If I don't have money to go to college, I can only go to slay the dragon

Chapter 1120 Long time no see
Einstein put forward the theory of relativity and said that putting your hand on a hot stove for 1 minute feels like an hour has passed, and spending an hour with a beautiful girl in a room feels like 1 minute has passed.

Lu Mingfei still remembers the gravel road with dandelions on the side of the riverside road that he and Chen Wenwen walked. At that time, he always felt that the road was too short, and the 10-minute journey passed by those trivial things in the blink of an eye. In the words, I always feel that no matter how long the road is, it is not enough for them to walk.

He also fantasized about it in vain on that road. If he was really lucky to be with Chen Wenwen one day, wouldn't the future days be like light because of the theory of relativity?In a blink of an eye, the room was full of knees, and in a blink of an eye, I was sitting in a wheelchair with her watching the sunset.Maybe Lu Mingfei at that time never thought of it, he cherished the time with the girl like gold, and one day it would make him restless.

He burned the youth and love all over the mountains and plains with his own growth, and the wasteland naturally grew maturity and reunion. When he set foot on that hillside again, he was dazed and frightened.Disappointed because nothing seemed to have changed, feared that nothing had changed, so he thought of the possibility of starting over.

Every minute on the train is like a year to him. There are 1 seconds in a minute, and they can always say about ten sentences in 1 seconds. Every sentence Lu Mingfei needs to think about, needs to be considered, and cannot be said Wrong, but you can't say nothing.

"Is that your classmate?" Chen Wenwen asked.

"Yes, we are at the same level, but in different departments."

"Your classmate is...Russian? It's really good to hear her spoken Chinese just now." Chen Wenwen turned her head slightly and carefully looked at Ling's side face. The unique facial lines of Russian girls cannot be hidden. It was soft and deep, very distinctive, but in order not to offend her, she still asked Lu Mingfei one more question.

"Our school counts Chinese credits, and many people have taken Chinese as an elective. That group of people are the kings of internal examinations, and they can do everything, so everyone can speak Chinese."

Lu Mingfei is not talking nonsense, because Kassel College Chinese really counts as credits, and it is not an elective, but a compulsory course.Fortunately, I don’t have to go back to IELTS hell, but the price is that when I go home, my aunt and the others always chase after Lu Mingfei to ask how he is doing in American spoken English, and whether he can communicate with foreigners fluently. They were all sweating profusely and didn't know how to explain it.

Ling has never participated in the "chat" between Lu Mingfei and Chen Wenwen, until the topic was brought to her, she turned her head politely and stared at Chen Wenwen.

"Hello? I'm Lu Mingfei's high school classmate, Chen Wenwen." Chen Wenwen found that the other party was staring at her, and she couldn't stand still. She took the initiative to take a step forward with Lu Mingfei in the middle, and stretched out her hand under Lu Mingfei's arm , and Zero reluctantly shook hands.

"Zero." The self-introduction is quite brief, and there is no difference in treatment.

"Ling?" Chen Wenwen didn't quite understand the meaning of the name, whether it was a transliteration of a Russian name, or her Chinese name was "Ling".

"Her Chinese name is Ling. We all know her by this name. It is simple and easy to remember. Her original name is too long. It is exhausting to call it all at once." Lu Mingfei explained.

Zero nodded cooperatively, and calmly turned his eyes away to look at the white light signs that flowed like shadows in the dark tunnel outside the subway window.

She refused to communicate with Chen Wenwen.

"How long are you going to stay in Beijing this time?" Seeing that Ling didn't seem to want to talk, Chen Wenwen took half a step back and put her hands in front of her body and asked in a low voice.

"I'm not sure, this time we're here to study and collect music. We can't say when we'll go back. It depends on the school's arrangements, right? But we haven't run away for about ten days and a half." Lu Mingfei was also a little melancholy He also wants to know how long this mission will last, but judging from the current situation, it is estimated that he will not be able to find the dragon's nest in one day, and he will not be able to return to school in one day.

"Is there a place to live?" Chen Wenwen asked.

"There is a place to live, there is a place to live, the little heavenly girl treats guests, we will stay in the hotel over Wangfujing, the location is good, and you can see the large eaves of the Forbidden City from the rooftop where you can drink afternoon tea upstairs." Lu Mingfei thought that this should be It can be said that hotel check-in information is basically semi-public, and anyone who is interested can find it out.

