Why it never ends

Chapter 427 Destiny
Hesta stood alone in the aisle outside Anna's study, briefly absent-minded.In this quiet and dark place, for a moment, many chaotic images appeared in Hesta's mind: Alvira's eyes were reflected on the burning Rohan Palace, and she heard the singing of birds that could not exist in the sea With the jungle wind, hearing Sophie's laughter and the sound of the fireplace crackling and burning at night...

Everything became suspicious, and even the narrow corridor she was in at the moment was very similar to that rainy afternoon. Hesta felt that the sky and the earth began to hang upside down again, but she just closed her eyes and gently held her forehead with her left hand.

Not far away, Rico noticed Hesta's strangeness, and quickly put down the cat in his arms.

"Jane, are you all right?"

Hesta clutched Rico's outstretched arm like a drowning clutching a branch that suddenly appeared.Rico felt that Hesta's body was a little out of balance, she broke away from Hesta, and supported the other's back from behind.

The white cat not far away sat quietly on the ground, staring at this scene intently.

……

About half an hour later, Hesta sat back in the wheelchair.After regaining clarity of consciousness, she became a little depressed—the first time in a long time that she experienced some mild symptoms during the day.It was indeed right to lock up the pair of sisters, and the loss of control last night also appeared after leaving their room.

Hesta frowned, which made her feel incomprehensible.

Rico handed her a pack of fudge, but she didn't take it.

"What about Si Lei?" Li Ke looked at her, "Should I ask someone to look for her?"

"I'll ask Miss Chiba later," Hesta covered her head with a hot water bottle and replied in a low voice, "I think she should be fine."

"why."

"It's hard to say, it's just a feeling." Hesta leaned her head back on the wheelchair, she closed her eyes, "Anna will not do anything to her, and the rest of the people have no reason to deal with her. She has I have been tracking the murder on the ship, haven't I found a lot of clues..."

Rico dragged an iron frame to stand behind Hesta. She took the hot water bottle again and tied it to the iron frame with a rope.Hesta released her left hand and looked at her wearily, "Thank you."

"Does your head still hurt?"

"A bit."

"Why are you getting more and more troubles, will it be better if I press it for you?"

"do not know……"

Rico removed the hot water bottle, she put her fingers into Hesta's red hair, and massaged it gently.Hesta exhaled a long breath, and slowly loosened his frown.

"I took a look at your medicine, and it treats a variety of diseases, tricyclics, statins, and even some anti-epileptic drugs... What disease do you have?"

"It's not really a disease. In fact, some brain regions occasionally produce some abnormal discharges," Hesta said in a low voice. A batch of relatively low side effects..."

"Isn't this a joke?"

"It's all like this..." Hesta whispered, "There is no organic disease at present, they tend to think that it is a psychogenic disease, and maybe they will be cured in the future... At least the doctor said so told me."

"Sounds like Miss Valenti's professional counterpart."

"...They can't help me." Hesta half-opened his eyes, "I can't tell them everything, and I don't like their preconceived notions..."

"Who are you talking about?"

"I can't remember any of the names, this time they sent me four therapists..." Hesta whispered, "But I know what they think, they feel that I harbor some Guilty, after all, the deaths of those killed in the 'Assassin' case were too tragic, not to mention there were other tragedies afterwards."

Hesta pondered for a moment.

"But there are things ... they don't understand, and they can't understand."

"Then are you really guilty?" Li Ke asked straightforwardly.

Hesta looked up at Rico: "Did you know that Roger has a beautiful lover, not only has a pretty face, but also can sing?"

"...how would I know such a thing."

"Once Roger died, that man committed suicide." Hesta looked into Rico's eyes, "If you killed Roger back then, there might be a few lovers who wanted to die with him—then would you feel guilty? ?”

"If you don't know it, you won't..." Li Ke pressed his thumb firmly on Hesta's scalp, "There's no need to say such things to disgust me."

"I can't just say 'no'," Hesta resumed his posture, "the therapist will think of this as a defense mechanism, I deny it because I dare not face it, and then they will say, solve it The first step to a problem is to realize that there's a problem—"

Li Ke laughed out loud, "Isn't that when your lips were honed out?"

"That really taught me a lot..."

Rico's fingertips slid to the back of Hesta's head, and suddenly touched a scar. She pulled the hair and saw a mark left by sutures. Although the skin and flesh had grown back, the scar was still vivid.

"Why is there a bald spot on the back of your head?" Li Ke looked at it carefully, "Who is so capable, can come around to this position and give you a shot—"

Hesta didn't answer right away, she pushed Lico's hand away lightly, "I did it by accident."

"Can you be careful? How can you be careless?"

"...The road was not stable, and the back of my head hit the ground and hit a big iron rod."

Li Ke was thoughtful, "It looks quite dangerous."

"Yeah, I was afraid of intracranial hemorrhage, so I did several tests in a row..." Hesta rubbed the back of his head until his hair covered the scar again, "I'm fine, Lico, my head doesn't hurt anymore .”

"Sleep for a while?"

"……it is good."

Rico watched Hesta lay down, and pulled out a chair to sit on the head of her bed.

Hesta turned her head sideways without closing her eyes, and kept looking at Rico. After a while, she stretched out her hand from under the quilt, and Rico held it.

"Have you ever doubted for a moment..." Hesta murmured, "In the world, maybe... there really is some kind of 'fate'?"

"What kind of 'destiny'?"

"A fate...that you want to end with your own hands," Hesta half-closed his eyes, "you endure it, endure it for a long time, and one day, you finally know that you can put an end to it, you know, a milestone is waiting You, step over it, the past will pass forever...so you...do your best to approach and reach..."

Rico got up from the chair, but still held Hesta's hand.She sat on the floor next to the bed so she could be closer to Hesta.

"And then," Li Ke asked softly, "is it over?"

(End of this chapter)