If I don't have money to go to college, I can only go to slay the dragon

Chapter 48 The Self
Facing Lin Nian, who was angry from his heart, Miyamoto Yixin lowered his eyes slightly with a cold smile on his face: "Lin Niansang, have you ever thought about what kind of person you are?"

"It doesn't seem to have anything to do with Mr. Miyamoto."

"No, since you entered school, I have been observing Lin Niansang from all aspects." Miyamoto Yixin said: "People are always curious, and a person who is looking forward to everyone should always have something different from others. or pride, or anger, or self-effacing, or indifference. But in you, I see nothing, I only see one person, an ordinary person."

"If my performance since entering school disappoints you, then I'm not sorry or disappointed about it, I can't please everyone, and I don't want to please others, I just need to live my own life. That's it." Lin Nian said coldly.

"But ordinary people don't need sharpness." Miyamoto Yixin made a gesture of pressing down with a finger: "But since we met just now, I have felt that uncontrollable sharpness in you. , as if it only needs to be pressed lightly now, and the cutting edge will be poked out from under the skin."

"Everyone has a temper, and I don't like your self-confessed way of talking too much." Lin Nian bluntly confronted the showdown: "Looking at it now, I don't think there is anyone in this academy who can come and "sculpt" Me, or "guidance" me, even if there were, it wouldn't be you, Mr. Miyamoto."

"Is it a matter of age? Do you think I'm still too young?" Miyamoto Yixin was a little surprised at Lin Nian's opinion.

"No, if you judge people by age, then I made the same mistake as you."

"Then how does Lin Niansang see that I am not qualified to speak to you at your perseverance?"

"How can this kind of thing be explained clearly? If Mr. Miyamoto insists on asking, then I can only answer - I can tell just by looking at it." Lin Nian said calmly.

Miyamoto Yixin applauded again: "Sure enough, I didn't misunderstand, but I don't think I have a deeper understanding of you."

"I'm sorry, I don't know myself." Lin Nian turned around and was about to leave the table: "I'm sorry, because this conversation between us was really not pleasant."

"Lin Nian, don't go in such a hurry." Miyamoto Yixin's voice sounded from behind, and Lin Nian suddenly moved sideways for nearly half a meter for no reason. He turned his head and looked behind him in horror, but I was stunned to find that Miyamoto Yixin was still standing still, with his hands relaxed by his side, and his eyes staring at him loosely.

This is the second time that Lin Nian has made such unreasonable actions today. This feeling is really uncomfortable. Although nothing happened, his body moved like a conditioned reflex, and it was like he became a marionette. Uncontrollable bad feeling.

And these two meaningless actions undoubtedly happened after meeting this Miyamoto Yixin. Lin Nian could only think that everything had to do with the man in front of him. Out of curiosity, out of anger, he suppressed it. The urge to walk away stood still and asked, "What did you do to me?"

"What did I do to you?" Miyamoto turned his head sideways: "Didn't you say it just now, you don't know yourself well, how can you tell that you didn't do something to yourself?"

Words in the clouds and fog, inexplicable conversation.

Lin Nian was about to get tired of this kind of conversation. At the same time, he also thought of the unusual cluster of Kassel College, and the student union's Anbo Pavilion standing here. A group of unusual elites found strange things in them. Things couldn't be more normal.

"Yanling?"

"Of course not, no one can speak their minds under the 'discipline' of the night watchman, and I am no exception." Miyamoto said with a light smile: "Perhaps you can talk to me a few more words and find out which one of us is the best The questions you care about, your answers will be easily solved."

"I'm curious, how can a person live in a prescribed situation for decades, and successfully integrate himself into this situation as if it were natural." Miyamoto looked at Lin Nian's face carefully. : "I have read your files. In the past 16 years of life, you have been very ordinary, extremely ordinary. You spent your childhood in an orphanage, and spent your youth in a rented house outside. The biggest daily worry is your school grades. Compared with the utility bills and rent of the rental house, your life seems to be only daily necessities and monthly utility bills.”

"When I first saw this resume, I thought that the school made a mistake, or there was a technical error in your 'S' rating, because a mixed race should not be so ordinary." Miyamoto said indifferently: "You have claws, you have teeth, but you chose to disguise yourself as an ordinary person for 16 years, and even took the initiative to integrate into this kind of life, trying your best to keep him and maintain him, lest your bloodline be destroyed All of this, in my opinion, is a very incredible thing.”

"Excuse me, do you have any opinion on my life?" If Miyamoto Yixin's arrogance caused Lin Nian's discomfort at first, then this remark is now on the verge of provoking Lin Nian.

Denying a person's past life experience is tantamount to rejecting the person's vocals. .

"—Of course I don't mean that the way of life of 'Guiyin Yamada' is wrong, because I have seen this kind of people in Japan, and there are many, but these people all have one feature in common, that is Suffering from bloodlines, some of them are the leaders of the underworld, and some are ghosts living in the underground world. After experiencing the mountains of corpses and the sea of ​​blood and the hell of Shura, they see through the advantages, disadvantages, beauty and cruelty of their own bloodlines. At that time, they will choose to live like you." Miyamoto looked at Lin Nian's eyes calmly, as if trying to see through what was hidden in the deepest part of those eyes: "But Lin Nian, what did you do in the past? You shouldn’t have encountered these things in 16 years of experience, right? How cruel hell have you ever seen, that you choose to gather minions for decades and become an ordinary person?”

hell?

In Lin Nian's mind, the black fortress of loneliness in the ice field flashed away, and a feeling of loneliness and coldness rose from the bottom of his heart, but was suppressed by him in an instant. He looked at Miyamoto coldly and said with all his heart: "I'm sorry, I haven't seen any hell, nor have I seen any mountains of blood. I am very satisfied with my life for the past 16 years. I can say that I am such an ordinary, featureless person."

"If it's true as you said, your life in the past 16 years has not been disturbed, then you are not ordinary and you have the final say now, after all, you haven't experienced too many things." Miyamoto said slowly with one heart: "To see whether a person is a leader or a coward, a revolutionary or a traitor, it is not enough to just "think"; to judge what a person is, one needs to experience "things", a lot of 'things', good things , bad things, when you stand in front of the threshold of choice, you make your own judgment, then you can know what kind of person you are."

Although Lin Nian was tired of the current conversation, at this moment he listened carefully to Miyamoto Isshin's remarks, because he has always been a rational person. 'Debate' or 'quarrel', if it is the latter, he will not hesitate to give up wasting time and turn around. If it is the former, he will finish this debate without any extra emotions.

He has to admit that Miyamoto Isshin's words are not wrong. If a person wants to know what kind of person he is, he can only see it when he encounters various things and reacts and makes choices.

And the past 16 years of Lin Nian were too ordinary, he held the "power" but flinched and became an ordinary person, and he often lay in the bed of the rental house, thinking excitedly that he could use this power What to do with this "power", he can become a track and field athlete, participate in the Olympics, and even be a heroic Batman!
It's just that every time he thinks of the most exciting time, he will be afraid.

It was a kind of fear without reason. It was like watching Lin Nian quietly from the bottom of the deep pool in his heart. Whenever Lin Nian had this kind of thought, it would burrow out like a poisonous snake with the cold temperature and warmth. Great fear oppressed Lin Nian, reminding him of various bad times and giving up the idea.

It was as if someone had planted an idea in his head.

- Expose yourself, and you will be saved forever.

(End of this chapter)