Why it never ends

Chapter 309 Destiny
"Who dares to treat you like this?"

"Oh, there are many." Ava looked at Qianye, "It's the same for you."

Chiba didn't care, "When is your surgery?"

"This afternoon."

Qianye's eyes were lowered, as if she was chewing a fact that she couldn't swallow alone. After a long time, she raised her head, "Are you going to die, Ava?"

Ava didn't answer right away, she looked at Qianye, "How did I teach you before?"

"...Don't think about death, just think about how to live."

"Yes, you still remember," Ava stretched her eyebrows, "You came to visit me this time to ask these boring questions?"

"Correct."

"Is there anything else?"

"What else?"

"Are there any questions you want to ask about Hesta?"

Qianye laughed suddenly, she lowered her head, and buried her face in the palm of her left hand again, "What do you think of me... I'm the kind in a livable place, and there's nothing you can do about a child rebelling against her young mother?"

The corners of Ava's mouth raised slightly, "Oh, aren't you."

"Of course not. I will personally investigate what happened and find out everything. No one can fool me." Qianye looked deeply at the person in front of him, "You can't—"

"But what's the use?" Ava replied slowly, "You have found out everything, but Hesta is still lying in the hospital now."

"I really couldn't figure this out, why did you—"

"You know Qianye," Ava interrupted Qianye again, she said quietly, "It is entirely your responsibility that Hesta will come to where he is today."

Qianye was stunned for two seconds: "...what?"

"Oh, are you surprised, looking at me with this expression," Ava narrowed her eyes, "Then I'll say it again, you are to blame for Hesta getting to where he is today."

"Am I to blame?" Qianye's anger suddenly flared up, "I didn't intend to argue with you about this matter, if you didn't carry my back—"

"Hesta is 20 years old this year," Ava interrupted Chiba for the third time. "What were you doing when you were 20? What is she doing now?"

"She has her own life, she doesn't have to repeat mine!"

"Her own life...ha, haha," Ava looked at Chiba sarcastically, "You are referring to the fact that she has been sent to fight everywhere by AHgAs all these years, she has been born and died without a name, and not only put the whole purpose of her life on To avenge some relatives who have died for many years, and after the vengeance is avenged, turn around and torture yourself into the hospital?"

Ava admired Qianye's furious but silent expression, and made a leisurely summary:

"This is not life, Chiba, this is a joke."

The whole ward was completely silent, Qianye's hands were completely clenched into fists, her breathing was almost trembling, Ava could even see the wrinkled skin on the bridge of her nose, and heard the faint sound of teeth grinding.

After a long while, Qianye suddenly breathed a sigh of relief. She bent down and propped her forehead with both hands.

"You're right, Ava, I'm a lousy guardian... I just don't, don't know how to raise a child."

Ava looked at her quietly for a while, then looked back: "I checked your visit records over the years, and you never go back to the base to see her a few times a year, I thought you didn't pay much attention to this child... It wasn't until the last time you came to Bruno to find me that I realized that things might not be as I thought. You seem to take her very seriously...I don't understand, why?"

Qianye didn't answer, she rubbed the center of her brows, and raised her head after a long time, "...What is the problem, if you know, can you tell me?"

Ava's eyes darkened, "You're not honest enough."

"Honestly?"

"You don't dare to teach her your true skills, even if those are the roads you have traveled by yourself...you shrink back so much."

Qianye immediately frowned, "I didn't!"

"You don't have to argue with me, you know if you know it in your heart," Ava said lightly, "You have a lot of ideas about some insignificant things, Hesta dared to teach others with a gun in the first few months after entering the base A reserve member who has been awakened for the second time—I don't believe you didn't muddy the waters in this matter.

"In terms of real life choices? Have you ordered Hesta to follow your expectations? Do you have a clear framework for her? When she has some naive thoughts, have you stopped her severely?" She, teach her a lesson?"

Before Chiba could answer, Ava had already said, "You definitely didn't."

"Order her to do what I expected..." Qianye looked at Ava with disgust, "You have tried it on me, does it work?"

"No," Ava said loudly, "What is the frame used for? It's not used to restrict her, but to support her——she's a big living person, what rules you set for her is up to you , she may not always abide by it, but if you are firm, she will feel your determination, and she will learn to set her own standards in the collision with you—isn’t that how you came here?”

"...Why do we have to torture each other like this?"

"Because she is a quicksilver needle, you can't fantasize about giving her any worldly happiness."

"I haven't fantasized about that, and I know full well that it's impossible—but if she just wants to make an ordinary quicksilver needle, or—"

"Then have you asked her?" Ava looked at Chiba's expression, "You seem very unwilling to let Hesta repeat your old ways."

"...She 'should' have her own choice." Chiba whispered.

Ava didn't refute anymore, she looked sideways again, looking at the mountains on the wall.

"Qianye, I've been lying here for more than a month, and something has been spinning in my mind."

"what?"

"Chelation disease will end one day, and humans will conquer it completely, just like other diseases that have brought us a terrible price... By that time, AHgAs is destined to disappear from the stage of history along with chelation disease, mercury What will be the fate of the needles?

"Have you seen those signal towers that go deep into habitable places? Even if the chelate disappears, those signal towers that were built will still not fall down. Everything we have done to deal with the chelate today will be in the future It’s all our turn—at the end of the day, for most people, there’s not much difference between mercury needles and chelates.”

Ava looked at Chiba again.

"I probably won't see such a day, but what about you and Hesta? Look at the fourteen regions under the current coalition government, look at these civilizations and their internal order, even if there is any place in the middle Is it something you would like to live long after leaving AHgAs?

"If you had the misfortune to meet that day in your lifetime, what would your fate be like...Have you ever thought about it?"

(End of this chapter)