Why it never ends

Chapter 313 Hate
In spring, Stella drove to the address given to her by Chiba.

This is a restaurant facing the street, on the busy Front Street, it is the only one with its door tightly closed.Stella looked back and forth, and reconfirmed the name of the restaurant on her memo—The Countess on the Tree.

This seems to be a restaurant that Chiba liked very much in the past. She bought it recently, so when Stella asked Chiba if she had time to have a meal together recently, Chiba directly gave the address here.

Stella stepped forward to knock on the door, and the old wooden door quickly opened a crack, and a young girl stood behind, "Hello?"

"Hello, I'm looking for your...boss?"

Stella showed the appointment photo that Chiba had sent her before.

The young girl took Stella's cell phone and looked at it, "Are you Ms. Clifford?"

"Correct."

"Please come in."

Through the cramped hall, Stella followed the attendants to the back garden here.

Today is a cloudy day, and there is no sun in the sky of Tanyi, but the whole yard still looks full of life. A thick old pear tree stretches out its flowering branches towards the yard, and the snow-white pear blossoms are swaying in the wind.Stella stood under the tree for a while, when the wind blew across her cheeks, she felt a kind of sincere tranquility, as if at this moment she also became a flower budding in this spring.

Until there was a burst of footsteps behind her, Stella turned her head and saw Qianye appearing at the intersection in the backyard.

"It's rare for you to be late for so long, Qian—" Stella's smile froze suddenly, and she noticed that dried blood seemed to be spattering on Qianye's chest, "This is on you..."

"When I was going out, I happened to encounter a mercury needle that committed suicide, so I stopped by to help." Qianye looked down at his clothes, "Anyway, I don't go to crowded places today, so I don't bother to change."

"...Is it the one who went to the hospital with Hesta before?"

Qianye glanced at Stella in surprise, "You are very sharp."

"I remember you told me last time that the mercury needle was recovering well during this time, and you also planned to let Hesta try the electroshock therapy he received... Why did you commit suicide so quickly?"

"I asked Valenti, and she said that many patients with severe depression are like this. When they are the most ill, they don't have the strength to think about death. Instead, they are most likely to commit suicide when the treatment is effective and the depression is relieved...they Originally, the relevant protection had been done a long time ago, but an intern accidentally dropped the leather knife on the table at the nurse's station..."

Qianye took off her coat and sat down at the square table in the yard, "I hope this kind of thing won't happen to Jane in the future."

Stella also sat down, "I hope so...how is she recently, is she okay?"

"It's the same, but compared to when I first entered the hospital last winter, it's still a big improvement. I can chat for ten minutes occasionally." Qianye said softly, "It's just the problem of scratching myself all over the body, which keeps repeating over and over again. , she always felt that something was biting her, but in fact there was nothing... It's good that the weather is not hot now, but it's easy to get inflammation in summer."

"Is it out of control?"

"I wore finger cots before, but she seems to be more and more resistant to these things recently... The doctor said that this kind of protest can be regarded as a positive expression. Now the hospital arranges medicated baths for her twice a week. This placebo therapy seems to be It is very effective in relieving some phantom pains that do not exist," Chiba shrugged slightly, "I don't know, let's try."

"Have you stayed in Tan Yi to take care of her these few months?"

"I left four or five times because of work," Chiba replied, "but the longest one didn't exceed four days, and I usually go back and forth on the same day."

Stella laughed, "...you really look like a mother now."

Qianye also laughed, the wind passed between the two of them, the waiter brought up the appetizer, a few pear blossoms fell on the edge of the dinner plate, and no one brushed it off.

"What about you?" Chiba picked up the teacup, "Have you been going well recently?"

"Have you read the paper, this week?"

"no, what happened?"

"It's about Richie." Stella lowered her gaze. "In some small cities, recently some people have begun to actively search for girls who suddenly disappeared before the age of 11, saying that they were sent to the city to be raped." ... Some people committed suicide because of the humiliation, there was one in Wulian yesterday, in fact, she went to the mountains to recuperate because of tuberculosis—"

"Stella," Qianye suddenly interrupted Stella, "stop talking about suicide, let's talk about something else."

Stella shrank her neck: "...Obviously you were talking about it just now?"

"Speak for yourself, it's annoying to listen to others," Qianye said softly, "I can't bear to listen to this especially recently."

Stella was thoughtful, "...Why?"

Qianye leaned back on the chair, she was silent for a long time, "Have you ever taken care of a dying patient?"

Stella's eyes moved slightly, but she didn't say anything, just looked at Qianye quietly.

"Some people are very eager to live, but that's where their fate is, and it's useless to struggle..." Qianye lowered her head indifferently, picked up the silver spoon on the table and tapped the ceramic cup lightly, "When You see both at the same time, and you especially feel that the latter is almost a sin - alive, some people try so hard to get it and others give it up so easily, it's really... unfair.

"People who commit suicide should give up their lives...to give up to those who are desperate to live."

Stella laughed.

"why are you laughing?"

"Maybe this is the greatest fairness in the world." Stella stirred the coffee, "Whether one wants to live or not, noble or poor, a person's life is always her own, no matter how much others hate her, she will grab it Don't go - can you imagine a world where lifespans can be traded? It sure is hell out there, I wouldn't like it, and I don't think you would either."

"Would you say otherwise," Qianye raised her head and looked at the flowering branches behind Stella, "but now, I really hate it."

……

In Calvin's ward, Sean sat beside the bed, holding his brother's hand and weeping softly.

Calvin lay on the bed unconsciously. After a winter passed, he was so emaciated that Sean had never seen Calvin like this.

No matter the time of day, no matter what happened, Calvin was always there—a fact that became, in a way, the cornerstone of Sean's inner world.

Although the doctor here tried to explain to him that Calvin's behavior was due to his illness, Sean would not listen.

Suicide means leaving everything behind.

Meaning, he too was abandoned by Calvin.

(End of this chapter)