausea, a little short of breath, and even tinnitus.

Fortunately, Hesta seemed to just glance at him, and left without stopping.

Sweat dripped from Sean's forehead.

"Gringoire, your things are ready." The person standing behind Sean waiting in line to use the microwave reminded.

"okay."

Sean reacted, he opened the microwave oven with his left hand, and took the plate inside with his right hand.

However, he suddenly found that he couldn't lift his right hand up.

He frowned, not understanding what happened—maybe there was something wrong with the bionic arm?

Sean suddenly felt very embarrassed. He planned to leave without the bread, but it wasn't until he tried to retreat to the side that he realized that his left hand was still firmly holding the handle of the microwave oven, and he couldn't take it off at all.

"What's wrong?" the students behind asked again.

Sean's face turned red, and he swung his right arm, trying to use his disabled right hand to forcibly press against the door, so as to forcefully pull his left hand off, but as a result of doing so, the entire microwave oven was thrown to the ground by him in an instant. The bread, plates, and the glass bottom plate of the microwave all fell to the ground, and there was a sound of shattering, which made everyone turn their heads to look here——

But the microwave oven with the door open was still tightly held by Sean's left hand.

Sean roared like crazy, he slammed the microwave oven on the ground, all the people around him dispersed in an instant, and everyone looked at him with surprised eyes.

"Sean! Sean! Calm down—"

Calvin finally came running, he hugged Sean tightly from behind, and firmly restrained his movements.

Sean couldn't break free from his brother's hand, so he could only cry loudly in the end.Calvin tried to comfort him, but couldn't do it, until Sean choked up and whispered, "Karl...I...I...forgot to charge my arm last night."

Calvin was startled, and he patted Sean on the shoulder lightly.

"It's okay, everything will be fine."

(End of this chapter)