Nightmare wake up

Chapter 646 The Psychiatrist
"I've lived too long!"

Peg Evelyn said sharply:
"I have lived for too long! I have experienced too many years, met too many people, and too many things, but I am becoming more and more unable to forget the wrong things I have done!"

"When I was in school, I once had a birthday party and had dinner with my good classmates."

"At that time, we were all boarding schools, and we didn't have a lot of pocket money. I... I didn't awaken the ability to contract at that time, and I didn't have much money. Our group of friends all pooled money for each friend. For my birthday, in order to save money, I... I pretended to give the wrong money when I raised funds, and gave that friend [-] copper dollars less, just to save myself [-] copper dollars."

"It seems to be concerned about my friend's face. The friend who I charged more money didn't expose my greed for taking advantage of it, so he took the change I gave him with a smile."

"I knew at the time that he must have found out. It's just that he didn't say anything, didn't say anything, and patted me on the shoulder with a smile."

"Friendship will grow with the growth of the years. This trivial matter of only twenty copper dollars has become more and more clear like a brand."

"But I will never be able to recover this matter, and I will never be able to recover the annoyance of taking advantage of myself. Even if I become a contractor, I can turn back time to a certain extent, but... but I will never be able to change the original fact. ——I am a person who is greedy for petty gain and cheats my friends!"

Moon Shadow Peg Evelyn's voice became sharper:
"Although it's just a trivial thing, a small thing, every time I think about it, it makes me feel pain that I can't control myself. My annoyance is getting worse, and my pain is getting worse. As I recall this thing The number of times is increasing, but the small annoyance caused by this trivial matter seems to spread, and I can no longer face it squarely."

"I'm ashamed of myself."

"You, can you understand?"

"Understood!" Mo Ke tried to keep his tone calm, and replied slowly.

Peg Evelyn smiled miserably, revealing the few remaining teeth:
"Who would have known that just a small matter of twenty copper dollars would make me so annoyed that I couldn't face myself like this in the years to come!"

"Can you understand? No, you don't, you just think I'm a madman struggling for a mere twenty coppers, a."

Mo Ce interrupted her words with a wave of his hand, expressing his own understanding: "Although it is only twenty coppers, it has made you lose your character, and every time you think about it, you will be annoyed by your mistakes at the beginning."

"What makes you more painful is that although you have the ability to turn back time, you can't correct your original mistakes. This little bit of annoyance has gradually become a demon that you can't face."

"Yes, it can't be changed, it can't be changed." Peg Evelyn's voice became sharper, her eyes seemed a little bloodshot:
"Why, why did I do such a thing in the first place and leave such a shameful regret?"

Unfortunately, Unpredictable feels that he only truly understands Peg Evelyn's emotional obsession at this time. The point of regret is not the size of the matter, but the inability to change it.

A small mistake, a small regret, will gradually take root and germinate, forming the beginning that I regret.

This is a bit like what the Taoists said, if you are contaminated with cause and effect, you will continue to cut, and the reason will still be chaotic.

Peg Evelyn's body gradually trembled:
"There. And there"

"When I was a girl, I was close to my neighbor's brother. We were childhood sweethearts."

"His family is well-off. He has always liked me. Even his parents seem to be very satisfied with me. They want us to be together in the future."

"Even later, his whole family moved to the city and we were no longer neighbors. His parents often took him back to their hometown to meet my family. The parents on both sides of the party got along like friends."

"His parents also took good care of me. After I was admitted to university, when I went home during the winter vacation, his parents drove me to the station because I was living in the city at the time, and took me to them first. Home, let us get along for a few days after the hospitality, and then send me back to my hometown"

"It's all human favors." Peg Evelyn let out a long breath of turbid air from her throat, her dim yellow eyes pierced through the void, recalling the scene back then:

"However, I was ignorant and ignorant back then. When he joked with me again and asked me if I would consider marrying him in the future, I, who didn't understand anything, actually spoke uprightly in front of him and his parents. In front of him, he is too ugly. Too ugly!"

"Even if I die, I don't want to marry you!"

Unpredictable heard the words, and felt that his eyebrows in the state of nothingness wanted to twitch.

"Thinking about it now, I'm really missing a string." Peg Evelyn raised her tone again:
"I'm so stupid that I can't look at myself directly! I rejected him so unequivocally and cruelly! And it was in front of his parents!"

