old dream

Chapter 402

What's going on?
Seeing the busy Emil, Vera couldn't help becoming curious.She knew that Emil's nature was a bit carefree, so she rarely saw why he cared so much about things.unless……

Could it be about me?Vera thought happily.

She guessed right.Although, it's not something to be happy about.

Emil had no plan to hide it from Vera, but she was too busy just now, so she had time to say it.So while starting to prepare the potion, he asked Vera to take the note from his pocket.Vera glanced at him suspiciously, but still leaned forward and groped in Emil's arms.

When Vera got the note with the secret order of the Intelligence Department and unfolded it to read the content, Emil whispered to her about today's accident.

He didn't hide any details, from the commander's assassination plan, to the failed persuasion, and his decision to set her free.

Emil narrated these things, his voice unconsciously heavy.The more Vera listened, the paler her face became.Then, as if she didn't want to hear Emil finish speaking, Vera stepped forward and hugged his arm tightly, interrupting what he said.

Suddenly being hugged by the arm, Emil couldn't continue to prepare the medicine.He tried to smoke, but found that the other party was unexpectedly persistent.

"don't want……"

Vera buried her face in Emil's arms and murmured in a muffled voice.

Emile thought about it again, yes... Anyone who knows that he is going to be ordered to die, and he can't even reveal the reason to you, will probably have the same reaction as Vera.He only thought that she was afraid that she would be sent to a hunting ground to become a victim. Feeling the warmth and trembling from her arms, Emil felt infinite tenderness and compassion in his heart.

So he stopped pulling his arm away, and instead comforted Vera softly: he wouldn't let that happen, on the contrary, he would set her free... let a person die for no reason?Go dreaming.

But his consolation didn't work.Vera's strength was small, but she was extremely persistent, and the hand holding his forearm showed no sign of letting go.When Emil spoke, she just kept shaking her head, saying no almost inaudibly.

"Don't... what?" Emil asked in a daze.

Vera raised her head, tears almost filled her slightly red eyes:

"Don't undo the hint."

She didn't seem to care that she was about to be sacrificed, but cared more about the implications.

In other words, Vera would rather die like this than being dismantled by Emil himself from the deepest connection between the two.

She is serious.

Emil has visited her heart countless times, so she understands that this is a confession that is absolutely true, and that it is Vera's deep nostalgia like a baby bird in her heart, which is so gentle that it is almost sad.

His heart tightened, and he became at a loss for a moment, not knowing whether he should cry or laugh, and he didn't know how to answer.

"Why do you say such things?" In the end, Emil could only ask sadly:
"Do you really know what a hint is?"

"Of course I know." Vera said:

"It's the silk thread in your hand that can manipulate my inner thoughts."

"Then you should be able to understand... Your feelings for me now, or the happiness I bring you, are just illusions brought to you by those hints... They don't make any sense at all. On the contrary, you still have ulterior motives. It will just kill you."

"However, I really like the days spent with you..." Vera said naturally:

"Even if it's all an illusion, what's wrong with it?"

Emil opened his mouth, feeling speechless again.Seeing his funny look at the moment, Vera couldn't help but smile suddenly, and the expression between her brows and eyes gradually relaxed:

"You said, if I have always known the existence of hints and allowed myself to be manipulated, is all this still an illusion?"

"Allow yourself to be manipulated..." Emil repeated this sentence confusedly: "Don't you feel resistance?"

"Resist? Why? I think we should be grateful for it..." Vera briefly had a look of reminiscence on her face:

"Ai, can you believe it? Your hints didn't hurt me. On the contrary, they saved me. Ai didn't know what an unbearable person Vera was before she came to Danaro, because I kept hiding it and didn't want Ai Know my bad nature. But tell you now..."

"I was extremely selfish at the time, and I didn't care about anything but myself. I was always looking down on other people, so I was always worried about what others thought of me. I was desperate to prove how special and special I was. So I feel sorry for myself when I encounter a little problem. I can't like anyone except myself, so my vision has become narrow, except for the little anxiety and anger in my barren heart. Can't see anything at all."

"Don't look at me now, in fact, Vera is also a very smart person... But in some respects, she is very dull and stupid. I don't know if I have heard such a sentence: 'Excessive self-focus is pain source.’ Later, Vera understood this truth, but it was too late, because I had already driven myself to a dead end step by step. At that time, I was always worrying about gains and losses, living in infinite worries and fears every day, disgusted And afraid of everyone who can see it. After a long time like this, my heart will slowly rot. I don’t have the slightest love, and all I want is revenge for all of this... So, I made the kind that cannot be accepted Forgiveness."

"So for me, at least for me, the hint planted by Ai has never been a manipulation with ulterior motives." Vera closed her eyes and said with deep gratitude:

"It was a miracle cure."

"Because I can forget myself when I think about Aye, it's like something completely dissolves."

"Because after I came to Danaro... I realized that life can be such an easy thing. I don't have to worry about my decisions all day long, because I just do what Ai says. I can trust unconditionally And relying on Ai, so I feel deeply safe. Ai is like a window to me, it is because I like Ai, so I can see the scenery outside of myself, and then truly love myself, love In this world..."

"Then what does it matter if I didn't open this window myself?"

Looking at the current Vera, it is really hard to imagine what she looked like before she was sentenced to death. It is not an exaggeration to say that she has been reborn.

In fact, Emil always felt that it was her happiness and warmth that saved her.

But it never occurred to him that he was the one who brought all of this to Vera.

(End of this chapter)