old dream

Chapter 32 The Forgotten Past

The complete heart shell limits one's perception, and should not see the spiritual body.

That is to say... Colin thought horribly, "It" is in his own consciousness?
When did it start?

The appearance of the other party was vague, and he could only vaguely see that it was a human figure.But Colin felt somewhat familiar with "it" somehow.

Until this time, Colin still couldn't be vigilant about "it" in his heart.

Because "it" gave Colin a very subtle feeling... It was like accidentally seeing in the mirror one day that there was a mole behind him that he had never noticed.

Whether it is aware of it or not, "it" is getting along with itself day and night.Therefore, even the subconscious mind has adapted to the existence of "it".

"Who are you...?" asked Colin.

But the other party seemed to be inaudible and did not respond.

Maybe it's because he doesn't know what "it" looks like yet, Colin thought.

The transcendent cannot communicate with the spirit without giving it an image that the human mind can understand.

At the same time, this "image" is not randomly generated.The process of giving images is similar to tracing and directional creation, and it is very dependent on the inspiration and experience of the walker.

So this is also called "imaging" capability.It is an important part of many perceptions.

The process of "imaging" the spiritual body is like introducing translation and intermediary, and gradually builds a bridge of communication between the spiritual body and the supernatural.

This also means that, in fact, no one has ever seen the true face of these things in the depths of the world intuitively.

Human beings only reluctantly use those memories and experiences that belong to the material world to cast a familiar veil on them.

……

However, the spirit body in the room appeared in an unimagined form.It seems that before the ceremony begins, he has been in his own consciousness.And always wait quietly, waiting for yourself to touch "it".

In the ceremony just now, the reason for the change in the imagination of the flame may be that "it" pushed him behind his back, sublimating his perception, and being able to further perceive the existence of "it".

"You've been following me?"

After Colin asked this sentence, he remembered that they were still unable to communicate.

"Following" is a euphemism, more precisely it should be: imprisoned.

Colin looked at the repaired marks on the shell of his heart.It cuts off its own perception of the spiritual body, and perhaps, also cuts off the way "it" returns.

So, did I not know the image of "it" from the beginning, or did I forget it all at once because of the destruction of the memory of those five years?
I don't know where the sound of rain dripping on the cloth came from. For a while, Colin thought it was raining outside, and he didn't close the window.

He looked around in confusion for a while, only to realize that it was his collar that was wet.

……why?
He touched his cheek, only to find that his eyes began to shed tears at some point.

But he was clearly in a calm mood.

Maybe... those sealed memories are still remaining and functioning in the subconscious.

Some consciousnesses that Colin himself did not notice, felt a strong sadness from the scene just now.

So now it shows, as if Colin's body was crying without permission.

If the truth is what you guessed, then what kind of loneliness has it been for "it" in these ten years?
No one is aware of its existence. "It" can only watch everything silently in its own consciousness, waiting for more than [-] days and nights minute by minute.

If "it" kills Colin, is it okay to get away?The shell of the heart will disintegrate with the death of its master, and its path of return will become a passage.But ten years on, it never seemed to try.

What did "it" really mean to me during those five years?Why is "it" allowed to enter the heart shell before the memory is destroyed?

With Colin's understanding of his own character, there is probably only one reasonable explanation.

"It" is the first spiritual body that responds to my perception when I first came into contact with the extraordinary.

That is, the "teacher" who helped him open the shell of his heart from the outside and took him on the path of ascension.

The only one who has no reservations about the walker, and can be trusted by all.

But now, he has lost the image of "it".

If the memory is not retrieved, even if he can barely perceive the existence of the other party, he will not be able to talk to him.

"It" will also be imprisoned forever.

And oneself will not be able to open the shell of the heart without gaps and be insulated from the path of ascension.

The candles on the table slowly burned to the end, the candles were extinguished, and the ceremony was forced to come to an end.

The water surface that had already reached his chest, the illusions such as huge flames, the Heart Shell and the spirit body sitting in the outer corner of the bed, disappeared as Colin's consciousness exited a certain frequency.

All that was left was the speechless messy tabletop and a wet mark on the collar.

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"She said she didn't want to go back."

The next day, Julio's hotel was imprisoned in the river port area, Ricardo said helplessly.

After she showed a cooperative attitude, they stopped gagging her mouth with socks, although her hands and feet were still tied with ropes.

Of course, the main reason is that Ricardo has been watching over her for the past two days.

"You have seen what happened that night... He put something like that by my side... Are you still going to send me back to that kind of place?"

After confirming that Colin's group would not abuse her for no reason, Julio has stopped struggling for the past two days, so he didn't suffer more.The small wounds on his hands that he had made from trying to break free from the ropes were also healing with scabs.

But a certain egocentric quality remains the same.

"If we don't return you, tell me, how can we get what we need?" Colin chatted casually with her like teasing a child.While looking out the window and the corridor, considering the possibility of this location being exposed.

"Since I came back, nothing good has happened." Julio said with some collapse:

"When Dad died, everyone changed. Does anyone really think I can inherit the family? I've never been exposed to these things, but why do you still involve me."

Just having that last name means threat and opportunity, who cares what you think.

"At least Capello's lightkeeper is indeed protecting you. No matter what the means, he should be someone you can trust."

Colin suggested with rare kindness.After all, Mr. No. [-]'s thoughts on Julio's flowers are obvious to all. Although he has tossed himself a lot, he can see that he has considered it carefully.

"He's a liar..." Julio said bitterly.

Colin sighed.Then I suddenly thought... Compared to the "brain" Nevio who placed Julio as the heir because of his own thoughts.

The second gentleman who caused Julio's misunderstanding and hatred for protecting her.

Seems more like someone who is playing the role of her father.

(End of this chapter)