Why it never ends

Chapter 446 Reasons
The night wind at high places is still a bit shady.

Hesta was covered with a thin blanket, and was pushed onto the highest viewing deck by Chiba.

It took a lot of trouble to get around the nurse on duty outside, and Chiba tried her best to get permission from the other party. She couldn't understand, pointing at Hesta and laughing at the nurse: "Ma'am! She only has a broken rib, isn't it?" dying!"

Hesta was impressed by the nurse's shocked expression.She guessed that if this was land and not sea, maybe the nurse would have called the police.

Gustav's screams and Su Lei's comforting voices could be heard in the distance, and the distant cries made the originally quiet night noisy.Tonight's aftermath did not seem to bring Gustav comfort, but instead plunged him into greater panic.

"Will he live to-morrow?" Hesta asked.

"That depends on how capable Su Lei is." Qianye squatted down beside Hesta, she turned to look at Hesta, "Do you want him to survive?"

"I don't know, I'm an outsider," Hesta said softly, "Anna, are you okay?"

"It's okay, her situation has always been very dangerous." Qianye said softly, "It can only be called a miracle that she can survive until now."

"Because she always does dangerous things?"

"...Yes!" Qianye nodded in agreement, "Yes, yes, she always does dangerous things, but external factors also account for a large proportion. There are too many people who want her life , if there is no zero, she will not be able to last a day on this ship."

"I know."

"You know?" Qianye laughed, "What do you know?"

"I know that Goebbels wanted Anna's life, and the shooting at the Grace Theater was aimed at her," Hesta said softly, "I can see that Anna is pretending to know nothing, and then put these Those who came to assassinate her all stood up...and she just watched the show behind the scenes, she likes it like this."

Qianye raised her eyebrows noncommittally, "Who knows?"

Gustav's heart-piercing wailing could be heard in the distance, and the quarrel stopped, and it seemed that Su Lei's consolation was very effective.Hesta glanced at the time, and it was almost an hour before Su Lei left the ward...

"Miss Chiba."

"Ok?"

"Have you ever been in a situation like mine?"

"What, a broken bone?"

"...For a long time, lose the ability to fight."

"No, but I understand, you also feel that this useless person is a little impatient, don't you?"

Hesta laughed, but the ups and downs of her breathing immediately caused severe pain in her chest, and her face was twisted into a ball, and it took a long time before she regained her composure.

Hesta buried her chin in the blanket, "...the night before yesterday, I seemed to see Sophie, Miss Chiba."

"Sophie..." Chiba recalled for a while, "Oh, that little girl."

"I have always been afraid of seeing her eyes, but she seems to be everywhere," Hesta said in a low voice, "and every time I stop taking the drug, I will see her, or the people around her."

Qianye looked sideways in surprise: "Are you afraid of her? Why are you afraid of her?"

Hesta shook his head, "...not afraid anymore."

"Are you not afraid anymore?"

"Well, because I chose her—I don't mean Sophie."

Qianye frowned again when she heard this, and this expression made Hesta laugh again - she knew that her words were difficult to understand, because she only had some vague thoughts in her heart, once these thoughts came to her mouth Side, it seems that nothing is right.

What is it that you are afraid of?

Hesta blinked.

Maybe it's the fear of discovering that the ending of revenge is nothingness, the fear that everything will be futile in the end, all the struggles will be new sharp blades in the end, and the fear of exhausting the curtain of fate, only to find that there is no end to everything.

... the end.

Looking at the endless night in front of her, she felt that the sea breeze was blowing away all her melancholy.

Once a person realizes that everything is of her own choice, she immediately understands how to bear her own destiny, not in some monstrous thing mingled with mysticism and agnosticism...but responsibility.Because in this world, the person who makes the choice is often not the one who bears the price in the end, so everything looks so cruel, as if everything is impermanent.

Like Chiba and her, she and Sophie, even... Goebbels and the thorn monks on board.

"Anyway, I am very satisfied with your current state. If there are any other problems in the future, let's see." Qianye broke the silence, "I took a risk, and now it seems that the risk is worth it. "

"...How did Miss Chiba make up her mind?" Hesta looked at her, "Just a gamble?"

"It's not all a gamble. I asked a lot of doctors I think I can trust, and I also checked some cases similar to yours. Do you know what kind of pattern I found?"

"what?"

"Most of the advice given to me was conservative treatment, and less than [-]% of the people who advised me to take other approaches added up, but they all had a common background."

Hesta waited quietly for the next sentence.

"Most of the doctors who advised me to get rid of drug dependence as soon as possible have more than two years of experience in mercury needle combat, and some of them have participated in high-risk combat." Chiba looked into Hesta's eyes, "So, even if they are few , I still decided to listen to them-they are us, and they know who we are. If everyone in a place treats you as a patient, after a long time, you will forget who you are."

Hesta leaned on the wheelchair, "...I won't."

"Well," Chiba smiled, and lightly bumped Hesta's forehead, "I know you won't—"

Before the words were finished, the big iron gate in the distance was kicked open with a "bang".

Chiba and Hesta turned their heads at the same time, and saw Lico standing aggressively in the door frame, rolling up his sleeves.

"When the nurse told me that you forcibly took people away, I was still wondering if there was some misunderstanding..." Li Ge stared at Chiba, his voice was full of anger, "I knew...you didn't count what you said ! Who said 'she's sure not to come out of here tonight'?"

"Forget it, 'the door here' does not refer to the door of the ward," Chiba pointed towards the bow of the ship, "I actually mean the door of the disembarkation port."

Li took big strides, and at the end he ran quickly, raised his hand and punched Qianye, Qianye leaned back a little, and dodged it.

Li Ke didn't stop, she was so angry that she chased after Qianye and shouted: "You are also a liar! A big liar!"

Hesta froze in place: "Lico, listen to my explanation..."

Qianye ran out for a few steps, then came back, circled around the wheelchair and Li Ke, Li Ke saw that this person was close at hand, but couldn't catch him, so he jumped in anger.

"I suddenly remembered," Qianye suddenly looked towards Hesta, "Who has that key, the golden key, now? You, or Lico?"

(End of this chapter)