old dream

Chapter 395 They Are Expecting
It was impossible for Colin to take Giovanni away, and it was impossible for him to participate in those life-and-death struggles, because that would be tantamount to drinking poison to quench thirst.

What's more, there is no room for him to intervene in Danaro's struggle.

Of course Giovanni knew this too, even more clearly than Colin.So there was no expectation in his plea, more like a desperate complaint.Giovanni never easily put his pain on others, always covered with a layer of laughter or silence, so only when all this collapsed, what was in his heart would be accidentally exposed, It was a dark hole, and there was no sound in it.

Ke Lin stood where he was, not knowing how to face this change, so he could only say in confusion:

"I always thought... you're fine"

He kept thinking about the rumors he had heard in the past two days, Ricardo's worries, and everything he had confirmed with his own eyes:
".Didn't you work hard to quit gambling? You stopped drinking and built such a big greenhouse. I thought you finally found what you wanted to do."

"Why, quitting gambling is something that requires hard work?" Giovanni asked calmly:

"Maybe for those who enjoy it, but I don't. I stopped gambling as easily as I stopped drinking, like someone said to me: 'Giovanni, you I lost all my teeth, so don’t brush your teeth anymore’. I said oh, and never brushed my teeth again. I didn’t care about it, and even felt a little relieved. Do you know why?”

"Because I don't feel anything anymore." He said as he walked towards the ghost orchid he had carefully cultivated:
"There's nothing wrong with anything, including this—"

He picked up the hickory log and slammed it hard at the curtain wall of the glass conservatory.

The ear-piercing glass shattered, making Colin couldn't help closing his eyes.

Immediately the cold wind poured in through the hole, and everything was ruined.

Giovanni stood there expressionless, neither angry nor happy.

Only then did Colin realize that what he had been feeling from Giovanni was not peace.
But heart dead as ashes.

But in his state, how could it be possible to grow ghost orchids?

Colin looked at Giovanni's bewildered look, and suddenly felt that he understood something.

Since he couldn't feel anything, there was only one thing that could support him to do something.

look forward to.

Do you know what is the cruelest torture to the soul in hell?

Let them look forward to it.
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The past of the orchid merchant made Giovanni decide to raise ghost orchids.

Because he also wanted to hear something when he saw the orchid blooming.

This ghostly flower is said to have the power to reach people's hearts.

But Giovanni also knew that this was just a vain and ridiculous sustenance, because he always understood a very simple truth.

It's not who the orchid made me overcome the suffering, but those people who were able to overcome the suffering

Because there is always a precious power hidden in their bodies.

Life is abundant.

I have withdrawn them in advance, and only exchanged some floating money, but I will immediately repay the price of selling my soul-in the day after day of gambling and drinking, I squandered all the money.

It's like an unsolvable cycle, and the only ones who can benefit from it seem to be those who use him from above.

Even in the end, it becomes only by continuing to overdraw yourself that you can feel a little pleasure.

It was painful at first, then adapted, and finally became inseparable.

A man who is extremely powerful on the battlefield is no different from a whore in life.

He and the orchid merchant were two different people from the beginning.

But even knowing all this, Giovanni still couldn't help but look forward to something.

When he retrieved the seeds, he was looking forward to it.

When the conservatory was set up, he was also looking forward to it.

For the first time, he took the train to meet the orchid merchant several times, and asked him about the details of ghost orchid planting. In order to appear sincere, he put away his previous fierce appearance and smiled as simple as those people. This was also because of anticipation.

In order to take care of Guilan, he stopped staying out all night and gave up his messy hobbies.Life has become very regular, because almost every hour, I have to take care of the greenhouse.And every time, he was deeply looking forward to it in his heart.

Maybe for him, the ghost orchid should never bloom.

But a flower will bloom sooner or later.

And after looking forward to it for so long, how can anyone bear it?

"Is it possible that it is?"

Colin said suddenly, feeling the corners of his eyes a little sore:
"There is nothing at all that can withstand such high expectations."

After all, it was just an ordinary orchid.

Not a panacea, nor is it some providence.Those are just things that people entrust to it for themselves.

"I know, of course I know, if you look for it deliberately, you will only be disappointed."

"But what else can I do?"

This tough old man looked so helpless at this moment.

His eyes could no longer shed tears, but Colin seemed to see a crying baby in swaddling.

"No one ever gave me a hand," Giovanni said.

It has been this way for decades.

"Because no one has ever come to give me a hand."

Colin was choked up by the words.

He realized that no matter what he said at this time, it was just preaching while standing up and talking without back pain.

What happened to Giovanni was what should have happened to him.

But he met Bond Ives and healed himself.That was the only difference between him and Giovanni, but obviously not everyone was as lucky as he was.

Colin looked at the ghost orchid that was thrown out of the greenhouse. It was not broken, just like a twilight, a ghost that did not belong to this world, floating unreally under the night.

Colin stared at the ghost orchid, and then he suddenly had a premonition and heard a voice:
This ghost orchid will definitely reappear in my dreams.

Such an ethereal orchid represents some kind of expectation.

This expectation is too heavy, if it is in the past, he must avoid it.But since then, many things have changed.

The current him, especially after experiencing unprecedented cohesion in the fire injection tower, has become peaceful, solid, and powerful.

So I won't avoid many things anymore.

Giovanni is not the kind of person who is blindly dependent on others. He has tried everything possible, but in the end it has not worked out.

This kind of person deserves to be helped.

"That's good." Colin looked at the ghost orchid and said to Giovanni:
"You've tried so hard, so I'm going to give you as much as I can."

"If you believe in me, keep looking forward to it and try your best to live. Until..." Colin turned around:

"The day I found a way."

(End of this chapter)