"I, I could have used a softer way. Even if I didn't want to, I could have said it more tactfully. But, I don't know why. At that time, I only had such a single mind, so I chose the worst way!"

"Actually, I was really too young at that time, and I wasn't sure whether I liked him. He was not ugly at all, he was tall and thin, and he had a good family background, and... the feelings for me .”

"If I can understand the so-called love earlier, if I can be more mature, and can truly understand whether I have him in my heart, maybe...I mean maybe, I will promise him, and it is really possible to become his bride !"

"I don't even know what exactly I rejected because of a stupid reply. Until many years later, until now, I am still thinking about the original, possible alternatives. If I really married him, I should Will be very happy."

"In that way, I will live a peaceful and happy life, even because I am too peaceful, I will not wake up, I will not become a contractor, and I will live a fulfilling and beautiful life like this."

"Unpredictable, can you understand?"

Unpredictable nodded slightly.

"It's also a small thing. But, until now, 150 years later, whenever I think of my stupid reply at that time, I still feel embarrassed." Peg Evelyn supported the ground with her skinny arms, asking Struggling to stand up from the ground:

"I hurt him, hurt his family, and ended a potentially beautiful love in such a cruel way!"

"Because of that sentence! A sentence that makes me think of it now, I feel extremely stupid. Even in the rest of my life, I dare not recall the embarrassment at the beginning, and dare not think of him again."

"I'm full of guilt towards him. He's so kind, and his parents are so kind to me, but I... hey, it's irreparable, and it's also irreparable. Even though I have the ability to turn back time, I can't. Change the original facts!"

Peg Evelyn seemed to be in high spirits, and her whole body trembled violently:
"It's just such small things, small things that I regret, that make me... I form a situation that I can't face, and make my regrets magnified. This is my emotional obsession."

"I've lived for too long. The regrets and stupidity of the past hurt me deeply, making me more and more unable to face, control, and face up to it."

"Iron God! He gave me the ability to turn back time, but it made me never go back to the beginning, unable to change my stupidity, and unable to make up for the wrong things I did!"

The bone-piercing talisman suddenly spread from Peg Evelyn's body, showing a faint tendency to explode.

In the entire space of consciousness, countless images of light and shadow playback appeared again, and the content inside was played rapidly as if it was fast-forwarding.

These are the memories of Peg Evelyn, each of which is similar to the "little things" she just mentioned. These small regrets seem to be hurting Peg Evelyn gradually as time goes by. Flynn's heart intensified her madness.

Unpredictable understands that this is the critical point of the outbreak of emotional obsession.

Moon Shadow Peg Evelyn has the contract ability to control time, but she can't change the regrettable facts.

The strange connection between emotional obsession and contract ability, Mo Ke felt a little enlightened, but couldn't think about it.

Because, Peg Evelyn in front of her is going crazy!

He had seen the scene where the patriarch of the Megan family died madly in front of him, but now, it was completely different from that time——Moon Shadow was a green rank!
After the crazy explosion, the entire Huanhe Temple will definitely be razed to the ground.

What should I do?
Unpredictable tried his best to calm himself, and manipulated the few talisman sources of the consciousness itself
In the final analysis, Yueying's emotional obsession is "regret", regret for the stupid things he has done in the past!
Who would have thought that those seemingly insignificant things could cause permanent psychological scars on people, so that the wounds became bigger and bigger, and finally became too big to face!
Mo Ke wanted to try using his own way of controlling memory, using his contract ability to delete those regrettable images that Peg Evelyn didn't want to recall.

However, he quickly vetoed his own idea because... there were too many memories!
There is no way to delete all right now!Even if it can be deleted, it is impossible for the young boss to completely forget these embarrassing memories. After all, level suppression exists, and his ability cannot produce the best deletion effect.

In front of her eyes, Peg Evelyn's body seemed to be expanding, and the talisman source in her consciousness gradually supported her thin skin, causing her to roar.

"Ah~~~~"

"Ah~~~ah~~~ah~~~"

She worked hard to adjust her body posture, keeping her blood-red eyes fixed on the unpredictable.

"You escape."