"Like something Su Xiaoqiang would do." Chen Wenwen smiled lowly.

"En." Lu Mingfei said.

They're done chatting now.

The subway was rumbling forward, Lu Mingfei looked at the lights on the platform, and found that there was silence between him and Chen Wenwen.

The eyes of the two intersected, and then separated instantly, looking elsewhere.

Lu Mingfei suddenly realized that no one would start a new topic, so silence came naturally, and the rumble of the subway was all around his ears.

silence.

Silence close at hand.

The silence after a long absence.

in fact.

In fact, they can say nothing more, wait until the subway arrives at the destination, the carriage door opens, leave after a brief farewell, and end this unexpected meeting in silence.

But Lu Ming was not inexplicable, he always felt that he should say something and find some topics.

He was a little restless in his heart, but he felt absurdly self-deprecating, that kind of contradiction, that kind of complexity, when he had new ideas one after another, he quickly punctured and rejected them.

Maybe I should.No, I can't. But I want to, do I really want to?Does it mean more if I think about it?But I don't want to do that anymore, but are you really willing not to do it?Those thoughts were obscure and chaotic, like the humming and wind in the tunnel, echoing the chirping spirally, dancing in the eyes of the expressionless boy.

Generally speaking, Lu Mingfei doesn't like the silence between himself and Chen Wenwen now, because this kind of silence is by no means the tacit silence of the past, and what is spreading between them now is a speechless silence.

The relationship between people is nothing more than two kinds, you can talk at any time, and you can not talk at any time.Get the same joy of sharing in talking, and the same pleasant passing of time in the silence that does not speak.

If people can talk at any time, but they can't speak, and they are eager to find a reason to speak when they are not speaking, then the relationship is probably sick.

This kind of sickness will swallow the words between people, and give birth to the same sick silence. This kind of silence will quietly eat each other's emotions, put them on fire, and not allow them to make a sound. Seconds are painful torture.

Lu Mingfei never thought that this torture would happen to him and Chen Wenwen, which made him a little bit perplexed and hard to accept, so he couldn't help wanting to veto this reality.

"I" Lu Mingfei looked up.

Chen Wenwen also raised her head, but Lu Mingfei stopped, tilted her head and scratched her ears, the girl smiled lightly and lowered her head to look away.

The abnormal rhythm of the heart spread to the throat. When I wanted to say something, my throat beat with the sound of the heartbeat and swallowed all the syllables.

Lu Mingfei didn't say anything, nothing was said.

From Lu Mingfei's point of view, it seemed that nothing he said was appropriate.

How about something, about school?Can't talk, Kassel College has nothing to talk about.

Speaking of the past, their past?The story of Shilan High School, that is not worth talking about, let him pass the past, don't bother the current people.

Talk about now, talk about life now?Indeed, this is a good topic. The classmates have not seen each other for a long time and basically talk about life.Lu Mingfei can't talk about his own life, so let's talk about Chen Wenwen's life.

For example, he actually thought about the opening remarks, Hey, Wenwen, how is school doing recently?Or in other words, have you adapted to the rhythm here during this period of time?If you don’t want to talk about the weather, you can say that the weather in Beijing is very dry. My lips cracked when I got off the plane. Do you have any lipstick with you? Can you lend me some lipstick?

But Lu Mingfei didn't ask, and it was hard to say what he cared about, but he couldn't hold back his genuine concern.

weird.

—

Ok.

So now, let’s leave the awkward and terrifying silence on the subway for a while, and see the boy and girl in front of the carriage door from a third perspective, with a distance of no more than [-] centimeters, and each other can feel the breathing rate of the other.

Let's talk about Lu Mingfei first.

People like Lu Mingfei are generally called sluts, because sluts are hypocritical, and their thoughts are always delicate in inexplicable places. He probably feels that if he suddenly asks about a girl’s life now, what happened to her recently? Whether it is good or not, it will be too abrupt.

Where is abrupt.

Suddenly, Lu Mingfei didn't want Chen Wenwen to think that he was eager to know the other party's situation, just like the lovers who have been separated for a long time, no one will go first and keep it in the historical records. "That's it!" Typing the next "how are you doing?" in the chat bar will make people feel like they've lost.People who care about others first are always losers, even if they know to throw this branch, the other side will be very happy to catch it.

