Crazy Psychologist

Chapter 315 In Terrorist Thoughts
But one day, a small event happened in life, or it was a sunny day at all, and the wind was smooth, and that person suddenly didn't want to continue reciting words.

So he gave up.

"It tastes really good."

As Mu Chun spoke, he opened the drawer and took out a piece of chocolate, peeled off the wrapping paper with gold stripes on the black background, and threw it into his mouth with a huff.

Little Bell also seemed to smell the fragrance all over the room, and twitched her mouth in her sleep.

Maybe it was because the sound of the babbling was too cute, Gu Tiantian suddenly peeled off the candy wrapper and stuffed the chocolate into his mouth.

It was really delicious, and Gu Tiantian, who had always liked dark chocolate, suddenly felt that something good was happening this afternoon.

Perhaps because of the stronger smell of chocolate, the frequency of Little Bell's mouth smacking also increased. While moving her small mouth, her fat right hand grabbed Gu Tiantian's left shoulder a few times rhythmically. .

"Do you like the smell of chocolate so much, Little Bell?"

Gu Tiantian was really mesmerized by Little Bell's cute appearance, couldn't help but kissed the child's cheek, and then laughed happily himself.

The haze on Mu Chun's face was also swept away by this laughter.

"I still have two yuan here, do you want one piece for each person?" Mu Chun asked.

Gu Tiantian originally wanted to say that he would not eat it, he would already feel guilty to eat a piece, but it is really a delicious piece of chocolate.

The little bell seemed to understand it and grabbed Gu Tiantian's shoulder again. Gu Tiantian nodded and got another piece of chocolate.

"What brand of chocolate is this, I've never seen it before."

Gu Tiantian asked while peeling off the package.

"It's a chocolate recommended by Xiao Shuigua. It is said to be suitable for most office workers to relieve stress. It is imported from Switzerland and is quite expensive."

"I haven't eaten chocolate for a long time, but I can't control it today."

"Why do you need to control? Life is about to change. Being the same doesn't mean everything is peaceful. The earth revolves around the sun, and there are springs, summers, autumns and winters around the sea. Every season has a high incidence of epidemics. Spring is chickenpox, and summer is intestinal disease. Infectious diseases may be hand, foot, mouth and flu in autumn. The cells in the human body will metabolize once every three months on average. Old cells die and new cells are born gorgeously. It takes seven years to replace them all, that is to say, physiologically, we become another person every seven years. You are you, but you are not you anymore.

People get old, sick and die every year, lovers break up every day, strangers meet each other, old people leave, new babies are born, the world can never remain the same, there is no eternal stability.

Humans like stability. In order to get rid of the fear caused by instability, people invented control, but control is often accompanied by loss of control, so human beings are irritable, furious, blame each other, blame themselves or others, but forget that the best way to avoid loss of control is To avoid control, humans need chocolate. "

Gu Tiantian almost really listened to Mu Chun's sudden words, but the last sentence made her completely stunned.

"Doctor, what did you just say?"

"I said that no piece of chocolate in the world is perfect, and no one will ask for a piece of perfect chocolate, then put it in your mouth and eat it all. We will not ask for that."

After giving birth, Gu Tiantian has indeed changed a lot. As Mu Chun said, she began to hope that she would be a perfect mother, and that during the growth of the child, at least during the few years when she was taking care of her, nothing would happen. occur.

I always feel that I will be a special case favored by God. My child may never be injured under careful care, and will not have some diseases that children usually experience. For example, many children within one year of age will 【Children's Acute Rash】 (also known as infantile roseola, burning rash, is an acute rash infectious disease caused by human herpes virus type 6 infection and common in infants and young children. When the onset occurs, abnormalities appear on the back, neck and other parts of the body. Regular erythema, mild cold symptoms or persistent high temperature in 3-5 days, rash within 12-24 hours after fever subsides. Most babies will disappear in 1-3 days. Babies will not feel itching, except in special cases It will heal in about a week, so don't worry too much.)
It's just trying so hard to be perfect, to keep all the bad things out of the house, and to let little Bell grow up truly carefree and without setbacks.

So I tortured myself into [postpartum depression], this word is really appropriate!

"Then what's going on with me today? I offended everyone in my family. It's not the same as the original problem. I was afraid that the child would be in danger, and I was afraid that if I was not careful, the little bell would—"

Gu Tiantian didn't say those two words, she knew that Mu Chun understood what she meant.

She glanced at Mu Chun and seemed to see Mu Chun nodded, so she went on to say: "In the afternoon, it was terrible. It was different from before. I felt that my thoughts were the danger to the baby. I think it was me. To kill the baby."

"But this horrible thought, just a thought, could it happen? Did it happen?"

Gu Tiantian shook his head desperately, "It's not like this, I think it's too real, real is like the past tense and past perfect tense in English, I am the mother who has committed the crime."

Gu Tiantian hugged the little bell tightly, and the sadness in her heart blocked her tears. The most important thing, she finally gained a little confidence in herself, and even started planning to find a job in the next year. Now everything seems to be getting worse .

"It will change, things like depression will change in performance, I need to give you a simple test, it will take you a few minutes, okay?"

Gu Tiantian nodded, Gu Tiantian, who was holding the little bell, now only hoped that such a terrible thought would not appear again.

"In fact, everyone in their lifetime will probably experience what happened to you today. Someone will stand on the roof and imagine what will happen if I push the person in front of me; someone will be swimming. Time to fantasize about what it would be like if I held the man's feet to keep him from coming out of the water.

The so-called "horrific thoughts" are not entirely the corruption of our moral character. Once they appear or appear, we are sinful, sinful souls, unforgivable, and not worth saving.Not at all. "

"What's that like?" Gu Tiantian desperately wanted to know the answer, wanting to believe that he was not an evil and bad mother.

(End of this chapter)