Run away!I really want to escape!But how to escape?Unexpectedly, he wanted to curse, but he still controlled himself not to swear. Who knows if this will make the impending crazy explosion come earlier?

and many more
At this moment, Mo Ke's heart suddenly moved.

let me escape.
This shows that Moon Shadow Peg Evelyn still has normal thinking and consciousness?
Just because of crazy obsession, is subverting the original reason?
Is this the way emotional obsession works?
Is this the unpredictable of the conscious body swallowing a mouthful of saliva that does not exist, and thinking quickly in his brain.

yes!This is similar to. To put it simply, the mentality has collapsed!
This is a psychological problem!
And my own nightmare is the representative of manipulating people's hearts.

The two little things mentioned by Moon Shadow Peg Evelyn made her annoyed, regretted, and unable to face the psychological trauma. In fact, it was because she had a normal and rational thinking and had enough growth. That's how I realized my stupidity.

It's like many people look back at the novel they loved so much ten years ago, but find that they can't read it anyway, because the novel they once loved is so secondary and embarrassing in the eyes of today, and they can't find it again The refreshing feeling when I read that novel when I was young.

People are always growing, and the grass jelly of childhood is often the poison of adulthood, and Peg Evelyn should be embarrassed by those childish things she did when she was young and immature.

The truth is this, but it means a very crucial point - Peg Evelyn is thinking about problems from a mature perspective, and she can realize the mistakes she made at the beginning precisely because she has reason and has always maintained reason .

Reason is the best medicine against madness. Even if she is about to go crazy, she still has reason, and from this perspective, she feels sorry for her past self. This is the way her emotional obsession is out of control.

Unpredictable took a deep breath.

Just now, in the conversation just now, Yueying seemed to have regained her sanity and regained control of her mentality for a short period of time, that is, when she also said that she had many "regrets".

It should be empathy that made her feel that I also had those regrets, those experiences that made her unable to face, so that her mind temporarily regained balance.

A dead horse is a living horse doctor!Just have to give it a try!

Unpredictable raised his head suddenly, and shouted at Peg Evelyn whose body had begun to swell:

"nobody is perfect!"

"nobody is perfect!"

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The source of Fu was wrapped in these three sounds, resounding through the entire space of consciousness.

Three times in a row, making sure that Peg Evelyn, who still retained the last trace of reason, could hear it.

Sure enough, Peg Evelyn seemed to have heard the unpredictable shout, and there was a trace of hesitation in her blood red eyes.

Unpredictability strikes while the iron is hot:

"No one is perfect! Everyone has childish and ridiculous moments, and they all have immature personalities. This is the price of growth!"

"No one has wise thinking and a sound personality from birth, let alone a flawless experience without any regrets!"

"Master Moon Shadow, do you understand?!"

These few words stopped Peg Evelyn's swelling body.

Her blood-red eyes just stared at the unpredictable, but the focus seemed to be out of focus, as if caught in some kind of self-doubt cycle.

Seeing that it was effective, Mi Ke quickly organized the language, and at the same time looked for the appearance of her sister Luo Sheng when she was doing psychological counseling for customers, and imitated a more friendly but calm voice:

"Life is indeed only once. Every experience is a choice, and even most choices have only one chance. No matter how hard we try, we can't change the original choice. Humans are such a comprehensive accumulation of choices. body!"

"However, there are always times when we are immature, we always make wrong choices, and we always have regrets for the future. It's something we can't avoid, let alone get rid of."

"Some people regret for the loss of important relatives all their lives, some people blame themselves deeply for missing opportunities, and some people are ashamed and annoyed because they are ashamed of others, but these mistakes are part of life!"

"It is precisely because of these regrets that our existence is more meaningful! We can recall these regrets and make the future more perfect."

"If a person's experience is perfect, without any regrets, Master Moon Shadow, don't you think it's terrible? A perfect person. What is the meaning of his existence? Recalling the flawless past experience, what else can he imagine future?"

"Those things you regret are the precious wealth of you, Moon Shadow Priest Peg Evelyn. Since you can't change the facts of the past, why don't you learn from them? By the way, Lord Moon Shadow, you have already realized the past. The stupidity that I can't face up to, doesn't this just mean that you are more rational and mature than that time?"

Peg Evelyn's blood-red eyes seemed to have regained a sliver of clarity. She no longer stared at the unpredictable, but thought in ecstasy.

At the same time, the swollen talisman on her body was dissipating.
She muttered to herself:
"Everyone has something to regret."

"Everyone has an unforgettable experience."

"Everyone is stupid at times."

"Imperfection is"

"Is there any meaning in existence?"

(End of this chapter)