So that time was good enough, when Lu Mingfei stayed with that dandelion-colored girl, there would always be that kind of tacit understanding. I have a crush on you, but I also know that you understand my heart. With you, I understand each other. When thinking, the quietness that emerges is full of tacit understanding.

He misses that time very much, and also misses the tacit understanding during that time, but in the blink of an eye, the awkward silence between each other now makes him try hard to break, to find those specious topics, to prove that something is actually not true. Change.

But things that have changed have changed. This mutual silence and mutual estrangement are all brought about by those ubiquitous changes.

Perhaps friends who are smart enough, if they are by Lu Mingfei's side, can't help but ask sharp questions, "Lu Mingfei, haven't you and Chen Wenwen already ended? Shaking hands and making peace, put an end to the sour youth that was messy and entangled in the past, why is it inexplicably hypocritical now? You don’t want to. Resurrection, do you?”

But it is a pity that no one will ask Lu Mingfei this question, and there is no need for anyone to ask.

Because maybe Lu Mingfei had asked himself this question in his heart while the subway was running wildly in the tunnel, and he also got the answer.

No one knows what the answer is, or in other words, people who have really had similar emotional experiences also know the answer.

——That is not a clear answer, and the answer itself cannot provide any subjective initiative for itself. Its existence is like an unlocked door. You slam the door and hide in the room, but you deliberately do not Don't lock the door, it's not hard to think about what you are waiting for when you are squatting at the foot of the bed wrapped in a quilt and looking at the door.

I know, I'm timid, I cringe, and I'm full of anticipation.

That's why Lu Mingfei got the slut's fair evaluation. Perhaps in terms of right and wrong, he has successfully developed a character of being decisive because of Lin Nian, but in terms of personal emotions, those lingering lingering on his cheeks On the spider web called emotion, he has always been that Lu Mingfei.

These things are not something that Lin Nian can teach him, and they are also things that Lin Nian will not teach him. The entanglement between right and wrong is constant, and it may be the test of Lu Mingfei's life, just like his own name.

Lin Nian can't judge Lu Mingfei's hypocritical right or wrong, can we really judge this kind of indecision, which is right or wrong?
No one knows what the end of the story is. If the entanglement and pain continue, whether it will be the pain of time, or the bitterness will be rewarded, and the broken mirror will be reunited.This is also the root cause of Lu Mingfei’s difficulty in escaping from it—an unforgettable relationship (I would like to call any relationship that runs through a boy or girl’s youth and makes them think about it day and night is unforgettable), as long as it starts, Only when that fistful of loess was spilled on the coffin lid was it over.

But in the end, after talking so much, returning to Lu Mingfei, his real fear may be that he will completely push the door open with his next sentence, and give both parties a [reason].

After talking about Lu Mingfei's indecision, let's talk about Chen Wenwen.

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"Mingfei."

Lu Mingfei, who was still thinking about something unimportant to say, raised his head when he heard the sound.

"How are you doing recently?" Chen Wenwen asked softly.

His heart skipped a beat, his head was a little empty, and he looked at Chen Wenwen in a daze.

He saw the girl looking at him with that somewhat unspirited but still energetic face.

She asked very bravely, without any pretentious naturalness, very sincere, that kind of sincerity made it difficult for Lu Mingfei to stabilize his forced natural expression based on fear.

"I want to hear the interesting things that happened around you during this time, can you tell me?" Chen Wenwen looked into his eyes and whispered.

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Maybe there is nothing to say about Chen Wenwen from now on, as you can see.

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Someone in the subway sighed slightly, very low and clear.

Ling lowered his eyes and looked at the reflections of the opposite boy and girl in front of the car door outside the window. Her beautiful figure was hidden in the crowd in the car, trying not to disturb the fluttering mind of the wind blowing dandelion.

Now she didn't want to look at it any more, and was about to withdraw her gaze.

It's ridiculous, but actually she couldn't laugh out loud. When she was about to withdraw her gaze, she accidentally saw Lu Mingfei not far behind her secretly borrowing the reflection of the window to look at her. Own.

What's more, the eyes of Zero and Lu Mingfei met on the glass at that moment.

Chen Wenwen looked at Lu Mingfei and waited for his answer. Lu Mingfei looked at Ling in the subway window when his mind was blank. He was shocked to find that Ling in the car glass was also watching him quietly, as if he had been watching him from beginning to end. They're all watching him.

　ps: I can't say

　　
　
(End of this chapter)