Crazy Psychologist

Chapter 63 Endless
"and then?"

"There's no then, and then it's just counting numbers over and over with everything in the house."

Li Nan smiled, his hair still hadn't been cleaned, but his face and hands looked much neater than the first time he came to the hospital.

"Have you started washing your face?"

Mu Chun asked.

"Well, I'm starting to wash my face."

Li Nan's voice was very low. It was really hard for such a big man to not wash his face and still be conscious.

"Sometimes I really hope that I'm a jerk. I used to go to a forum and there were a lot of people in my situation, but everyone's situation seems to be different. I see people who have to walk in a 7-shape. Yes, if you make a mistake, you have to walk again."

When Chu Sisi heard Li Nan say this, her heart jumped wildly. She stretched out her hand to cover her face, for fear that the expression on her face would reveal some terrible information.

"What's wrong with Dr. Chu? Are you uncomfortable? Li Nan is your patient."

"Oh no, I'm fine."

"It's fine. I'll go downstairs to the nurse's desk to see what new patients I can wait for. This one will trouble Dr. Chu first."

When he was about to go out, Mu Chun did not forget to smile at Chu Sisi, and there was no kindness in this smile.

"Then you said that forum?"

Chu Sisi didn't know where to start, so she simply continued on from what Li Nan said just now.

"Well, the server was suddenly paralyzed a few months ago, and I can't access it anymore. I only saw this forum at the beginning of the year."

"Have you tried posting some of your situation on the forum and asking everyone what exactly caused your situation?"

"No, I haven't been in the habit of posting on forums for a long time, and this matter is difficult for me."

The last sentence was so soft that Chu Sisi couldn't hear it clearly.

She stood up, walked to the window sill and closed all the windows. A voice outside the window prevented her from hearing what Li Nan said.

"You didn't post, so you're just watching what other people say on the forum?"

"Yes, that's about it. I read almost all the posts and replies on the forum. For a while, I almost lived on these posts."

"Live?" Chu Sisi bit her lip, and her right hand under the table tightly squeezed the corner of the white coat.

His hands were sweating non-stop, and finally sweat began to appear on his forehead.

Li Nan is an observant person. He saw Chu Sisi's nervousness, so he comforted: "It's okay, I'm fine, I'm used to it."

"But it's impossible to get used to, right? A life almost destroyed."

Li Nan was a little surprised, how could Dr. Chu suddenly say such a thing with emotion.

Doctor, shouldn't it be cold?

I didn't have much hope at first, I just thought that maybe, there might be a chance, I almost tried my best to go out, whether I can go out next time, whether I can still come to the hospital, I am afraid it depends on the will of God.

It's really a shame for a young doctor to be so embarrassed by a patient who can't find the cause in the book.

Compared to Mu Chun's comfort in his seat, this Doctor Chu was even more nervous than the patient.

"Yeah, it's impossible to get used to, it keeps repeating, and those things will change. During this period of time, you have to lift the quilt and put it down 21 times a day before you can get out of bed. I opened my eyes and closed my eyes 21 times. It is easy to make mistakes when I open my eyes and close my eyes. If I make a mistake, I have to count again. Sometimes my whole body feels like an ant is biting, but I can't resist it and I don't dare not do it.

Why are people so timid? "

"I do not know either."

Chu Sisi muttered to herself.

"What? Doctor Chu, I'm sorry I didn't hear you clearly."

"I said, I don't know either."

I don't know how to help Li Nan, I don't know how to respond to what Li Nan said, I don't know anything, my mind is blank, Chu Sisi thinks it's too difficult, the treatment of patients is really sitting on this chair. At that time, everything became too difficult and completely different from what I imagined.

Why is Mu Chun so relaxed in this chair, as if everything is logical.

"Yeah, but talking to you guys will make me feel better, and I don't know why."

"Really? Then come here often to chat."

Li Nan embarrassed to squeeze out a little smile.

Chu Sisi saw a handsome face through his disheveled hair. Before he got sick, he should have been a very dazzling boy.

But now, it is a person who is always under tension.

Li Nan has a very good description, "I'm only free every morning when I wake up, and half a minute later, when my consciousness is fully awake, my brain seems to be occupying 99% of the memory, everywhere. It's stuck, it's hard to walk. There's only a moment of relaxation when you've just done something, and soon these weird thoughts come back."

So his room is his prison, there are obstacles everywhere, he is not free, not for a moment.But he couldn't leave either, he was willing and reluctant to lock himself in the room.

"It would be great if the forum was still there. I went to that forum again these few days and found that it still hasn't recovered. There should be hundreds of people who have posted on it. Everyone's situation is quite similar. I'm studying chemistry. Yes, I don't know much about a lot of things, especially the text stuff, and I don't feel very much either.

To be honest with Dr. Chu, I looked for a lot of books to read, and I bought about a dozen. I think since there are so many people on the forum who have similar symptoms, maybe there are books about me.

Later, I found Teacher Chu Xiaofeng's book. He said that this kind of repetitive behavior can be treated by talk therapy, so I should go to the psychiatrist in the hospital to see it.

So I came here because it's really close to where I live. "

"I want to know, what's your fear like? Do you think those things will actually happen."

Chu Sisi intends to first talk to Li Nan about his thoughts according to the method in his father's book, and maybe he can find some good starting points. As for what to do next, she has not thought about it yet, at least talk about it, maybe you can ask teacher.

"No, I can't tell. That state is very strange. I feel strongly that something terrible is reminding me in my mind."

Just after finishing speaking, Li Nan waved his hand again to deny the sentence he just finished, "I should say that there is a voice in my head that keeps pressing the siren, like a fire alarm, keeps saying, terrifying. Things will happen."

(End of this chapter)